"Traitor"

The urge to swing at them with my hockey stick made me realize just how upset I was. I kept reassuring myself it probably is a misunderstanding, but I know that's a lie.

He noticed my eyes staring deeply at him and the girl. He quickly stands up, pushing the girl off of him as he walks towards me.

Before he can say any explanation, I slap him across the face hard enough for everyone to notice what was going on. It was the only thing I want to do other than curse at him and make myself look like the crazy one. Somebody stops the music as the loud chatters and laugher die down and then becoming completely silent.

"I'm gonna ask this question in the most nicest way possible" I said in a deep and calm tone "Who is she?" 

He gently puts his hand where I slapped him, he probably felt the sting because even my hand feels hot. He stares back at the girl, then back at me innocently.

"Nai-"

"I said who the fuck is she Dean?" I repeated, already building up all my rage inside me

"Excuse me, but you better watch your fucking tone" the girl steps up between us as she points her finger at me

"I'm going to give you five seconds to move your finger out of my face before I drop your bitchass to the ground and break that finger of yours, along with your whole hand" I spat

People around us started to get hyped, making the girl get confident. I felt the adrenaline as my hands started to shake a little, but I gripped my hockey stick as tight as I can.

"Octavia don't-"

"Nah, this bitch thinks she can disrespect you, but she needs to get dropped babe" she snarled

"Oh now you two have cute names now?" I scoffed as I looked at him and back at her "Before I break this whore's whole arm, explain to me why you decided to lie to me, hm? I'm very curious"

Everyone stared at him as we heard low "oohs" filling the whole room. I felt a tug on my sweatshirt as I realized it was Luis who was behind me. Dean's innocence of a face soon became furious.

"Fine, do you really wanna fucking know?" He retorted as he points to Luis "He's the problem Nairobi!"

Everyone soon got a bit excited, as Luis and I looked at him and each other confusingly. It was like they knew something we didn't.

"That makes no fucking sense" I cursed

"Makes no fucking sense? Are you fucking kidding me?" He scoffed as everyone continued with the low gasps and whispers "As if I don't know what you two do when you're together"

It didn't make any sense. Everything coming out of his mouth sounded nonsense. I soon connected the dots and suddenly realized what he is trying to say, making me burst out in anger.

"Are you fucking serious right now?!" I snapped "You must be out of your fucking mind Dean!"

"Bullshit"

I scoffed "You really wanna fucking know?! Alright then! Luis and Connie broke the fuck up! He hasn't been his fucking self since and the last thing he needs is someone to make his dick hard. So tell me Portman, am I cheating, or are you just a fucking idiot?!"

My hands started to shake even more as I felt a lump on my throat. It had a little bit of pain, but it soon went away. Maybe it was the fact that not only I was upset that he accused me of such nonsense, but it hurt me that he even thought of it.

"Don't play dumb Nairobi Cortes" He began

"No, you shut the fuck up right now!" I spat "Because I swear, I will make you feel like a piece of shit"

"Fine, I guess that ends this conversation!" He spat

"Yeah, and it also ends our damn relationship as well" I scoffed as everyone gasped loudly "Come on Luis, let's leave this shithole before I die from a heatstroke"

"Oh hell no! We aren't done with our conversation" the girl cursed as I turned back to her "You think your ass can leave like you're all that?"

Everyone started to cheer as if they were on the edge of their seats. I wanted to leave this place, but people started chanting "fight" over and over, which made me even more angrier.

I hand my stick and bag to Luis as I grabbed my hair. He looks down at me with wide eyes as his eyebrows began to slightly push together.

"But Nai-"

"Give me thirty seconds. Grab me when you reach it, got it?" I demanded as he nods

"Don't go crying home to daddy alright?" She smirks as stretches her arms

I felt my fight or flight turn on as I tackled her and drop her dead on the wooden floor. People continued to cheer as I rapidly punched her entire face over and over, my fists connecting perfectly. She continued to block most of the punches with her hands, but most of them targeted right under her eyes.

It sounded as if Dean or Luis was calling my name, but it sounded faded. I kept ignoring them, wanting to make this girl feel the pain I feel when I saw Dean all over her.

Honestly, my hands were hurting like crazy- some parts even started to drip down blood, which I know is going to leave a bruise later on. However, I didn't care about the girls life. I know that sounds heartless, but no one ever brings up my dad. Especially if it's someone that I don't like or even know.

"Nai we gotta go!" Luis shouts as he drags me away from her

He grabs my hand and pushes past people to find the exit. I felt my adrenaline rush all over my body as Luis and I kept running.

We stop running after a few blocks away from Dean's building, both of us panting like crazy.

"Nai you alright?" His hands rested on each side of my shoulder "Man, I kept calling you and calling you but you were out of it"

He continued to talk, but I wasn't all there. I was still trying to process what just happened.

He cheated.

I walked past him and wasn't paying attention. I felt Luis grab the collar of my sweater with all his might as a car honks past us as an elderly lady cussed us out.

"Nairobi snap out of it!" He gently shakes me "Geez, you almost got yourself killed. Maybe you should sit down real quick"

He gently sits me down at the edge of the sidewalk as he takes a seat next to me. He grabs his bag as he shuffles through it. He offers a piece of candy, which I looked at confusingly.

"Eat it. My mom said that you should always eat something sweet to calm down your adrenaline" he explains as I grab it and take a bite of the candy

We sat there in silence, as the sound of cricket's chirping, the sound started to calm me down. Everything happened so fast that I didn't realize how badly my hands hurt.

"We should probably go now" I spoke up as I stood up and grabbed my things

"Nai, your hands"

I look down at them, covered in dried and fresh blood. Even the small breeze made me wince.

"I'll clean them up later"

"Are you sure you're alright?"

I nod as I looked up at the dark sky "It's getting late and I don't want our moms to be worried. Plus we have school tomorrow"

We continue to walk back home as I felt a bit of emptiness in me. I wanted to like- throw something, yell at something or someone, but I possibly couldn't. All I had was just built up anger and sadness that I had no idea what to do with.

"You sure you're alright Nai?" Luis repeated himself from before

"Don't know" I shrugged "But I don't care to be honest" I continued as I kept walking, a bit ahead of Luis.

"You can talk to me, you know that right?"

"Course I know" I turned to him as I stopped on my tracks "I mean, everyone says that. 'You can talk to me' 'I will just listen' 'I will be there for you'"

Luis paused as I continued "He used to say that shit all the time"

"Nai-"

"And what's funny is that I listened!" I laugh, trying to not break down crying "God, I was such an idiot huh? I should've known he wasn't the one when he became distant, but who gives a fuck Y'know?"

"Nai, please-"

"It's so stupid! This world, that relationship, everything! It's just so fucking stupid!"

I went back to walking as I wiped my eyes in frustration. I couldn't let Luis see me like this. It's just a thing that I have. I'm supposed to be the friend that can handle shit just fine. I can't look weak.

It started to rain as Luis and I began running home. I said my goodbyes and ran home before it got worse. I knew I was going to get a small lecture since it seemed late.

I quickly opened the door as mom was standing there worryingly. She became even more worried when she saw my face and hands.

"What happened to you?!" She asked with a puzzled look as she examined my face and hands

"I'm fine mamá, don't worry about me" I answered as I gently moved her hands from my face and walked passed her, continuing up the stairs

"Nai, don't make me ask you-"

"I got into a fight okay?!" I spat as I turned to her "And I guess it's all my fault for being like this!"

I realized how angry I sounded as tears were rolling down my face. It finally got to me, the frustration, the sadness. I just stood there, wanting nothing but my mother's comfort.

"Go take a shower mi amor (my love), then we'll talk" was all she said as she goes to the kitchen

I was surprised, but went to take a quick hot shower. I couldn't say that I was scared on what she was going to do, but I just had to trust her.

As I finished and went to my room, she had my hot dinner on my desk as she sat there waiting for me.

That's when she did it. Her arms were opened as I ran up to her and began bawling my eyes out. Her comfort was exactly the same when I was a little girl.

"Let it all out mi niña preciosa (my precious girl)" she whispers "I know it hurts"

"I-It's all my fault" I quavered

"No no mi chiquita (my little girl)" she told me as we pulled apart "Don't blame yourself"

She gently wipes the tears off my face as more kept rolling down. I was a complete mess.

"You don't have to tell me everything, but I want you to know that I'm here for you. For anything" she assured me

I sniffled as I wiped my tears once more "I-I don't even know where to start"

She gives me a warm smile "Let me patch your hands up and whenever you're ready, just talk"

She sat me down as she began deeply cleaning my wounds. It didn't take long for me to finally tell her what happened. She listened and nodded as I wanted her to, and she finally said what I needed to hear.

"I'm sorry my love, sometimes things aren't meant to be, but that shouldn't stop you" she comforted me "You want me to kick his ass?"

I let out a soft laugh "No, you don't have to"

"Darn, I was gonna call Nina and tell her to round up her frying pan so we can jump him" she added which made me laugh more

"Thanks, but it's okay"

"You must be hungry for fighting so I re-heated the food I made" She smiled "And if you wanna stay home tomorrow, that's fine. I'll let you take some days off"

"Did I ever tell you how amazing you are?"

"Five thousand and thirty nine times you told me. Now counting right now which is five thousand and forty times" she commented

"Thanks again mamá. I really mean it"

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