He doesn't know what he was doing kissing you, so he pulled away as his hands ruffled his hair out of irritation with himself more than anything.

"I'm so sorry", he says, and couldn't even look you in the face.

He shouldn't have done that, he thought. No matter how much he want you, he can't go around kissing you while knowing his bestfriend Jake felt the same to the same girl before him.

Sunghoon would never used you like Jay did, he swore to himself and he wanted to prove that he can give you want you want without managing to hurt you in the process.

He loves the fact that you're clearly beginning to hate Jay now, but now isn't the time to be celebrating inside. Even if he wants to, you're probably still in pain over Jay cheating on you and he can't possibly push himself onto you now.

You lean against the wall and looks up to him with your face flushed, "What did you just do?", you whisper, your beautiful eyes were wide as you watch him.

There was nothing to describe your face but it was full of shock at the moment, it feels like his heart would explode from inside at the pressure. What happened just now was way too fast, and he need to take it slow to show you that it's real.

You were the first person that he had ever fallen for.

He knows what he felt is real even though he tried to push it away and forget for the first time. He was questioning how can he fall in love at first sight because even if he'd only known you for two months now, seeing you with Jay is a torture.

He also want to kiss you whenever he wants, but he can't. He wanted to call you his girlfriend, but he can't. He wanted to comfort you whenever you cry, but he knows he can't.

And most importantly, he wanted for you to love him, but you can't.

"Sunghoon?", you stand up straight and slowly edges your way towards the door, "Did you just used me? Is that what you were trying to do by saying what Jay is doing behind my back? That's why you changed my dress, too. What the fuck is that plan?", your eyes widen in realization and he step back, shocked that you would think that of him.

He stared at you silently. But then how could he forget you as the girl who started showing her hate on him and his friends in just your first day? He knows that he was out of place in kissing you, but him using you?

It's the last thing he would do to a girl.

"Are you fucking serious now?", he asks, frowning deeply at your assumptions.

"Well, I'm certainly right, I know", you stated, sounding so sure of yourself.

"I would never do that. I changed you in my shirt because you were whimpering in your sleep. I even went as far to closing my eyes while doing...", he trails off, realizing what you were thinking from the look in your eyes.

He couldn't even began to fathom on how dumb you are being right now.

"You think I would do what Jay did?", Sunghoon asks in disbelief, and you didn't reply, "I kissed you because I was that mad for you, stupid. What do you want me to do? Ignore it when I just wanted to prove that I'm good enough?"

He get it now. He shouldn't have even tried to kiss you and it was all his fault, that's why you were giving him a dead look. He can't do it again if this was going to be the kind of end.

"I'm disgusted of you", you stated without a pause, and then walks out of the room, shutting the door behind you with a bang.

Sunghoon can only shake his head before placing a finger up to his lips, already missing the feeling of yours against him.

It was just too bad that he seems to mess it up before it even began.

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The first thing you do after getting out of Sunghoon's dorm room without bidding the sleeping Kai in the couch any kind of attention, is to lean against the wall right next to the door before closing your eyes.

Still feeling the heat of Sunghoon's lips in yours - you got the right to be worried for this would seriously start a problem. In fact, it was already a problem in the making.

You have to admit that Sunghoon is better than Jay, but if Jay already affected you in a way because of the cheating, it does mean Sunghoon had the ability to hurt you even more. You just can't let that happen.

Letting it happen means you've reach the peak of stupidity.

You were proceeding to leave and find Sunoo when the door opens up to Sunghoon and you look up at him, wanting to shout, "Just leave me alone, okay?"

He nods but pulls you into a hug, "I will but I just need you to know how sorry I am. I swear to God, I will never try to hurt you", he whispers, and you wrap your arms around his waist.

After a few seconds of deciding whether to forgive him or not, you hear a foosteps of someone else walking down the hall, and you turn to see who it is.

It's Jay's girlfriend. Sunghoon quickly kisses you on the nose before walking away, as if wanting no part of the confrontation between the exes of Park Jay.

With you turning back to the girl, you narrowed your eyes at her, "I didn't think you'd still be here"

You expected for either a slap or for her to bitch using verbal words where you can't let her down with your own.

But she just smiles, "I know the feeling but I already break up with Jay after finding out about you. Trust me, from now on, the karma will bite back to him", she explains.

"Oh", is all you can say as a reply. It isn't shocking when Jay is cheating with her as well, after all.

"So who is that cute guy that was all over you?", she asks and winks at you, making you feel a bit of shock at the turn of the situation.

How can she go from being a total bitch yesterday night to be a friendly angel today?

"Cute guy?", you repeated. She's obviously talking about Sunghoon but that was nothing. He was just hugging you as a friend.

Yes, keep telling yourself that, you talked to yourself in your mind.

"I mean the way he looks at you", she swoons and pointing her finger down to the door where Sunghoon enterer earlier.

The silent you went in was an understatement and it was a way. to save you from answering, although you wanted to say one thing, Sunghoon looks at you the way a unpossessed human does.

"He looks at you like you're the only girl in the world", she tells you cheerfully. She receives no answer than a blink of your eyes in her face, "I'll buy him for me if that's legal", she adds and her laughters fills the silent hallway.

You let out a chuckle, but still deny to confirm her words. Only girl in the world? It was more like the only girl in the all boys school.

Maybe he would just be like everyone, only after you to satiate their hormones. Maybe he isn't, who knows? Only him can tell.

"I'm sorry Jay did that to you, by the way and I know how you feel. If you want, we can talk about it over some pizza?", she laughs again from the obvious discomfort in your expression.

Admitting to her that you'd never interact that much with girls or let's say, the community where you belong, would be like admitting to your own shame.

In the end, you purse your lips after giving her your number and she took her leave, saying she would call you when she's already available.

Great, now you have to hang out with a girl just for a free pizza.

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Don't mind my last update, I mean the things I said in the end.

Let's just imagine Jay's ex is Giselle! I love her.. Why not?

Added note - Don't hate on my choice of Giselle. I am not in any way shipping them in real life even though there's videos and pictures going on with edits of them.

If you comment still despite of this warning - I will mute you or mention your name one day.