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It was now the last day of the training camp and tersūro had been working me these pass few days cause he thought I wouldn't be busy. Meanwhile I planned on it, I was planning on helping Noya with his practice but since I had other things to do as a team manager everytime he asked I had to turn him down, "damn you tersūro" i thought as I walked to the cafeteria.

"Hey [Y/N]" I heard from the side of me, I turned towards the stairs to see Noya along with some of his teammates. "Do you wanna eat with us" he questioned has they walked down the stairs, I wasn't on food duty till the BBQ and this was my chance to actually spend some time with Noya. "yeah I'd love to" we made our way to the cafeteria making small talk along the way, "yeah and then you went voom, and vosh, then bam" I spoke as I made receiving jesters.

"They are definitely made for each other" Ennoshita whispered as the rest nodded in agreement.

We made it to the crowded cafeteria as we grabbed our food finding a table, "Wait so how long have you been the nekomas manager I didn't see you last time we had practice matches with them" Tanaka questioned as I sat besides Noya. "For about a month now tetsūro had asked me a couple days after that match I think", we continued talking until an annoying roster head made me leave Noya early.

"Well I'll catch you later superstar" I told him as I threw my tray and putting the dishes on the table "hurry up would you?" "I'm coming shut up!" I shouted back as I caught up with them. "You can't tell me you don't want him" he spoke randomly "I never said I didn't" I replied as we walked to the gym.

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"Kuroo I did a quick summary of the current scores, from [Y/N] notes" shibayama shout as he jogged over to him, I would've showed him myself but I was more fixed on watching Noya play god he's such a distraction. Their match had ended quickly with them loosing and they all looked eager to do does flying laps, I took a deep breath as I had caught myself staring at kiyoko.

Sometimes it felt as if her aura shined hella bright, and there was always a wind blowing through her hair. I get what he sees in her now she was beautiful even Yamamoto founded over her but was she really that good of a person? I felt myself squeeze my tracksuit pants as my heart felt heavy.

"[Y/N] you doing ok?" I heard, I looked up to see kenma standing over me, I immediately jumped up from the bench. "Yup I'm totally fine no biggie nothing to worry about" I spoke as I began collecting water bottles and towels.

"I worry sometimes" yaku commented as he watched you collect everyone's water.

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I decided to pay more attention to my own team for once, that was the main reason I was here not to see Noya. Besides I could use the distraction it's annoying that everytime I thing we have a moment he just has to say her name, once I feel like we could actually be something he reminds me of how he feels about her is something he'd never feel towards me.

"[L/N] we need you y'know" coach commented as I snapped out of my thoughts, "right sorry" I replied as I watched our last match.

Noyas POV

The team actually started pulling their stuff together, hinata and kageyama new quick attack came together so I guess that was on queue to show off our moves. "One touch" hinata yelled as kageyama received the ball, I eyed the ball as I thought it was finally like to show off my new move "I got it" I shouted as I carefully jumped from behind the line sending it to asahi.

He spiked it but it was out.... "UGH IM SORRY THE BALL WAS TO FREAKEN LOW DAMMIT" I shouted while kneeling on the floor "No it was ok, I think that was more my mistake" "LOOK IF ITS NOT GOOD THEN YOU GOTTA SAY THAT ASAHI" "ok sure" I relaxed as I stood up wondering if [Y/N] had saw but when I looked over to her she was more focused one her match.

I know I can't be mad because that her job but I really wanted her to see it since I might not be able to show her, wait why do I wanna show her so bad? Ugh I can't figure this out I don't like her she's just pretty and she can cook and bake that's all... right? I mean her personality is wonderful she's so kind and sweet and she's really caring.

*Flashback*

Me and [Y/N] decided to hangout once again but this time we weren't in Tokyo. We had stopped at a little bakery for small treats and soon ended up at a nearby park, the scenery was mesmerizing the flower petals flew in the wind. "Noya this place is beautiful" she commented as she took a bite of her bread, she suddenly gasped as he got up from the bench running to a tree kneeling down.

I began to walk towards her with one hand in my pocket and the other holding a pastry, "are you ok?" I questioned as I tried to peek over her shoulder to see what she was looking at. "Noya look" she spoke as she suddenly grabbed my hand pulling me to her side, "what was that for?" I stared at her for a bit "look" she point.

It was a cat that kinda resembled her, [H/C] fur and [E/C] eyes, "It kinda looks like you" I chuckled "never it's cute" she replied as she gently pet the cat. "You think you're not?" I questioned, she seemed a little flustered as she shook her head "not really I'm pretty average, if you ask me I'm not nothing compared to this cat" she spoke softly replied as her smile dropped.

"Besides cats are very complex yet simple creatures, and they're cute at everything they do" a smile approaching back onto her face, she reached in her pocket taking out a few what I assumed to be cat treats as she gave them to the cat.

"I'll name you.... Mhmm... Lauren" she finished as she continued petting the cat, I was a little surprised she actually named a street cat. It was actually cute, the whole interaction, but the fact she thought she couldn't compete with another even if that other is a cat. She wasn't just cute she was mesmerizing she was an amazing person all around. I've never met someone who had me questioning my feelings about someone I thought I truly loved.

*End Flashback*

A ball flying pass me snapped me out of thought "NOYA KEEP YOU'R HEAD IN THE GAME" Dachi yelled "SORRY" I apologized. We continued playing "I got it!" I yelled as I received the ball, they began going in for the spike together and they finally nailed that synchronized attack. "Me do a good spike, me so happy feel" Tanaka kinda spoke as I grabbed jumping up and down.

We finally closed the gap and actually started nailing our attacks we've been practicing all week. It seems like we might actually win this thing against fukurodani considering that missed spiked took their ace out of the game. Until they turned the tables around they were at match point and number 4 spiked, we lost and had to do some floor flys.

Normal POV

I was on cooking duty for this BBQ so I had to leave the gym a little early to get everything ready, I seasoned everything and finished making some rice balls. I brought everything out to the yard and placed everything on the grill, the teams soon came outside and this was my queue to take my place next to coach. "Thank you all for your hard work, it's been a great training camp, and now you can all fill your belly's as much as you want, let your muscles reappear themselves to your heart content. and let's not forget to thank our wonderful chef [Y/N] for preparing this for you all".

"THANK YOU [Y/N]" they all shouted, "It's my pleasure, now please enjoy yourselves" I spoke as they all began to dig in "TIME TO EATTT" I chuckled at theyre acts as I began to place more food on the grill until someone stopped me. "Enjoy yourself [L/N] you deserve it" coach told me as he took the plate of raw food out my hand, I nodded and smiled as I grabbed a plate.

I soon found Tanaka and Yamamoto kneeling to Noya as he spoke, "Do you understand Tanaka?" "Yes of course, tiger head?" "Yes master" "there shall be no dudes aloud to use this event as an excuse to hit on kiyoko" Noya spoke. And that's when I stopped listening, I filled my plate up and went to find somewhere to sit.

"[Y/N] over here" I heard as I made my way over to where the managers were sitting, until I say yachi freaking out.

Noyas POV

"there shall be no dudes aloud to use this event as an excuse to hit on kiyoko- "or [Y/N] I cannot let another take my sweet manager away" Yamamoto spoke "fair enough". We saw Kiyoko walk pass as two boys from the Fukurōdani team tried to talk to her, we all stared at them until I spotted [Y/N], she was in a black tank top and her hair was tied up. She was helping yachi with her food and I saw as a couple of boys from the other team began to talk to her.

I'm guessing Yamamoto saw it two because he was the first to step in between them, I saw as she was a little startled but then began to calm him down by patting his shoulder. I would be lying if I said I wasn't a little jealous, yet I don't know why. "Wish that was you huh?" Tanaka commented and my face became hot, "oh shut up you".

Normal POV

After I finished helping yachi, and calming Yamamoto down, we made our way to where the managers were sitting. "Y'know those 3rd years from karasuno they seem like they have they're act together" Ōtaki commented, "Our Ace is really a bigo softy" Kiyoko spoke. pretty with a pretty voice what more can I add to the list.

I began to become deep in thought as I ate my food silently, "Hey what about your team [Y/N]?" "Oh well they're really strong and great at what they do but they can be childish at times". "Honestly" they said in unison as we all laughed, "well what about you and the captain you guys seem pretty close" why is it always that question?

"Nah we're just close friends- "well I think her and karasunos libero as a connection" I felt my cheeks heat up as I gripped my chopsticks, "w-what? No we're just friends promise nothing going on, no connection" I replied eating my food. "Well I think- "oh my plates empty gotta go" I spoke quickly as I got up walking to one of the grills, though I just walked passed it.

I threw my plate out grabbing a rice balls while I made my way to the side of the building, I sat on the floor as I looked up to the sky. Can I really compete when I can't even compare? There no point in trying to denying the fact he likes her and he'll never like me, there's no point knowing he'll never look at me like he looks at her or think about me like he thinks about her.

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We had just finished packing our bags but the karasunos team was leaving so we had to say our goodbyes, "We'll see you again" "we're looking forward to it" the captains spoke. "Bye yachi!" I spoke as I hugged her, "btw I know Noyas waiting for that hug" I felt my face burn as she pulled apart and caught up with Kiyoko.

I spotted Noya and I called out to him as he turned to look back, he smiled and waved at me while I wanted to hug him but I realized I needed to stop giving myself some kind of hope. I smiled and waved back as he walked away with his team.

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