My vision goes black for a few seconds before I'm back. I'm no longer in the ship, but I'm Brooklyn... 1940's.I'm in the streets and I hear a soft dancing Melody on a radio I cant see. I see a little girl, crying I walk up to her and she looks at me with a tear stained face. 

"You killed me." She says

"What?..." I say bending down to her height.

"You killed us all." The little girl is soon surrounded by tons people and they bleed, all of them start to bleed. The music shakes and sounds almost scary. They slowly walk to me like zombies, There screaming and crying. It then hits me. These are the people killed... The people I killed for Hydra.

 I step back and I fall into a black nothing, before I land in a familiar apartment. It reeks of beer and alcohol. The place is a mess, there is bottle every were and garbage laying around. I suddenly see a man. He is drinking, a lot. He throws the bottle down and calls a name. My name. I see a little girl rush towards him, but not in exictment, in fear.

"Yes, daddy?" She says.

Before i can even understand that this was y father, he slaps the little girl in the face, she falls to the ground and tears start to fall. A giant red mark is in her face and its, starting to bruise, I hold my hand up to my cheek. My father just slapped me. My father. I look to the girl again and rush over to her but when I reach her I fall again.

I'm falling throw my memories I see me killing people, getting beat up, Getting yelled at. I am alone. I see my self getting kick out of the orphanage when nobody adopted me, I see my self getting beat up multiple times, over and over. I see Hydra. There wiping me, punching me, training me. Hurting me. I see all the faces of the innocent people I've killed. I hear there cries, them begging for me to let them live.

 But I just kill them, slowly and painfully. I land again in a forest, I've never been here before, it night and the fog is covering the ground. I See him. I see Bucky. I freeze, I just look at him, he is dead. I see Steve and Natasha there also dead, Tony, Thor, Bruce and Fury are dead. My eyes dart back forth staring at them, They all step closer. "You killed us." They say at the same time.

I see Howard, Peggy, Maria, Rhodey, Sam, Clint they are dead too. More people are coming up walking towards me. I see my mother dead, My father dead.

I feel a cold hand on my shoulder. I spin around to see Steve. dead. And crying. "You did this to us... You killed us." At his words everyone drops dead, and I'm alone again.

I can hear my heart beating against my rib cage. Suddenly I see white flashes and I'm back in The streets The people I've killed and everyone else know are there pulling me, scratching me, clawing at me. I'm held to my knees and I see Bucky walk up to me. I feel a tear roll down my face, He holds a gun up to my faces and shoots.

Every moment of my life flashes before my eyes. I See my self getting beat up by my father, i see my mother die, I get beat up and thrown away like an outcast, I met Steve and Bucky, Bucky is gone and I'm an experiment. I find Bucky broken and then he dies, I see myself flying down a mountain, I see my self kill. I see Howard die. I see so many people die in front of me. I'm just killing people, I see Hydra making me a lad rat, I see myself wake up, I see Fury get shot, I see the fight on the highway, I see me fight Bucky, I see me get hurt. Pain. I see pain. So much pain.

I scream. I let out a bloodcurdling scream at the top of my lungs. I scream loud for a long time. I can hear the echo of the scream. And I fall.

I wake up out of the trans. And Wanda is staring at me in shock, I don't care, I just stare at nothing, Pietro has gone to fight.

"I'm sorry." Wanda says, but I don't hear. I stare at nothing. She walks away leaving me alone.

I'm breathing heavily, staring at the ground. I feel Steve's arms around me helping me up and walking me back to the ship. He puts his arm around me helping me up. All I do is stare at the ground. I can feel the fresh air of the outside world but I take no notice. I feel more arms help me onto the ship. I just stare. The pain is overwhelming.

I can slightly hear Natasha and Steve saying my name but I take no notice. I kill. I killed so many people. So many children. I'm a monster and nobody can tell me otherwise. The things I've done can't be changed. I am a monster.

I Feel the jet land and Steve helps me again. I slightly notice him and I look back at the ground. We are outside a farm house, its a nice one too, but I don't know why we are here.

Clint walks inside and greets a woman. He kisses her and everyone is left shocked and confused. mostly confused because why would anyone kiss Clint.

The few hours are a blur. The woman let me sleep in a spare room. I found out the woman was Clints wife. I slept for a few hours. They all came in a and checked on me from time to time.

When I woke up Natasha and a little girl were about to leave.

"Nat..." i said sleepily

Natasha looked behind her and then told the little girl to get her mother. When she looked back she smiled at me. "Are you good right now?"

I nodded slowly getting up on my elbows. "Sorry..."

Natasha gave me a confused look, tilting her head as she sat down next to me. "Sorry for?"

"Sorry for not being able to fight. Sorry for not-"

"Okay shut up and stop blaming yourself, its not your fault you got mind warped or whatever."

I sat in silence. Staring at the ground again. I didn't know what to do. I just sat there in silence. Until Laura, Clint's wife, walked in carrying a glass of water. She sat it down next to. "if your thirsty you can have it."

I smiled at her I tried to hide the sadness weeping over me. She showed me so much kindness, when I could kill her in a second.