"What- What just happened?" you asked yourself.

You were frozen in your thoughts until you heard a car's engine and turned your head to meet Oikawa's eyes.

"I'll see you later y/n, don't over think it too much, I think you already know what it means." Oikawa said as he drove off.

"Oh... Right... It's all clear to me now." you said.

You turned around and went inside, you went up to your room and placed everything where it belonged. You needed to clear your head and your thoughts so you decided to take a shower, the most affective way of being able to calm down, right?

You stepped into the steaming warm water. The water always comforted you. You stood there and asked to yourself,

"Why would he do that..."

"He's so. stupid."

You were starting to form tears and were at the verge of crying.

"How can he... How can he do that so easily?!?" your voice started to shake 

"Why. Why. Why would he do this to me?" it cracked.

"THAT'S NOT FAIR. IT'S NOT FAIR." you began to cry.

"He cheats on me, and as I'm trying to get better he comes and- comes and brings me this BULLSHIT?!?!" you yell.

"What is he trying to do? What is he trying to accomplish?" you whispered.

"Does he- Does he just think that a kiss will fix everything? AFTER EVERYTHING THAT HE'S DONE TO ME?" you yelled.

"Is he trying to make my life miserable? Sometimes I can't tell if he's trying to ruin me on purpose or not. It's so confusing. So frustrating." you said in between sobs.

"He's leaving me a mess. He says he loves me and kisses me but now I can't help but ever think that it's all fake...." you said.

"Part of me wants to say give him another chance, but the other part of me is strictly saying no because... I don't want to make the same mistake twice and have that happen again..."

"He said R/N dumped him but... could it just all be a lie? Are they just trying to play some sick game on me right now?!??"

"I have Iwa and that's all I really need but it's so hard when Oikawa's constantly there."

"Some part of me isn't mad at that though.... And I hate myself because of it so... so... sooo much and it's so annoying!!!"

"Why can't my heart and mind come to an agreement??? Why are you guys constantly playing a game of tug of war that wears me out even more every single pull?"

"I don't know what to do anymore..."

"I can't trust him but at the same time I want so so much. It's so so bad."

"I'm always so conflicted..."

"Maybe I should ask Iwa. I don't know. But I'll figure it out."

You stayed in the warm water seeking comfort, the touch of it on your skin making it warm made you feel better. Almost like someone was giving you a big, warm, and comforting hug.

After a while you stepped out the shower and got yourself ready for bed.

You flopped on your bed letting out a big sigh that withheld your stress and closed your eyes.

"In times like this I wish Iwa was here to comfort me." you said to yourself.

You quickly sat up and said,

"That's it! I'll just call him!"

You rushed to pick up your phone but then told yourself,

"What if he's asleep? I don't want to bother him if he's not awake... Whatever, I'll just ring him once and if he doesn't answer I'll go to sleep."

You called Iwa and the phone kept ringing, you thought he wasn't going to pick up but to your surprise, he did.

"Hello?" Iwaizumi said.

"Iwa! Hey!" you replied.

"What's up y/n? Everything ok?" he asked.

"Yeah but um first of all did I wake you up or anything? If I did I'm so sorry and I'll talk to you tomorrow so you can go back to sleep." you told Iwaizumi.

"No not at all I was just doing some things, but what's up? Why'd you call so late?" he asked.

"Uhm. So. The thing is that I'm kind of sort of very conflicted... and. confused." you said.

"Conflicted and confused about what?" Iwaizumi asked.

"So you know how Oikawa drove me home right?" you asked.

"Yeah." he said.

"Did he hurt you? Did he say something to you because I swear to god I will beat the shit out of that shittykawa." Iwaizumi said.

"No no no that's not it." you laughed.

"So he walked me to the door and was waiting for me to go inside but before I did he kissed me and then patted my head and left just like that." you told him.

"He what-" Iwaizumi said.

"Yeah." you replied.

"Ok so why are you conflicted again?" Iwaizumi asked.

"Oh that was the background but, I'm conflicted because my heart was jumpy and excited and part of me wants him back but my mind is saying no don't fall for it again and that other part of me is saying to stay away from him and it's trying to keep me from getting hurt again... You know what he did... Do you see where I'm coming from?" you said.

"Hmm. That makes sense. Usually I'd tell you to follow your heart but in this case I don't know if I want to. But what I do know is that this was the first time he's ever done something like this so I don't know what got into him when he decided to go out and about and do that to you. Cheating was never something I could even begin to imagine him doing you know?" Iwaizumi said.

"Honestly that makes everything even worse because that means that he truly and wholeheartedly loved all this other girlfriends before me because he probably never even had the thought of cheating on them for even a split second." you stated.

"No no y/n that's not what I mean. That's not what I was trying to say. All I'm saying is that I understand why your mind is putting up a wall trying to protect you." Iwa said.

"Yeah I know but that's kind of how my brain works sorry. The other thing that's throwing me off is the fact that he said r/n was the one who broke up with him and not the other way around you know? Even the simple fact that he stayed with her after the series of event still makes my heart shatter into pieces sometimes." you said.

"Yeah I get what you're trying trying to say, but think of it this way. I've known Oikawa for a lot longer than you have and he's a very passionate boy, but have you ever thought about the fact that maybe he didn't want to hurt her the way he did you? Maybe he was trying to fix his mistakes through r/n so that way he would know exactly how not to hurt you in the future ever again. Even though that should kind of be a given." Iwaizumi laughed.

"Have you ever even thought about how he did everything to get as close to you as possible? The amount of times he kept pushing to talk to you even though you would get annoyed and lash out on him?Were all those incidents really just straight out of bad luck or was he looking for an excuse to force you to talk to him or even hit him as much as possible so that he would receive at least some or even a little bit of an interaction." Iwaizumi proceeded.

You both sat on the phone with silence and you both were thinking for a little bit.

"When you put it that way, it seems I never noticed if any of it could possibly be true." you said.

"It's just a thought, I'm not saying I know it's entirely true but it makes sense doesn't it?" Iwaizumi said.

"Yeah, but it still sucks because in the end r/n got hurt anyways because of both herself and Oikawa even if he tried not to." you said.

"How is it r/n's fault for getting herself hurt?" Iwa asked.

"Because if she knew it all from the beginning then that means she just kept trying to endure the pain but broke down in the end anyway. And that's what I don't want to happen to me." you answered.

"That makes sense. You're a very smart girl y/n, I know you'll figure it out and make the right choice in the end. You should head to bed, give your brain a little rest." Iwaizumi said.

"Yeah. Thanks for talking to me Iwa. I really appreciate it." you said.

"Anytime, goodnight y/n." Iwaizumi said.

"Goodnight Iwaizumi." you said.

"Bye." Iwa said.

"Bye." you replied.

You ended the call and let out a big sigh of relief as you had just let off a lot that was on your mind and chest, remembering everything Iwaizumi said, you drifted off into sleep.

A/N: Thank you guys so much for 5k reads and 200+ votes as well as 70+ followers! It means so much to me and I am so grateful for it all. Truly thank you from the bottom of my heart and I hope you enjoyed this chapter! I'm so sorry that I've had a terrible updating schedule but believe me when I say I'm trying my hardest. Remember to take care of yourself and that I love you so much! Bye!