Here I am now, contemplating whether I should go out or not.

I've locked myself in my room for a few days, staring out to nothing, only going out to eat, drink, or to go to the bathroom.

Somehow, by a small miracle, I managed to avoid Sowon-unnie.

I don't miss the way she looks at me though.

Who cares, Eunbi? If you didn't get so cold-hearted in the first place, none of this would've happened.

And stop blaming Jungkook.

I tuck my knees up to my chest, resting my chin there and let myself cry freely.

Because inside this room, memories of us still lingered.

I still remember gazing out of the window, waving at him from afar, and smiling down at him.

The days when he sneaks in to my bedroom, crying, and I'll just try to comfort him.

It became a cycle for the both of us.

Until...

He left me.

He left me to hangout with his new friends, he forgot all about me.

And the worst part?

I got into an accident because of him.

I was in the hospital for months.

Barely able to walk, move, or even talk.

And he just shrugged it off like it was nothing.

He even went as far as telling his friends that I'm a desperate b*tch wanting to save him.

As if.

I sigh, standing up amd retrieving something from the back of my closet.

Once I found it, I smile.

It's still there, shining and tempting me.

I told him that I'll stop, even going as far as throwing everyone of these out of the dorms.

But this...

This was forgotten.

I smile sinisterly at the blade in my hand.

"Today, I’m feeling sad,
It seems like my presence of mind."