Dear Ashu,
I know hum dono ke beech jo hua, nahi hona chahiye thha. I love you. Shayad itna ki mai usse words bata na paau.

Mai jaana nahi chahti. Inn 4 dino mei tumhari aadat lag gayi mujhe. Pata nahi tumhare bina mera mann lagega ya nahi. Lekin darr hai ki kahi mai ek aur baar hurt na ho jau. I wasnt ready for everything. Not yet.

Whatever you and I shared was amazing. But the only problem was I wasn't ready. This letter is for the artist in you which we never talked about. I dont think we will ever meet, but if we do, do not talk about the contents of this letter in front of me. I wont be able to talk about it there as nicely as I can here.

You I once asked Aarav what is bad art and he replied, 'There is nothing called as Bad Art."

I kinda thought over it again and again and I realized what it meant. I'll save you time and tell you right what I figured out. He meant there is nothing called as Bad Art. There is art which makes out feel on good on a personal level and there is art which doesn't.

Yours is pretty much like what makes you feel something. If we ever unite and if we ever reach a point where you and I are mentally prepared and free to hear each other's sob story, I'll love to listen what makes you write what you write, sing what you sing, make what you make.

Sometimes I feel you are burdened as fuck, I feel so, may be wrong, its probably wrong. But you fake it so much that I have to tell you this - There is a lot of unspoken pressure to keep you that makes you like things you like, people you love, the way you behave. But you ever feel like not doing it, dont do it. It'll fuck you up and you regret it on your death bed. Dont die ridiculously.

You are thrilling with your messy hairs, avenger jackets, loud music, loud laughs, your picky choices, always up for a party, dont stay around for hours, passionate. You are an adventure. And I love the fact that you dont disguise it like others. You are what you are on camera as well as in real life. Donot take this as a lecture but be what you like and do what you find comfortable without any hesitation. Don't die ridiculously.

One day, I pray you will get a gorgeous girl who will be with you through ever turn of your life. Gods forbid, if anything happens between you two and you find yourself in a place you didnot expect to be, remember you have your friends and family by your side. Be it 3am or 3pm they will always be there for you in your luxurious car. Dont forget to feed them ice cream to munch on as sob. You dont always need love to fill you up.

Nature and universe is linked to your mind so if you take a walk alone, you get through anxiety and other problems. Sitting and observing will ease your anger. Looking after some plants will distract you from your problems. You live in a ugly world with a beautiful and thrilling nature and a dark personality. Make use of it.

I repeat, DONT DIE RIDICULOUSLY!!!

If you do, I'll haunt you forever. Trust me, you dont want that.

Take care of Muski. Lets hope she finds someone better than Aarav. Apologize to Tanni on my behalf. Tell him I left. I wont be able to join the team. Thank your friends for everything. Tells hope you and Aarav become friends again, forgetting the past. I Love You Mr. Raunak❤!! And I always will!

~Yours, And Forever Yours, Aditi❤