heeseung wakes up minutes before his alarm goes off. he stares at the ceiling, spacing out as he contemplates on how to survive the day.

he sits on his bed, glancing at the desk calendar on his table.

no wonder i feel much more shitty today.

he picks up his phone to check the messages. heeseung puts it back down when he realizes that it's just messages from jake.

what am i even doing? i should at least stop treating him like that. fucking get it together, heeseung.

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[ heeseung ⭐ ]

jake:
good morning hee!
have a nice day <3

heeseung ⭐:
good morning jake 😊
have a great day too

jake:
GASP
YOU REPLIED FAST

heeseung ⭐:
what? lol
i always reply to you tho

jake:
no you don't hehe
usually you take an hour or two to reply
but that's okay, i don't mind 😅

heeseung ⭐:
oh
sorry
it's just that i'm not really the type of person to like texting
i'm lazy

jake:
yep i know haha that's why i don't mind waiting
it's fine with me ☺️
anyways i have a class rn

bye!

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"sunoo hyung, is this alright?" sunoo stopped scribbling on his notepad when he heard jungwon's voice.

he scoots closer to jungwon to check his work on the laptop. "this is great. i'm glad sunghoon's teaching you properly."

the freshman just smiled at him and didn't answer. he's not contradicting my statement, i guess they're done with their arguing?

since most of the members have classes, only jungwon and sunoo are in the headquarters.

"hyung," sunoo looks at jungwon as the boy shifted on his seat. "how can you be friends with sunghoon hyung when he's so rude?"

i take it back. i guess the bickering got worse. sunoo tries to hold back his laughter.

"honestly, i don't know." he chuckled. "we've known each other since highschool so i'm kinda used to him being a devil. but trust me, he's actually nice."

jungwon winced, "hyung, i do trust you. but sunghoon and the word nice don't fit in one sentence."

"you think so?" sunoo laughs again. better not tell this to sunghoon or he'll make the poor kid suffer again.

"by the way hyung, since today's 28th, should we publish another article tomorrow?"

sunoo's smile dropped when he heard what jungwon had said.

"hyung?"

"yeah we'll publish one. just tell ningning to prepare the pubmat." he felt his throat run dry, so he breathes deeply- trying to calm himself.

it's just another normal day, sunoo. no need to overreact. fuck it, he wants to get wasted.

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[ free trial in hell ]

jay:
yo people
let's play billiards after dinner

sunghoon:
nah
you know i hate that game

jay:
yeah that's bc you suck at billiards
but don't fret, i gotchu bro

sunghoon:
shut up
wru right now?

jay:
apartment

sunghoon:
then tell sunoo to answer my texts

jay:
he's not here tho
i thought he's at the headquarters

sunghoon:
dude it's alr past 6
the hq is closed rn

jay:
huh weird
why isn't he here then

sunghoon:

idk
maybe he had smth else to do

jay:
yo @heeseung is sunoo with you?

heeseung:
no
i'm still at the computer lab
why?

jay:
nothing haha nvm

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hoon 📰 @parkwrites tweeted.

ah shit i think i know what's happening 🧍🏻‍♂️

548 likes | 45 retweets

replies:

@cornjay ??? fucking give me the context bro
↪@parkwrites dude, check the date today
↪@cornjay oh ... OH HELL NAW 🚶

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"sunoo hyung, that's your fifth bottle already."

"nishimura, you're worse than jay."

riki just groaned as he watched sunoo gulp the soju in one shot. he wanted to stop the guy but he doesn't have the authority to do so. why did i even agree to go with him in the first place?

he just finished his 5:30 pm class when he saw his sunoo hyung walking outside of the university. of course, he wouldn't waste a moment to be with the pink-haired guy.

so when sunoo asked him if he wanted to drink with him, he quickly answered yes. but no one told me that he's a fucking monster when it comes to drinking.

everytime riki tries to snatch the glass away from sunoo, the latter whines- making riki feel guilty so he just lets the guy do whatever he wants.

"hyung, be honest with me- is there a problem? why are you acting like this?" riki tried to ask as he makes eye contact with sunoo, who looks slightly drunk now.

sunoo shook his head. "i just needed something to distract me today."

"why? did you have a bad day?"

"i've been having a series of bad days for a year, riki." the boy's eyes glistened as tears formed in the corner of his eyes. "i don't even know why i'm telling this to you."

"hyung, i'm here. tell me, i'll listen to you." the noise inside the restobar is too much, so it didn't make sense to sunoo- how he heard ni-ki's words clearly.

i'm definitely drunk, so fuck it.

"today.... was supposed to be our third anniversary."

sunoo laughs bitterly, as if he just threw a punchline while riki felt frozen for a second. third... what? what did he just say?

"you know, the funny thing is that i forgot about it earlier. when i realized what the date today is, it just felt like something inside me had ripped open again."

riki stared at the guy in front of him. he doesn't know what to say, honestly. he hasn't seen sunoo look this helpless in front of him. shit, why do i have to hear this?

"it's still here..." sunoo grips on his shirt tight. "it's been a year and it still hurts."

ouch.

ni-ki shrugs the prickly feeling off his chest. he sighs and takes the bottle of soju away from sunoo.

"no matter how long it happened, i'm sure it's still going to hurt. the pain isn't going to disappear just because it's been a year, or even a decade." riki went closer to fix the older's hair and wrinkled shirt.

"we feel pain because we care. it just shows how much you love that person. and as humans, we shouldn't stop ourselves from feeling hurt. accept the pain, because hiding from it will never heal you."

sunoo blinks, staring at ni-ki. he's actually amazed at how this guy is good at his words. he stretches out his arm and pulls the boy closer, giving him a hug.

"sunoo hyung?" riki stops moving while sunoo continues to snuggle him, burying his face on riki's neck.

he lets sunoo hug him for a minute, until he felt his body getting heavier over him.

"...hyung?" he whispers, but only sunoo's faint breaths can be heard.

did he just fall asleep while hugging me?

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📸 @nishi_rk tweeted.

he's been refusing to take a cab and now he's just sitting on the streets 😭 how am i supposed to take him home 😃

793 likes | 62 retweets

replies:

@parkwrites shit is that sunoo? where are you
↪@nishi_rk yeah it's him ;-; we're near the park beside the museum
↪@parkwrites ok good just stay there
@cornjay OH THANK GODS YOU'RE WITH HIM
@sunscript ishdthat ne???#
↪@nishi_rk yeah that's you hyung now stop staring at your phone ffs
↪@sunscript imnoth srtarinfh atrmt pwhone imtecxtung hydung

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[ hyung ♡ ]

sunoo:
htujhng
hyurng
hyung

hyung ♡:

hey sun
why are you typing like that
are you fine?

sunoo:
i wanted to greet tou oen last tiem
*you one last time
sht sorry
my fingers are slippifnf lol

hyung ♡:
sun..
it's been already a year

sunoo:
i know!! thats why
thiswiel be the last time

hyung ♡:
last time
okay
i get it sun

sunoo:
goood
thendjd
happy 3rd anniverysay
**anniversary!! hyungieee <3333
hehe imtotalky gonna be oeber you noew
byeeeeewjsi

hyung ♡:
happy anniversary, sunnie.

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somebody help, it's getting worse
what do you do with a broken heart?
- :)