(Alot of you wonderful people read the smut I write but I'd appreciate it if you guys would read normal chapters too, it's okay if you don't since after all this book is about smut but also about love and trust, I hope the few who read other chapters too enjoy this, thank you again too, I'll continue to write more stories and chapters :) PRETEND ENNARD IS H7MAN AND A NORMAL KID IN COLLEGE 👹 SHH.

The bell rang for P.E, I went into my dorm and went to finish decorating my room, bunking 30 minutes of P.E I could hardly even focus in class but still pass with a B+ since I was always looking at Ennard, my best friend I have a crush on, it all happ after 8thto 9th grade, everyone including my friends hated me after the accident. I was forced by my friends to put Chris- never mind, thinking about it would only make me hate myself even more. But with Ennard I always want to be the best version of myself around him and want to be alive, he makes me gain hope, no one hung out with me after everything and he knew, but still sat with me everyday talked to me about random things, at first I ignored him and went into a deep depression at the time, one day when he came up to say hi, he saw me hurting myself and immediately froze, I thought he'd make fun of me like the others but I flinched when he hugged me from behind crying telling me to not hurt myself, he even went to as far as cleaning up my wound and bandaging and at times I'd wake up early for class just to walk out my dorm seeing him sleeping leaning against the wall in his pajamas making sure no one bullied me and I was safe at night, I love him so much "MICHAEL!! I made a deal to do Andrew's homework for exotic butter" "really Ennard" I chuckled
Ennard rolled his eyes and smiled, Although I've heard some rumors of Ennard liking me too I never believed it I think he's an idiot for hang with a boring person like me, but I loved his company "ooo I love how you decorated the  place" Ennard admired the room while I hung up the fairy lights, "let's get going to the Gym, if we're even more late then this we get detention and have to run 50 more laps, let's get going eggs" It was a stupid nickname Ennard gave to me since I hate eggs, I nodded my head and changed into my P.E clothes in front of Ennard, he didn't mind but he would stare, not in a judging way and definitely not in a 'I don't care way' He would just smile and act as if nothing happened, I felt embarrassed since my legs were always bruised cause of the bullies and had a bung of bandages on them although my legs were still soft and knees still pink, Ennard grabbed my hand and pulled me intonthe the gym, and ran into the crowd running not getting caught coming late after we successfully made it into gym, we got ourselves drinks from the vending machines and talked and laughed at eachother, And then to ruin the entire bubbly moment my ex friends aka bullies came to us "Hey fags" "Hey asshole" the others laughed at how Ennard demolished him with one insult that backfired "watch your tone red head. Or I'll make you kill yourself with just your bare hands." Oh nooo I'm so scared" Ennard rolled his eyes, The coach left the gym since it was now lunch time, Me and Ennard knew we were fucked, Ennard pushes me behind himself so I wouldn't get hurt "Touch a single hair of him and I'll kill you." I always admired Ennard when he acted brave, even thought this was the hundredth time and we knew we were gonna get jumped, the group started whispering and laughed, no one was in the gym put us, two of them grabbed me and I didn't even fight it cause they'd just hold me and tease Ennard.. or so I thought. "If you really lOvE him prove it" one of them laughed and pulled out a lighter and cig after   the others that were left held Ennard to the ground "What do you mean?-" he started getting closer to me and lighted his cig "what are you gonna do?.." Ennard asked hoping it wasn't what he thought was gonna happen, I looked at Ennard confused and worried not knowing what was about to happen, "tch i can't throw a already lighted cig on the floor~ silly me, guess I'll find an ash tray~" he walked over to me, "Stay away- wait what are you gonna do- NO! WAIT-" Ennard even screamed trying to break free and save me "FUCKING GOD-" I cried out in pain as I felt a string burn peirce into my skin "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT? MONEY? DRUGS? JUST LET HIM GO YOU ASSHOLE!"  before I knew it another cig was lighted up and burned into my skin, I screamed in pain and cried "FUCK YOU, YOU SON OF A- AH FUCKING DAMNIIT!- "I'll stop, just make out with the freak and let us record, or his pretty blue eyes and knees are next." "You wouldn't. "Oh yes I would~" I slowly saw him approaching me lighting another cig coming closer to me, I shut my eyes tightly and felt the warm air of the flame close to my face  "OKAY!! JUST LET US GO PLEASE!" The asses laughed and dragged us by are hair while on our knees, Ennard looked down crying in anger and then looked at him as his gaze softened, he mouthed "sorry" I gave him a small smile knowing we'll be okay and safe after a few minutes, one started recording while the two who had a fist of out hair in their hands bashed out faces together, Ennard started to kiss me, and even though the situation I was in was terrible his kiss made it all go away so easily, the bullies started laughing and calling us slurs, I felt Ennards kiss started to get rough out of anger because of those assholes, he cut my lip by mistake

Making me jump back, the assholes had ran away, leaving Ennard looking at the floor with his hands making a fist out of anger "I'm sorry" I muttered Ennard looked at me and again, his gaze had softened and took a second to realize I was on the urge of crying, he immediately plastered on a smile and hugged me "let's go back and get cleaned up, okay?" I nodded ashamed to say anything. We both get up and Ennard had wrapped his arm around me while walking to his dorm, we went into his room and he took out some comfy clothes and a first day kit "I'm gonna skip this last class, I suggest you do too." "Ye-yeah." Ennard looked at my legs and I looked away embarrassed "you should take care of your wounds dumbass" he said jokingly and smiled
"Can i?-" "Mhm." Ennard took out bandages and cream and took care of the wounds even the new ones on my arm "Here's some clothes- you should stay the night" "I don't wanna burden you-" Ennard grabbed my hand and pulled me into his chest and whispered "please.." into my ears, I just left back to my dorm leaving him there, I went back to my dorm and into my room throwing my clothes on the floor too exhausted to pick them up, a few hours pass by and I wake up, it was 8 pm I slept for 5 hours not as much as before, I got up and cleaned my room I had a beige hoodie with some black shorts, white socks and white and black Nike dunk high shoes, yes even though my life sucks I gotta recpect my feet 🤜💥

I went out of my dorm to see Ennard walking outside, out of curiosity I followed him, I saw some older man yelling at him, Ennard had his hands in his pockets and looked at the ground bored out of his mind, I was gonna lose my shit, He already has alot to take in could this be the cherry on top? I speed walked over Smack* The older lad had smacked Ennard across the face, I slowly walked over then, Ennard saw me and looked confused and concerned "Mi-Michael??" It all happened so quick I was so blinded by my anger that I kicked this peice of shit in the face, thanks to lizzy for forcing me to play gymnastics or whatever with her, I was flexible as a bendy pencil. Ennard stared in confusion and shock, the man didn't say a word but panicked back into his car and sped away "Ennard are you okay??" "I'm so confused? How did you know I was here?- how did you even do that and and are you okay??" He was concerned about me as usual "I'm okay, are you? And who was he??" "No one important- let's get back inside, the gates close at 9 pm" "Okay Ennard, I understand that your always worried about me but as your best friend I need to know if your okay too" "IM FINE OKAY!?" I looked at Ennard but this time pissed "YOUR NOT, YOUR REALLY AREN'T, YOU KEEP SAYING YOU ARE BUT YOU-" Ennard cut me off by kissing me causing me to jump back, but he kept going I pushed him off "I don't wanna hurt you because, I love you it's been 3 years eggs.How do you avoid the signs?"i look at Ennard and immediately jump into his arms kissing him, He stumbled back but I kept going "let's take this to my dorm okay?"  first" I grabbed Ennards hand and we both walked back to my dorm, I was unlocking my dorm and felt cold hands hands wrap around my waist, I shivered at first but ignored it until Ennard dug his head into my shoulder, he always does it no matter what "your warm." He spoke in a sleepy tone, I chuckled at him "How about you stay the night?" "Mhm.." "I'll make some tea first, and I have extra toothbrushes for guests in my bathroom cabinet" again Ennard responded with "Mhm.." we got inside and I turned on the house heater and locked the doors, Ennard sat down on the couch and looked tierd as ever "your place is cozy" "so is yours" I smiled and went to the kitchen to make tea "Eggs" "yeah?" "Can I be your roommate? I don't like being wlone- if your okay with it." "Yeah" I brought the tea to the living room "Here" I also pulled out a bottleof wine and alcohol(Time skip cause I'm lazy to write for this chapter) we both had a good laugh and cracked jokes and I kept drinking,afterwards we both started talking about others until I looked at Ennard and the way he looked at me was different, he's always been the one to show such gazes but this was different he looked so, just so full of love "Eggs, about earlier, I'm so sorry I didn't mean to-" "Ennard I , I love you"  "I know eggs" he smiled "And I want us to-To be together, I'll wait till tomorrow since your absolutely wasted" Ennard chuckled, I grabbed the burnt spaghettis hand and smiled back too, I've always had a crush on him but never thought he'd like me "Ennard I've loved you since 8th grade" I said Ennard looked at me laughing, he believed me but he was laughing at how sober I got myself I was literally flirting with him, "I'm gonna record this just to mess with you tomorrow"

ENNARDS pov: I placed down my phone and started recording  Michael since he was wasted "yOu kNoW wHaT
sPagHeTtI" Michael took another shot "Yes eggs?" I laughed  "I wAnNa kIsS yOu" "I don't think that's a good idea" I continued laughing, "cOmE oNn JUST oNe kIsS!" Michael slammed the shot cup down on the counter and went face to face "Hey~" i hummed in a joking manner still laughing "EnNaRdDd" "mhm?" "YoUr sO preTTyyyY" I smile at Michael a bit flustered "okay pretty boy" "I'm SeRiOuSs I wRitE aBoUt yOu iN mY jOuRnAl aLl tHe tImEeE~" Michael sat on my lap but I ignored it "Alrighty, you sure know how to drink, let's get you too bed, okay?" "NOoO- KiSsS!" "Your drunk idiot" I rolled my eyes and wait an hour till Michael settled down a bit, I picked up Michael and he hugged me "I Love yOu" "... I love you too eggs" I smile and tuck him in, just as I was about to go to clean up the living room and sleep on the couch, I feel a soft hand grab my wrist and turn to see Michael sitting up and looking away embarrassed "s-SlEep with mE-" I let out a chuckle "Jeez
your cute" I went around the bed and went intonthe covers and slid next to Michael but not too close to him "you shouldn't drink so much you know, your lucky u was around otherwise you would've went out your dorm and gotten hurt" "EnN?-" "mhm?" "I love you" "I love you too