i don't think i'll swim tonight. i wouldn't want to ruin their moment.

wendy is in for a rude awakening. if he cheats once he'll cheat again, he can't be satisfied.

i break eyes away from the scene, not wanting to watch any longer. i've seen enough. i begin to make my way back home, watching my feet. "will you be my girlfriend, officially now?" he says. "clyde, yes. yes i will." i can hear her smile, and i can hear my heart break.

i piece my heart back together enough to walk back home without bawling. i'll save that for my bedroom. no new pictures in my phone, but every last shred of my hope for a future with clyde is gone. at least i can actually move on now. he'll never take me back, not anymore. not since he has wendy.

i can't wait till wendy has the same realization that i've had. he will climb the ladder of girls until he's at the top, completely alone. he will never find a mortal woman good enough for him. i sure hope for his sake the greeks were right. though i doubt any reasonable goddess will have him.

i don't remember getting home. i don't remember opening the door, i don't remember taking my shoes off, i don't remember getting into bed, i don't remember waking up either.

the entire time after was a blur.

as soon as light broke into the sky, i ran i out back onto the same beach, sure that i was losing my mind. i had some odd vivid dream, it was a cruel joke. he will only ever love me.

there he was, clyde, waiting for me.

"bebe?" he asks, shocked to see me. the sun peeks out over the ocean, but just barely. "clyde. hey." i breathe out. i'm not much of a runner. looking at him now makes me come to my senses. it wasn't a dream. he's dating wendy, they kissed, and he loves her. he doesn't want me anymore. this is so embarassing i can't believe i'm here. i'm so dumb. "were you looking for me?" he says hesitantly, looking at me kind of funny. he squints his eyes at me.

i looked at him for a moment, taking in his dreamy blue eyes for one last time. i'm so embarrassed now. he thinks i'm crazy. more crazy than before. as i see my own reflection in his eyes, all i can think is how much i still love him. "i'm always looking for you." i whispered quietly.

but he heard me anyways.