• The Taste of Hate • - Story • 𝐖𝐚𝐧𝐧𝐚 𝐁𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬 •

• The Taste of Hate •

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/It's been one and half day since YN's Photos were released. She hasn't checked the responses yet. She was scared. But today she got the courage to face it and checked the responses from her fan account. She bite her lower lip feeling nervous./

YN : (Maybe I shouldn't do this. Maybe this is a bad idea...)
/And It was indeed a bad idea. She scrolled through many comments and retweets. Her hands and feet became so cold even though the weather was hot./

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Retweet 1 -

User123 :-
Jeez I don't think she has a good visuals..

Retweet 2 -

User456 :-
Damn she's fat👀

User95 replied :-
Fat? Where? She looks perfectly fine to me.

User456 replied :-
She definitely weighs more than a normal female idol does.

User95 replied :-
And How does it even matter? I am sure she's really talented. Keep your sh*tty opinions to yourself.

User456 replied :-
Tsk! It's just a fact that she's fat.

User890 replied :-
I agree. She looks chubbier than an average idol should be.

User456 replied :-
Finally someone with brain. She looked fine the previous photos and in those cover videos but now she looks fat. Maybe she should stop eating too much lol.

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/Similiar replies started appearing. So many people were commenting on her weight. She wasn't really overweight. She was just in a healthy weight but ofcourse, people will always have something to comment about./

/She became numb. She continued to read more comments as she was scrolling more she gets a call./

YN : Mom..?
/She mumbles before answering the call./

On the call -

YN : Mom?
Mom : Hi my dear. I just saw your pics and you look so beautiful. I am feeling so proud of you.
/Her lips started to tremble as tears started to form in her eyes. But she didn't want her mother to know about it so she tried to cover it up./

YN : *fake chuckle* Thank you mom.
Mom : But when are you going to reveal your face??

YN : So-soon.
/She sighs in frustration for stuttering./

Mom : Okay, I am waiting for that day! I am so happy for you my baby. Mom is so proud of you.
/She says genuinely which was breaking her more./

YN : Mom..
Mom : Yeah?
YN : Do I... look fat?
/She says in a low tone./

Mom : Huh? No. Infact you look really healthy and very pretty! But why does it matter? Your job is to make music right?
/Hearing the last part, YN gets hit by the cruel reality of an Idol's life./

YN : Mom- I'll call you later. I am busy right now.
/She hung up the call before her mom could hear her sobs. She cried for few minutes until she calmed down a bit. That doesn't mean she feels better now./

/She got up from the bed and stood infront of her mirror. She removes her hoodie and checks herself in the mirror./

YN : Am I really fat...?

/That's how the so called "beauty standards" ate up her confidence. She wanted to be the change but little did she know, receiving immense toxicity is something hard to handle./

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"After 2 days (6th April)"

/YN was doing her workout. She has been skipping on meals and just drinking water or one apple. She really didn't have to do that. There was no need for that./

/After awhile her Manager brings her some food, she doesn't know that YN isn't eating them but giving it out to someone else./

/YN was playing with her chopsticks waiting for Soojin to leave so that she can skip this meal too./

Soojin : *rolls eyes* Why aren't you eating?
/YN who's still looking at her bowl sighs./

YN : Soojin... Am I fat?
/Expecting a positive response she asks her softly. But instead Soojin scoffs mockingly./

Soojin : Ofcourse you are. I have been telling you to work out properly but you never listened to me! I doubt you'll ever debut at this point.
/YN was stunned to hear her response. It literally broke her. She knows her manager doesn't like her but didn't expect she would respond like this./

Soojin : Tsk! Anyways I am leaving. I have much more important tasks to finish than to waste my time here with you.
/Saying so she leaves the room slamming the door./

/YN started crying again while covering her face. She was sobbing so hard./

YN : Why.. why does my body size matter? When I can dance and sing well? Just why...??

/She sobs harder and harder until her eyes felt tired. Just then she gets a text from her manager./

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Text -

Soojin :-
Don't be lazy and do some dance practice. I don't want PD-nim to complain about anything.

YN :-
Ok.

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/She wipes her face with her long sleeves and gets up to dance. She puts on music and started dancing./

/She was exhausted but still continued to dance with all the energy that was left./

/Suddenly she started feeling dizzy. She tried to reach her phone which was on the table but faints even before she could reach near the table./

/She heard the phone ring but she couldn't get up, she fell unconscious./

/Thankfully, after awhile her Manager visits again to check on her. At first she thought she was resting on the floor. But when she tried to call YN and heard no response she panicked./

/She sits on the floor and slaps YN's cheeks slightly to wake her up./

Soojin : Hey! Wake up. What's with this new drama now?
/She shakes her body but still no response./

/She called staff members to help her and rushed to hospital./

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Doctor :- Please tell her to eat properly. She's fine now. But She looks really exhausted. Rest and healthy food is recommended. You can discharge her in an hour.

Soojin : *fake smile* Ok doctor. Thanks.
/As soon as the doctor leaves she rolls her eyes. She goes into the room where YN was laying on bed staring at the wall blankly. She slams the door making her startle./

Soojin : What is this??? Can't you even take care of yourself? Huh? Now I even have to be a babysitter for you.
/She yells in frustration./

YN : You don't have to. I can take care of myself.
/She says with straight face./

Soojin : Yeah, so that PD-nim can fire me right? Such a burden you are.
/YN closes her eyes in frustration./

YN : Just leave. I don't want to argue with you right now.
/She says with no emotions./

Soojin : As if I am dying to talk to you. Whatever. You'll discharge in few minutes. Stay at home that's best for your lazy ass.
/She leaves again slamming the door. YN started crying silently./

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"At YN's home"

/YN lays down on her bed, her manager is with her. Right after few seconds they heard the door bell./

/YN looks at her manager in confusion while she looked nervous. Which made YN to feel suspicious./

Soojin : I'll check that.
/She says leaving the room. Soon YN heard familiar voices. She sits up on bed feeling confused./

Taehyung : YN!
/He rushes into her room freaking out. He checks her to see if she's hurt. Right after him other members enter the room./

YN : Tae..? You guys here..?
/She asks looking at their concerned faces./

Yoongi : What happened to you? Why did you had to go to hospital?
/He asks softly showing his affection and solicitude./

YN : How did you guys-
/Her manager interrupts./
Soojin : I told them! I felt like they should know about it. So-
/This time YN interrupts./

YN : Did I told you to? Why would you bother them?
/She says in frustration./

Hoseok : Do you expect us to not to be bothered even after knowing that You are in hospital?
/YN looked down silently./

Soojin : Uh- I will bring you guys some coffee.
/They all just ignored her so she just leaves the room after bowing to them. YN looked at her in disgust./

YN : (Is she trying to get their attention? Jeez so cheap.)
/That expression didn't go unnoticed by them./

Jungkook : Looks like you don't like her?
/She looks at him and sets her expression to normal./

YN : It's nothing Kook.
/She tried to cover it./

Yoongi : That's not the point now. Tell us what happened? Why did you go to hospital?
/He asks again. She bites her lips in hesitation./

YN : I.. I overworked myself..
/She said half truth and hid the other half./

Seokjin : Is it just that or are you lying?

/He asks with a frown. She gulps nervously./

YN : I am telling the truth Oppa. I am completely fine now!
/She smiles trying to cover her pain. They somehow understood she's not telling the truth but stayed silent not wanting to force her./

Taehyung : Please take care of yourself. You know I can't- I mean we can't see you like this.
/He says while placing his hand on her hand. She looks at him feeling guilty for lying./

Yoongi : Yes, I definitely can't see my sister like this. You are going to debut soon and you be strong and healthy. You better take care of yourself.
/When she heard the word "debut" everything flashed infront of her again. She tried her best to control her emotions./

Seokjin : Yes you should listen to your Oppas and be a good girl.
/He says trying to make her smile which worked./
YN : *smiles* I will Oppa.

Hoseok : Don't over work again. You have been working on this from so many months now, you don't have to do that.
/He says softly while others nod in agreement./

Namjoon : True, you don't have to stress out this much. You were already great from the start and now you got even better. So don't think too much about it.
/He also explains her softly./

YN : Okay Oppa.. I won't. *smiles*
/Like always they are making her feel better./

Jungkook : Idiot, how can you do this to yourself? How would you feel if one of us did the same thing?
/He asks with an angry pout./

YN : I am sorry..
/She holds her ears while looking at them innocently. They smile finally./

Taehyung : You do know how to melt us.
/She shrugs and grins proudly. Yoongi comes closer and caresses her head softly./

Yoongi : Please take care of yourself YN. You have no idea how much you mean to us.
/Her eyes softened at him suddenly expressing his affection for her. Others smiled admiring them./

YN : I will Oppa. I promise. And you guys mean so much to me too.
/She genuinely says from the bottom of her heart./

Seokjin : We know that.
/He grins proudly while winking. She chuckles./

YN : We are still meeting on Monday, right?
/She asks hesitantly./

Yoongi : Ofcourse, we are meeting and I am gonna make you eat all the healthy and tasty food.
YN : *chuckles* Yayyy~
/They all smile at her in adoration. Even though she's an adult and mature, she's like a little girl infront of them and they do treat her like a little girl too./

/Just then Soojin enters with 7 cups of coffee on a tray. She gave one to everyone but when she came to Taehyung he refused./

Taehyung : I don't like coffee.
/He says it with a disgusted expression, not for the coffee. YN tried not to laugh. YN takes the coffee instead. They all sit and talk for few minutes./

Namjoon : Okay then, we have to go now YN. We have some work.
/All of them get up as he said that./

YN : Okay Oppa.
/They all again tell her to take care and bid their byes, except one person./

YN : What happened Jimin? You have been silent since you have come.
/He comes and sits infront of her on bed. He was about to say something but Soojin enters./

Soojin : Do you want anything to eat YN?
/She acts sweet infront of him. YN looks at her with a straight face./

YN : No, you can go now.
/She says with a cold tone. Her manager secretly glares at her and leaves./

Jimin : Does she not behave good with you?
/He asks with a serious expression./

YN : Um we are not on good terms. But who cares, it's just a business relationship.

/She shrugs it off./

Jimin : Hm Were you really just over working or is there anything else?
/She stayed silent./

Jimin : *sigh* Don't repeat the same mistake I did in past.
/He says looking down thinking about those times. YN softens hearing his words./

Jimin : I regretted it alot, I still do. Don't treat yourself like this YN. Just love yourself. Don't let other's opinion effect you. You are beautiful the way you are. You know it right?
/YN finally tears up./

YN : Can I hug you?
Jimin : *chuckles* Ofcourse I give the best hugs!
/He opens his arms welcoming her for a warm hug./

YN : *giggles* I know that.
/She says as she wrapped her arms around him and he places his hand on her head softly caressing it./

YN : Thank you Chim.
Jimin : Mention not, Meongmeong.
/As they were about to break the hug, Taehyung enters the room. He was shocked to see them like that. He awkwardly looked away./

Taehyung : Um I forgot to give you the fruits I brought for you.
/Jimin felt awkward so he left after saying bye to YN. Taehyung again sits infront of her./

Taehyung : Take care of yourself. I can't see you like this.
/He says softly./

YN : *smiles* I'll Tae. Don't worry.
/She said firmly./

Taehyung : What you will? Eat properly first.
/She thought he heard the conversation between her and Jimin./

Taehyung : What? Do you think I wouldn't understand if you won't tell me? You better eat those fruits and I'll even order some food for you. You should eat properly.
/Her eyes softened hearing his words./

YN : Awww Tae.. You are so sweet! Thank you so much.
/She says genuinely but gets confused when he pouts./

Taehyung : Only thanks for me? And hugs for Jimin?
/He asks sulking./

YN : *chuckles* Aww I will hug you too!
/She gives him a side hug as he was sitting facing the wall on the other side. He melts like ice in her arms./

[A/N : She hugs him like this but without the kissing part lol.]

Taehyung : Okay then I'll go now. They must be waiting. You take care of yourself.
/She nods while smiling./

Taehyung : Oh by the way, we are going to change our numbers. I already changed mine so give me your phone I'll save it and I'll send you other members number later, okay?
/He says out everything making her confuse but still gives him her phone unlocked./

YN : Suddenly?
Taehyung : Yeah.. Our numbers got leaked so we had to.
/She nods understanding. He gives back her phone to her./

Taehyung : Okay then, I'll leave. Bye bye YN. Take care.
YN : Okay Tae, bye bye.
/She waves at him dearly./

/He got up from bed and looked back at the door to check if anyone's there. He slowly leaned in and planted a soft peck on her forehead leaving her in utter shock./