CHAPTER TWENTY

"i hate myself for loving you
can't breakfree from the things that you do
i wanna walk but i run back to you
that's why i hate myself for loving you..."

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"Ugh!" I yelled as I looked through my pile of clothes. "Jaws, is everything alright?" Kassidy asked and I snapped my head to her direction. "No, it's not! Far from alright! I can't find my good pair of underwear!" I sighed and Kassidy chuckled as she walked over to me. "Are you sure this is about the underwear?" she asked and I looked down.

"I'm nervous about tonight... I know it's not a date but I can't help it. Wait, you did mention it's not a date because I'm not looking for anything serious, right?" "Yes, yes, Harrison knows." she replied

"You've met him before so what exactly is making you nervous?" she asked out of curiosity. "Come on, he said yes just so we could sleep together and I... I don't know..." I tried to explain but I trailed off as I got lost in my thoughts.

I can't stop thinking about Izzy.

"Are you not ready?" she asked and I chuckled. "No, it's definitely not that. After that dream I'm actually looking forward to it." I said and we both slightly laughed.

Yeah but... What about Izzy?

"Plus, not being able to find my good pair of underwear is genuinely stressing me out, where the fuck is it?" I said as I started digging through the pile again, now with the help of my lovely best friend.

"Hey, don't you have another pair of 'sex undies'?" Kassidy asked and I nodded. "Those over there." I pointed to a black lacy bra with matching black lacy underwear to go with it. "Why don't you wear that? Or the dark red pair?" "Because those are for special occasions." I explained and she raised her eyebrow at me, pausing from digging. "Is this not a special occasion?" she asked and I sighed.

"I'm saving those for someone special..." I said.

Long story short, they are for Izzy and only Izzy.

"Oh, those are for sex with a future partner?" "Strictly." I replied and smiled. "Here! Oh god, finally!" I said, grabbing the pair of underwear and rushing to the bathroom.

~

We entered the club and I immediately sighed. I was not in the mood to be around so many people and one could clearly tell by the resting bitch look I had on my face.

Kassidy and I walked through the club, ignoring all the unwanted stares from men who were clearly in search for a new victim.

Even had to ignore the occasional "You'd be so much prettier if you smiled!", which, let me tell you, took a lot of self control.

But then we reached the booth where the guys were sitting and I locked eyes with Izzy.

Hey, maybe this club won't be so bad after all.

I slightly smiled and looked at the rest of the guys instead since I had been staring at him. We exchanged a couple of "hellos" and a few shots to start the evening.

I didn't pass down on the chance of sitting next to Izzy and immediately after I did that, he slid closer to me and also put his arm around my shoulders.

"Coming here took you long but I guess I could overlook it because you look incredible." he immediately flirted and I smiled. "I do, thanks for noticing." I joked and smiled.

I took another shot and let the tasty liquor burn my throat. I could feel my stress slowly going away and I softly smiled to myself because of the effects the sweet sensation had on me.

"You're on fire tonight, what's the occasion?" Izzy titled his head to the side as he intently looked at me. "I wanted to stay home tonight." I replied as I put my head on his shoulder and sighed. "Ah, I knew it. Silly of me to ask a question whose answer I was awaiting for." he sweetly kissed the top of my head and I smiled.

"So, what are the others talking about, I haven't been paying any attention." I asked and Izzy playfully rolled his eyes because of the meaningless conversation the others were engaging at. "Stupid, meaningless, silly questions, as always." he said and I smirked.

Man, I love this group.

"What's the topic this time?" I asked in amusement, Izzy's reaction immediately sparking my interest. "Who would you rather save on the end of the world. You can only pick one and you have to justify your answer. Think very carefully." he filled me in the gang's stupid shit and I nodded. "Who would you choose?" I asked, looking up at him.

Oh god, he's so beautiful...

"I'm not telling you." he stuck his tongue out at me. "I'm next, you'll have to wait." he continued and I giggled. "Alright, fair enough." I smiled.

"And those are all the reasons I'd pick... Slash." Steven concluded and Slash smiled brightly. "I love you, man. I'd pick you too!" Slash said and Max, who was his date this time, rolled her eyes playfully. "Feels good being this appreciated." she joked and I chuckled.

"Slash, wait for your fucking turn, man!" Duff scolded him and I smiled.

Everytime I had no energy to be around anyone, this group made me regret even thinking of staying home. I loved them all dearly and that was probably the start of my realisation.

These dick heads were the first people that showed me you don't have to be related to someone in order for them to feel like family.

Sure, I had felt that many times before with Kassidy but I had known that bitch my whole life, I often forgot we weren't actually related.

"Izzy's turn, what's your argument?" Axl said and Izzy sighed. "Before you all get mad at me, I want you to listen to me very carefully." Izzy said and Axl looked at him intensely. "Don't do it." he said since he seemed to know who Izzy was going to pick and was clearly not happy with it.

"I pick Juliette." he said and I sat up in shock. "Me?" I asked in disbelief, feeling very touched by his answer. "He did it..." Axl said and rolled his eyes.

Slash shook his head disapprovingly. "What about us, man? Your bros!" he whined and Izzy looked down in guilt. "Look at you picking a chick over us! How dare you, Stradlin'?" Steven continued and I watched the scene unwrap with a lot of amusement.

"Listen, I said! I have a very good point. I picked Juliette because we all love her, we know how great she is and she has the advantage of I can have sex with her!" Izzy argued and the guys all furrowed their eyebrows in realization.

They had completely forgot about that part.

"I want to change my answer!" all the guys yelled one after another, sounding like a bunch of seagulls on the beach.

"Now wait a damn minute, what makes you think I'd let you stick your filthy unwashed dick inside of me?" I challenged Izzy even tho that question was way beyond ironic.

That filthy unwashed dick has been inside of me times I cannot possibly count.

And I enjoyed every single one of them.

The others don't know that though...

"Please." Izzy scoffed and took a sip from his whiskey.

Valid point.

"I could get you in bed faster than Duff orgasms." he said and everyone laughed.

Including Kassidy.

And by what she has told me, Izzy's statement is very truthful.

"Wow." Duff exclaimed in disbelief and took a sip of vodka to try and fix his bruised pride.

Poor thing.

"Oh, I'd like to see you try." I rolled my eyes and Izzy simply smirked.

"I don't think you can do it." Kassidy teased him and I smiled.

This is going to be good.

"What are you going to do? Oil her salad with your greasy ass hair?" she continued and I laughed out loudly in disbelief, as did everyone but Izzy.

"Burn!" Slash said as we kept on laughing

"Or tell her something sweet and then completely disappear for days, because ya know, that shit turns a girl on so much." Max added and we laughed even louded than before, as if that were possible.

Max had not been a part of the group for long now, but her comment was so spot on, I loved her!

"Izzy, write our ideas down! This is the key to Juliette's panties, we're trying it help!" Kassidy teased again, the laughter of the group not dying out. "Is this because I offended your boyfriend?" Izzy asked and Kassidy fake smiled. "I think it's about your terrible hygiene and lack of cologne or deodorant , Izzy." Erin joined the fun.

That's right, girls getting together to roast the shit out of a sexy greasy man, I'm loving this!

"Go to hell, all of you!" Izzy said as he shook his head and took a sip in defeat. "Not you, you're too cute." He said and winked at me as my cheeks turned a rosy color. "Shut up." I said, feeling a little embarrassed.

"Hey, I'm not going to hell if Juliette's not there!" Kassidy whined "Thank you, baby!" Duff said sarcastically. "Sorry honey but I have my priorities. Not everyone is like Izzy, picking chicks over his best friends." she said and we laughed.

Izzy then looked at me and smirked. "What?" I asked in confusion. "You're blushing, I made you blush." he teased. "She's like a strawberry!" Steven added.

HOW CAN THEY EVEN TELL THE BAR IS LITERALLY DARK AS FUCK-

"You call me strawberry while Axl's on the table. That's just not fair." I said in attempt to take the focus off of me and Axl shot me a death glare. "Shut your mouth, tomato." Axl replied and I smirked. "Oo, fiestyy!" I teased. "Shut her up, man." Axl turned to Izzy and pleaded.

"Yes, daddy." I winked at Izzy and they all laughed. "I've been a very naughty girl, make me shut up." I teased even further.

I'm not joking, please do it.

Izzy then grabbed my face and crashed his lips on mine, kissing me very passionately.

Welp, that kiss is going to keep me up at night...

Every single member of our friend group was commenting on the situation but I was too busy having Izzy's tongue down my throat to care.

"That'll teach you." Izzy flirtatiously said as he pulled away and I looked at him in shock as I tried to catch my breath. "Holy fuck." I said and a lustful expression took over on my face.

"I don't think I learnt my lesson, try again." I teased and Izzy smiled. He slowly closed the gap between our faces, painfully slowly, to built up the tension. "What about..." he started and put a few strands of my hair behind my ear as I bit my bottom lip in anticipation. "No." he continued and pulled away with a smirk, leaving me hanging.

"You idiot, kiss her again!" Axl yelled, scaring me half to death.

Oh my fucking god, I nearly forgot they were sitting there!

And that I had invited Harrison...

Harrison reached our table and Izzy looked visibly disturbed once he realised who it was.

"Come to think of it again..."he quickly said and with that, he kissed me again. The passion was the same as before, if not more intense now. It was too much to resist and Izzy was determined to prove a point to Harrison, which made the kiss even more intense and full of emotions that words could not possibly describe.

I didn't even have the time to look at Harrison, let alone wave at him.

And the worst part was that I couldn't stop. The things Izzy's kiss did to me were so satisfying that one would have to be insane in order to break a kiss like that.

It wasn't just the kiss that was hot, or the passion Izzy was putting into it by letting his hands roam around my body (although their favourite placement were cupping my tits), it was the situation that made the whole kiss even naughtier, even hotter and made the aching feeling between my legs even more intense...

We were in a table around people who had been rooting for us since the begging of time, around people who, at least the majority of them, didn't know the pleasurous sinful acts Izzy and I would occasionally engage at and most importantly, we were in front of a man whom I had been planning on sleeping with that very night.

I even softly moaned against Izzy's lips, not caring about the presence of the people around us anymore.

With a final squeeze on my ass, Izzy pulled away so we could breath, even tho we both would trade oxygen with the ability to kiss eachother non-stop without a second thought.

Only for a few seconds, we stared at eachother's eyes, although it felt like forever.

His eyes begged me to stay with him and ignore Harrison, they begged me not to sleep with him because deep inside we both knew that Harrison could never make me feel this way this a simple kiss.

Well, alright, fine, maybe it wasn't just a simple kiss, it was a full on make out session but you get the point!

I cleared my throat and sat up before immediately looking down and excusing myself to go to the bathroom.

"Izzy, you have some lips on your lipstick, man!" I heard Slash joke before I left. "Oh, hey Harrison. Didn't see you there." Izzy's voice was the last thing I heard before I really left took off to my destination.

And let me tell you, I wasn't pleased with what I had just heard.

I reapplied lipstick and stared at the mirror, although, I wasn't really looking at my reflection.

What the fuck was that?

Even though I desperately wanted to, I could not stop thinking about him. His intense gaze and burning touch made me feel dizzy, overwhelmed by the aching feeling between my legs.

He didn't realise the seriousness of his actions, or maybe in this case, he did and decided to ignore it because of his stubbornness.

A foolish move,

why the fuck would he kiss me in front of everyone?

I was only joking!

Sure, Juliette. Go around and act like you didn't want his sweet lips on yours, his tongue to swirl around yours so skillfully, his hands to roam around your body that was begging for his touch.

Act like you didn't desperately want his dick inside of you, making you feel so good while he-

Enough!

I decided to try and focus my attention on the guy I had invited instead. He knew I wasn't looking for a relationship and he couldn't possibly be upset over that.

Right?

Hopefully he wouldn't, why would he?

Ah, my good old nemesis... Anxiety everybody!

It was time to return to the table, enough running away.

I swayed through the sweaty crowd as my heart raced faster than a cheetah hunting on it's prey.

"Harrison, would you like to accompany me to the dance floor?" I sweetly asked, putting on my flirty voice and cute lady charm.

"Sure." he flashed me a small smile and I smiled in satisfaction. Before we left I took one final shot and a glimpse at Izzy, who looked pretty miserable.

Oh no, baby, he doesn't mean anything to me! He's so not like you!

Ah, it was times like those when I wished Izzy could read minds.

Then and only then.

Otherwise, I would make a pretty big fool of myself.

"I gotta ask..." Harrison broke the silence and I nodded. "Go ahead, I would too." I said and he softly nodded, thinking about his set of words very carefully. "What-... Are you two-...?" he trailed off and I could hear the confusion in his voice. "No, no. Izzy and I are best friends." "Ah, yes. Everyone tends to passionately make out with their best friends." Harrison joked and I shyly smiled.

"It's complicated but, tonight is not about him, right?" I winked and Harrison's charming grin appeared on his face.

If it's not about him why can't you stop looking over Harrison'S shoulder to check if Izzy is staring at you?

Shut up, am not! Stupid subconscious, thinks she knows everything.

"If only you promise you didn't invite me to make him jealous, 'cause I would rather to stay out of that." he said and I shook my head as soon as those words left his lips. "No, no, I'd never do that, trust me." I assure him and flashed him a small smile.

We kept on dancing for a good amount of time, long enough to get us sweaty. However, dancing was not the only sweaty activity Harrison and I would participate at that night.

Soon enough, Harrison and I found ourselves in a dark empty alley trying to hold in our moans so we wouldn't draw in attention.

That task was hard,

almost as hard as his-

nevermind, I'm not gonna say that.

because Harrison was thrusting into me like there was no tomorrow. With the various passionate kisses in every place possible, the hair pullings and the nail digging, staying quiet felt almost impossible but somehow we managed it.

We didn't ace it but we did it.

for the most part....

And of course, after the reach of our climaxes, Harrison decided it was time for him to go home. I escorted him to his car and with a wave goodbye, Harrison left.

I returned to our booth, not before a quick trip to the bathroom to fix myself and look more presentable, and winked at Kassidy.

Kassidy immediately sat up and grabbed my hand, dragging me to the bathrooms, as if I wasn't just there, since it was the most quiet part of the club.

"Fill. Me. In. Right. Now." she demanded with a huge grin on her face.

"It was so good." I smiled.

Not better than Izzy.

"He knows how to make a woman's legs shaky. I'm still not over it." I said, my smile not leaving my face.

Nothing like Izzy.

Kassidy squealed and excitedly jumped up and down.

This is a good time to add that she was wearing heels. I have no idea how she did that. I would have fallen and snapped my head open.

"Oh, this is so exciting, I'm so happy for you!" she slightly clapped and I giggled. "Will you be seeing him again?" she curiously asked and I shook my head. "I don't see it happening but you never know." I replied.

Why would I when I have Izzy.

Stop it with Izzy!

"I think Izzy's pissed at you." Kassidy said and my smiled immediately faded. "Why would you say that?" I furrowed my eyebrows.

"Whole night, he barely said anything. All he did was stare