To much ; tə,tʊ,tuː mʌtʃ

S o n g S u g g e s t I o n ~

* La la la ; Naughty Boy feat. Sam Smith

* Drift Away ; cover by Mars Bars

~ [ y / n ] ' s P O V ~

You frown at the titan reaching you

You look realising you didn't have much gas left

You then look back at your helpless cadets hiding in fear

You sigh , "anyone has gas?" you ask ready to help

Someone shakily nods and gives you their gas

"Captain! Just kill the titan! I don't care anymore!" they say unbuckling their gear in fear

"thank you" you said refilling your gas with theirs

"Are you seriously going to sacrifice yourself Captain!" Jean spoke up

You look at him

"I'm not...

I'm just saving your asses" you said as you look at titan

You then hook to the titan's neck and snicker

You then spin around its neck until you reach the back and slice it's nape quickly

After it fell down slowly, you hook to another building as it dropped

Everyone cheers for the first titan and you turn to the other titan

"that isn't anything" you said rolling your eyes

You then jump on the titans head as it was slightly shorter then the building and it was slowly walking to your friends

You draw your blades as you jump at the back of the titan's nape and slice it with hooking to it, then hooking to the roof of the building after the titan fell

You land on the roof of the building and turn to your cadets cheering

You take a sigh of relief when you see them happy and cheering and importantly safe

"thank you for the gas" you said flicking your hair

"your badass Captain! how did you learn that!" Armin ponders

You then couldn't help but feel saddened by your backstory and your hands tremble and you shake your head in response to snap out of your thoughts and try to calm down your nerves

"Y-you pick up some things" you said dismissively trying to stop your hands from shaking

. . .

"YOU ALL OKAY?" Hange yelled to your squad as you arrive on your horses

"tch, shut up shitty glasses" you hear the typical Levi reply

"yes..." you said as you hopped off your trusted horse

"hey what's wrong, your shaking! isn't your squad fine?" Hange said observing your features

"I just lost some of mine..." you said looking at your squad

"but you were total badass out there" Hange complimented

"more like reckless..." You hear Levi mumble

You frown at that word and you try to stop your hand from shaking more

. . .

"you really did that?" They stare in shocked

You nod slightly in shock as your injured cadets show a familiar figure that you use to know

"you know me..." you try to say

"when did you get so cocky?" Jean snickered

"shhh!" Armin gestured as they arrived at your table

"how can I become you or can I marry you?" Eren asked jokingly

"ereh!" Mikasa snapped

"haha guys, it's really nothing!" you shake off

"are you going to eat that?" Sasha pointed to your bread

You shake your head and toss it to her

"Sasha how do you eat and still be skinny?" Connie teased

You look at the table but couldn't help but be sad

Being strong means you watch people you cherish die all the time...

"[l/n]" you hear behind you

You turn and see annoyed Levi

Everyone then shuts up and stares quietly

"meeting" Levi pointed

"ugh meetings usually turn into paperwork" you complain

You get up

"see you guys later" you said over your shoulder winking

Levi just sped ahead of you and you followed

. . .

"please do this as your assignment" Erwin handed

You groaned

"you are really giving me this?" you said in awe

"it's for your next expedition, it takes place where you first had your expedition, remember?" eyebrow explained

Your hands tremble as you remember your first...expedition

"expedition my ass... their cowards, they can't go into another one, they need to train more" you mumbled protectively

"they devoted their heart for us, respect that" Erwin simply said

"so did all my friend, but you didn't respect that" you said preferring to your past friends

"dismissed" Erwin said waving his hand dismissively

You stand up along with Levi and Hange

. . .

You threw the dagger to the target which perfectly reflected into the middle

You look out the window and frown

~ F l a s h b a c k ~

"why don't you trust me?" your best friend asked you

"your my comrade, my friend, like my sibling! how could I not? I want you to be safe!" You said as you rode on your horse

"just trust me, I'm just as badass as you" your friend reasoned

Your hands turn into white knuckles

"fine, just stay alive okay?" you ask worried

"thank you [y/n]! I swear I will kill a titan and show you! see ya!" your friend waved as they disappeared in the fog

You couldn't see them and looked ahead trying not to worry as much

. . .

You rode for hours, searching for your friend

You were beyond worried and see the trail of blood only confirmed your suspicions

You then look at the titan and your friend's lifeless body laid next to it

You gasp in horror and shake in horror

You feel anger consume you as you stare at the titan

"you lied" you said as you drop to your knees

The titan sees you and runs to you

As it gets closer to you, you then grip your blades tighter...

. . .

After bits of pieces of titans scattered all over the floor like bush fire and evaporate, you sit down with your legs to your head crying and shaking nonstop

why didn't you go with her sooner...you thought

~ E n d o f F l a s h b a c k ~

You cry as you cover your hands with your ears

You cover your ears, shaking back and fourth

You couldn't control it, it truly scarred you

stop...stop...stop you thought

"[y/n]?" someone said at the door frame

You couldn't stop...you kept shaking until you feel arms around you, squeezing you

You start to cry louder and hug the figure comforting you

"shhh....it's okay [y/n]" the person cooed

They patted your back and stroked your hair softly trying to calm you down

You gripped their shirt tightly as you tried to stop shaking

"it's to much, I don't want them to go" you put out

"I know it is..." they reply

You look at the person and realise the person was the one and only Levi making you at ease it was only him

You then hug him tighter

. . .

" I had someone special too" Levi said as you sat on the roof of HQ for air

"it happened just like that, like yours" Levi explained

You look at him and frowned and mumbled " I'm sorry for your loss..."

"Don't be...how long have you done that? is it serious?" Levi turned to you concerned

You slightly smile

"it's just trauma, you get over it" you said lying

"no you don't, it sticks with you, I'm here for you [y/n]" Levi said as he put his hand on yours

You chuckle, " why are you being so caring?" you ask

"because your special to me and when the time comes, you will realise what I feel towards you" Levi explained

You look at him smiling

You both stare at the glistening moon above after intertwining fingers

. . .

"I know now, I love you too Levi" you said staring at your lover

You stood at the end of the wedding aisle

Levi kisses your hand and you smile as the pastor announced to kiss

You wrap your hands around Levi's neck as you two share a tender kiss

You were finally at peace with no worrying of your friends dying anymore...

"I waited so damn long for the moment titans go extinct so I can marry you, Mrs Ackerman ~" Levi whispered as you parted from the sweet kiss

"took long enough" you smiled back

Everyone cheers, your friends, some family members that survived and you look at the crowd and wave in excitement

Time did heal itself...

T h e E n d ~