I just want to apologize for not updating like I said I was going to do its just my feelings are getting all over the place and I have these mental breakdowns where I just wanna jump off a cliff.

I feel so alone in this world I feel like there isn't anyone here for me, I tried expressing my feelings but people just play with them. So I said okay I've had enough I'm just going to be the close off person I was before and put a fake smile on my face every day and say "I'm okay."  

But I will try to update more come up with new things and try to do what I love BC I don't wanna disappoint the people who loves reading my story by not updating. So again I apologize.

Love you all❤