WARNING: CONTAINS VIOLENCE//READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

Dazai Osamu wasn't the nicest person in the world, but he wasn't the meanest either. He always had this swing to it everyday. He's serious when a situation was a little out of hand, and caring when one of his co-workers get hurt. That's how a boss should be. 

But what a boss shouldn't be was to abandon everyone from his company completely. You were shocked, broken hearted, and confused to why in the world he would vanish like that. Every night, you missed your boss. Even if he was hard on you during your training with your ability, you still missed him.

"Get over it, (F/N). Weeping about him won't change anything." Your senpai, Akutagawa told you.

"Senpai, I'm not weeping. I'm just thinking." You sighed as you put your chin on your hands, your elbows on the table.

"What is there to think about? He left us, he betrayed us. There's nothing to think about except the feeling of hatred and disgust. To think he would join the Armed Detective Company..." Akutagawa's voice was starting to rise, but he controlled his temper and tried his best not to scold you, knowing that you were not okay.

You were running an errand that was given to you by the boss. Your job was to slaughter all the men working at a certain place underground. Apparently, they were in the way of Port Mafia's goal. So you took two guns and a knife (just in case) and started making your way into the underground tunnels. You were in disguise, dressed as one of the workers. You entered in a room full of the workers the boss was talking about. You hid behind the shadows, trying your best not to be seen and like a ninja, you stabbed the workers with the knife one by one. Once the majority of the workers were dead and when everyone finally started to panic, you leaped into action and shot a good handful of people. 

"Is that all? Man, that was a little too easy..." you muttered as you tossed the gun into the air as it landed back on your palms. Suddenly, you heard a whimper across the room and you immediately tracked the last worker by your hearing.

"Oh, there was the last one." the man was crying in horror and trembling violently with fear in his eyes. You pointed the gun to him and just when you were about to shoot him, you felt someone tackle you to the ground.

"Stop it right there!" A familiar voice panted as he grabbed your wrists and hung them over your head. The hat you were wearing as a disguise covered your face, so you couldn't see a thing.

"Now let's see what kind of monster did this-" he lifted your hat off your face and you knew you heard that familiar voice somewhere. 

It was no other than your ex-boss, Dazai Osamu.

His eyes widened. "(F/N)?"

You suddenly remembered the days when Dazai was your boss but you kicked those feelings away. Your emotions suddenly turned into anger. "Let go of me, you traitor!" You tried to wiggle out of his grip, but he tightened them so hard that you whimpered in pain.

"(F/N), how could you do this?" His voice was stern and serious.

"W-What do you mean how could I do this?! I'm still a member of Port Mafia after you betrayed us, you imbecile!!"

Dazai flinched at the vocabulary you used to describe him. "Look, (F/N). I didn't betray you guys. I just had my reasons that I changed my mind."

You were seriously ready to punch this guy. "A reason? You can change your mind like that?! Within a snap of a finger?!" You were finally able to wiggle out from his grasp as you sat up to face the brunette. You were trying your best to fight off the tears that were in your eyes, but you couldn't hold it any longer. "You promised... You said you won't leave me, and you'll make me stronger and we'll both rule the world! What was that to you?!" (F/N) cried as tears were streaming down her face.

"It was a hard decision for me... To leave Port Mafia along with you and join the Armed Detective Company... I wasn't content." A sigh escaped his lips as he ran his fingers through his dark brown hair.

"What do you mean you weren't happy? You were the boss, you controlled everything!"

Dazai lifted his head and looked deep into your eyes. "I couldn't control your heart. That was the only thing I couldn't do." He confessed.

(F/N) just stared right back at him, confused. "A-Are you saying it was my fault?" You started to raise your voice.

"No." Dazai looked back to the ground again. "I failed to make you fall in love with me."

"!" You felt your cheeks burning up, as your heart jumped.

"You were in love with Akutagawa, after all. And I was jealous of that." 

Then, it hit you. You had a flashback way back when you just joined Port Mafia. You immediately took a liking of Akutagawa. And Dazai already had laid his eyes on you, ever since the time he interviewed you for the job. But he fell in love with you, only to see that you were in love with a subordinate of his.

"Of course, I didn't hold a grudge on Akutagawa. But I was heartbroken to see that you were happy with someone other than me."

"Did you go because of that?" You said it in a way almost like you were making fun of him.

"You could say I did. It was a coward move for me, but it just shows you how much I loved you and cared about you." Dazai looked up at you again as he held your hands.

"I apologize sincerely from the bottom of my heart that I've betrayed you. I love you and again, I know it was a stupid decision to make but you captivated my heart ever since the first day I meet you. The way you smile and laugh and when we're training, your determination is so admirable. I was crazy about you." 

Your eyes widened in surprise to see your ex-boss's tears slowly rolling down his cheeks.

"Dazai-"

He lunged towards you to a big bear hug and squeezed you tightly. He nuzzled into your neck, begging for you to forgive him.

"D-Dazai, let me go..." You tried to pry his arms off of you but he would only hug you tighter.

"No. I won't ever let you go."

Your face flushed as you pushed him off of you to look at him in the eyes. The cheerful and the happiness expression Dazai always had in his eyes were now shattered and broken into misery and pain. You were a hot mess now, hot tears were pouring out of your eyes. You blinked away the tears and grabbed his hands. You thought of all the memories you had with him, and even though some of them weren't the best and happy memories, it was still precious to you because-

"You really are an imbecile, Dazai..." You chuckled weakly. "I know I broke a rule from Port Mafia about lying but I lied that I had a huge crush on Akutagawa." You faced him with a river flowing down your cheeks as your sniffed your red, puffy nose. "I was in love with you this whole time. I love you."

Dazai's eyes widened in disbelief. To think that a lady who he-- for sure knew, had a crush on someone else, but lied about having a crush on them and instead, had a crush on Dazai all this time. He was speechless for awhile, like a cat got his tongue.

"Well, that was my lie to you." You wiped the remaining tears off your eyes as you stood up. "I must be going now. It was a pleasure meeting you again and hopefully, we won't have to see each other again." You picked up the hat that was left on the floor and put it on as you left poor Dazai all alone.

"S-STOP!!" he croaked. "PLEASE, DON'T LEAVE ME!!" he scrambled up to his feet as he charged for you, and hugged you from behind.

"Dazai-"

"Why do you have to leave it like this?? Why can't we be together?" He turned you around, putting his hands on your shoulders. "Look, I've regret everything I've done to hurt you. I didn't know that you were in love with me, so please, forgive me."

"W-What do you want me to do?" You asked, your voice starting to quiver.

"You can join me, or refuse and stay with Port Mafia, or we can run away together." he said with determination in his eyes. You thought long and hard as you opened your mouth for your final answer.

"Dazai, __________________."

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What is a better way to start my first one shot with a angst? I'll be honest, I'm not a fan of angst because I cri everi tem ಥ_ಥ (don't worry, they are still amazing tho)

That last sentence was for you to decide ;)

I hope you liked my first one shot! And oMG I'M SO SORRY FOR THIS HEARTBREAKING STORY I JUST- *sighs and hands over the tissue box

Dazai is so precious, I love the dork so much（≧∇≦）