"Please don't leave."

*****

Resting his head on your lap, you let yourself play with his thick hair, as he was playing games on his phone. Moments like these were always rare when he was a really famous public person while I was an anonymous person, not known to any public eye. And the both of us were in a relationship.

As expected of a person in the public eye, although it was not comfortable or considerate at all, it was reasonable that this person will have rumors going around.
These days, there was a rumor going around that had a connection to Taehyung's love life, but you weren't part of that rumor. It was with another idol, coming from a very popular girl group.

At first, when the rumors were not that big, you didn't have much problem with that, you knew Taehyung's love to you and what you were to him and you didn't question that at all. The problem started when the rumors started to get bigger after being at the same award shows, or verity shows. Your problem was when the rumors got so big and none of the sides made a move about clearing those rumors.

Of course you didn't expect Taehyung to just go 'I'm not in a relationship with this idol cause I have a girlfriend' cause you were still in a private relationship, but a good 'we're not together get off of our backs' would've been nice right?

Still playing with his hair, he hummed and put his phone down. Laying his head back until he laid flat, Taehyung looked up at you cutely from your lap. "What?" you said and giggled.

Taehyung shrugged. "Nothing, you just don't talk as much as you used to do. Are you ok? Is there's something bothering you my love?" He asked and got up from the comfort of your lap to a sitting position. He watched you with his curios puppy eyes and you felt your inside melts. He always had this effect on you.

You sigh and play with the bottom of your long sleeved t-shirt making Taehyung lean his head to the right side, questioning you, before sighing after realizing what's wrong with you.
"It's that thing again, am I right?" He asked in his deep voice.

Licking your lips, you look up to meet his gaze, which was now colder than before. Here we go again...

"Y/n how many times do I need to tell you that just because you're asking me to deny the rumors I can't just go and deny them." He say in a monotone voice. The same thing he says each time when you're asking.

"And why is that?" You ask in a quiet voice.

"Because I'm not alone in all of this. I can't just go and say whatever I want on the media. I'm not the only one who's going to be affected by denying those rumors, there are more people around me." He says, rolling his eyes.

Looking down again, you felt the tears in your eyes but you don't let them fall, instead, you are sniffling, trying to keep them inside.

"But don't you think for a moment that I'm being affected as well? Can't you stop for a moment and think how I'm feeling? You say there are people affected from this but what about me, am I considered the same level as the others?" You ask and look up.

Taehyung just let out a sigh, as he pulled the upper part of his hoodie on top of his head and furrowed his eyebrows.
"Y/n. You're overreacting" he said as he watched you with no emotion whatsoever on his face.

Chuckling you shook your head in disbelief.
"Taehyung. I'm not overreacting, I'm just uncomfortable seeing all the ships of you and her on the media, all I'm asking is for you to clear things up a bit."

Taehyung did a 'tsk' sound with his tongue and fixed his sitting position, shifting in his place. "Why are you acting like this y/n? I'm trying to explain to you that you aren't alone in this situation and if I say something wrong, both the staff and her can get affected. Stop being so selfish." He said carelessly, the words just slipping so easily out of his mouth.

You couldn't hold your tears anymore.

"Selfish?" you asked in a soft and almost unnoticeable voice. "Affect her?" You asked again. You shook your head and got up from the couch, walking angrily to the house' entrance.

"Y/n where do you think you're going?" Taehyung raised his voice as you heard him getting up as well and follow you.

Sniffling again you angrily swiped the frustrated tears that are coming out of your eyes. Quickly arriving to the front door, you bend down put your boots on.

"Y/n I'm talking to you!" Taehyung yelled, making you flinch.

"So what?!" You yelled back as you got up and turned around to look at him, tears pouring out of your eyes. "I'm the one that's supposed to be at the top of your priorities! Not the staff and especially not her! How would you feel if I was the one to be rumored to spend my time with another guy, shipping us and talking romantically about the both of us while you stand helplessly on the side, begging me to stop this, watching without being able to say anything!" You cry while raising your voice at the end.

Taehyung looked down with his eyes closed, taking a deep breath.

"I didn't think about it in that way."

Staring at him in disbelief you bend down again to zip and tie your boots, going up then to unlock the front door, getting ready to go out. "Y/n wh- what are you doing?" Taehyung asked worriedly as he watched you unlocking the front door. Where you leaving him? He thought.

"Heading out." You say in the most bored tone, trying to hide how hurt you are feeling right now. Opening the door you felt Taehyung's big and warm hand wrapping itself around your hand that was on the door's handle.

"You can't head out right now. It's cold and it's dark-"

"And do you think I care?" You asked turning your head back to look at him. He was watching you with a hurt expression on his face. "Leave my hand right now, I need to get out of here" you say coldly and pull your hand harshly out of his grip, going out and slamming the door after you.

Letting the tears fall, you got out of the building and walked aimlessly. You didn't have any plan, you just needed to walk. Walk, breath and clear your mind.

Walking with your head down, you walk and walk and walk for at least an hour, until you finally decided to stop for bit and catch your breath. Stopping in your place you took your time to look around you, seeing that you're in an unfamiliar area. Feeling a rush of wind, you were now realizing how much colder it got since the moment you got out. All you were wearing was Taehyung's long sleeve t-shirt, sweatpants and boots. You wrapped your arms around your figure as you started to panic. Where the hell am I?

The tears have now stopped falling as you started to shiver. How do I go back home? Do I even want to go back home? You thought and sigh as all the thoughts making the tears appear once again.

'I didn't think about it in that way' you recall Taehyung's words and it made you cry even harder. You were hurt by his actions, by his words. You needed explanation, you needed an apology, you needed his love and you were upset he didn't understand your point of view.

A sound of phone ringing was cutting your deep thoughts. Sniffling, you bring your hand inside your sweatpants pocket. Pulling it out, you see your boyfriend's name calling you.
Swiping the screen, you answer the call and put it next to your ear. You clear your throat to make your voice sound stable as much as you can. "Hello?" You ask, but your voice cracked.

"Y/n?" You heard Taehyung's voice in your ear.
You sniffle, signaling him that you're here.

"Y/n I tried giving you the space that you might've wanted but it's getting too cold and dark for me to like it. You can still be mad at me, I deserve it, but please stay mad at me when you're inside and safe."

"Where are you?" He asked worried.

You take a breath and shake your head.
"I don't know where I am Tae." You say nervously and you hear him sigh in the phone.
"Don't get nervous love. Just... just describe me what you see around you, I might know the place ok?" He asked in a soft voice, trying his best to reassure you. You nod even though he can't see you.

"Um..." you start saying and advert your eyes too look around you. "There's a big green park in front of me, with a few benches and trees." You say.

"Love you're describing right now all of the parks that exist in the world. Please be more specific" he say and that makes you smile. Even when you are disappointed with him, he still manage to sneak into your heart and warm it.

Looking around for more details, you caught something familiar in your eyes. "Tae do you remember where you first bumped into me? The café?" You ask him after seeing the place you met him for the first time.

Saying this make Taehyung laugh. "You mean the place where I accidentally bumped into you and you looked at me like lasers coming out of your eyes? Hell yeah I remember, even with your scariest glare you were the prettiest person I've ever laid my eyes on." He says with a dreamy sigh after remembering meeting you for the first time.

"Then I'm here." You say in a quiet voice and that's when you hear over the phone the sound of keys and jacket zipper being zipped. "Stay there love, don't go anywhere. I'm coming."

*

Ten minutes passed and suddenly Taehyung's car which you recognized came to view. Pulling aside the car stopped. You let your feet carry you there, but there was still this heavy feeling in your heart. What's going to happen when I'm going to be inside of it? Is he going to say something? Or should I say something first?

Opening the car's door, you were greeted with a wave of heat coming from the air condition. You got inside but didn't dare to make any eye contact. A silence fell between the both of you, none of you dared to say something.
You were staring at your lap, fiddling with your fingers, before a large hoodie was placed in your lap.

"Here, I brought you this. You must be cold" Taehyung said awkwardly, braking the silence.
You mattered a small "thank you" before slipping on the warm hoodie that smelled exactly like him.

Pulling back into the road, silence fell again between the both of you, only soft sounds came from the music on the radio. From the corner of your eyes you could see Taehyung's glare on you each couple of seconds. He looked like he wanted to talk with you, to say something, but didn't know if he should or shouldn't.

All of a sudden, he sent his arms to turn off the radio completely. Now it was completely silent.
You heard the signaling sounds, before Taehyung got inside a small parking lot and stopped the car.

"Y/n." Taehyung says your name and you feel the shivers make their way through your body.
You lift your eyes up from your lap to look at him. He was staring at you with such a broken expression on his face. His lips that you loved so much to see in his smile were now turned downwards and his eyes were glossy.

"I'm really, really sorry for not understanding you y/n." He says and he voice broke at the end but he kept going. "I completely ignored your feelings and put others people before you when I shouldn't. You mean so so much to me and it's breaking me knowing how I treated you when I know you would've never done this to me if the roles were reversed. Please forgive me. I'll fix everything, I'll shut the rumors and I'll cherish you and treat you better. Please don't leave." He says in a beggy tone as a tear slipped out of his left eye.

This is all you wanted to hear. Him apologizing and loving you harder. There is no need to hold it against of him when you see him suffer like that. "Please don't cry, it's hurting me to see you like that." You say and lean forward to wipe his tear with your thumb.

"Only if you're going to take me back." He says and you feel yourself smile a bit.

"Tae when did I say I'm leaving you? Thank you for saying these words, I forgive you." You say with a small smile and he smiles after you.
The next thing he does is pulling his car seat back signaling for you to come.

"Over there?" You ask pointing at his lap making him nod quickly like a child.
Giggling, you unbuckle your seatbelt and moving over the gear, settling yourself on his lap. Looking at him with a smile, Taehyung wrapped his hands around you and pulled you into his warm chest. Hugging him back, you finally feel at ease. Happy and warm.

Taehyung pressed his lips to the top of your head multiple times, making you giggle.
"I love you so much cutie-" he mumbled on the top of you head making you smile.

"But you're going to need to get down from my lap if you want us to arrive home tonight." He says now with a serious voice.

You shake your head. "Nah-ah, not moving, you can keep driving while I'm staying here. End of discussion" you say and look up at him, raising your eyebrow, like challenging him to disagree with you. Taehyung sighs and buckle the both of you. "Let's go."

"Love you." You say through giggles as you kiss his chest.

*

Question: what is one thing you're good at?

My Answer: well... I don't have any talents AT ALL, but I think I'm good at being a good friend maybe??? Yeah.. :)