We're going back to this little fella yay! But it's angst so get ready T^T 

Just a warning... It is Dazai so I don't even need to explain it...

Requested by httplotus! (and I realize that this account does not exist which is weird because that's what I put the exact username as when I was recording the people who requested... just let me know in the comments if it's you, I apologize for this ;-;)

Anyways, enjoy~

Dazai met the love of his life. She was so pure and gentle and he almost mistakened her for an angel. Always full of bubbly laughter in her system, it never seemed to run out. The way her (H/C) hair falls on her shoulders lightly, swayed by the wind. Her eyes sparkling with curiosity and worry for her lover.

That girl was you.

You were lucky to have Dazai as your boyfriend and Dazai was lucky to have you as his girlfriend. The two of you were inseparable, always sticking together like super glue. He recalled back to the first time he met you. You were recruiting as a member of the ADA, fighting along with everyone else. He would never forget that silly smile you'd made to everyone when you stumbled on your name. 

"Dazai! W-What are you doing?! Please, get down!!" you saw him one day outside your home standing on a stool at a nearby tree tying a noose on the rope that was hanging from the tree branch.

"Eh? But I was just trying to kill myself." the way Dazai said it so lightly and in a carefree way frightened you terribly. You heard from the other members that he was very suicidal but he never succeed so no one took him seriously. Tears immediately spilled from your pupils as you rushed up to him and pulled on his cream colored-ish trench coat. 

"Please, Dazai san! Get down, you have so much to live for!" you were helplessly begging him now to get down, your lips trembling violently along with your fingers and endless river of tears flowing down your face. Dazai instantly stopped what he was doing and put both hands on your shoulders.

"(F-F/N) chan! Don't worry, I was trying to kill myself but I could never succeed anyway! It's ok, don't cry..." he was certainly surprised to see you like this.

"B-But you could've really died... I don't want that to happen... You're so important to me, Dazai san..." you sniffed, trying to collect your emotions together but failed into a few sobs.

"Why are you trying to kill yourself? Don't you have a reason to live?" 

Dazai gave you sympathetic smile, slowly wrapping his thin but strong arms closer to him, giving you a tight embrace.

"Now I did..." he whispered quietly.

From that day on, he stopped everything. He stopped trying to kill himself. He did it for you. He never wanted to see you shed a single tear because it was him. Never again, will he let you cry because of him...

Until that is, when something that shook Dazai's life completely. You didn't show up at all to work for a few weeks.

Tanizaki dashed his way to the agency to make a very urgent news. According to the witnesses, last night at 12 o'clock sharp, it seemed like you were put asleep by a sleeping serum by a group of men and hauled into a truck, all taped up.

You got kidnapped.

You were snatched by a group of an unknown evil organization. Why would they kidnap you? Dazai was clueless of to what was going on and at first, he wouldn't accept it. But when a few more days past, reality struck him to see that you were really kidnapped- perhaps even killed. Everyone was allowed to move as long as if they were given the instructions from the president but Dazai was prohibited from doing so. 

Dazai tried to search frantically in the city for you and accomplished nothing. But the fear of losing Dazai to the president, he strictly told him that he was off limits for work. And for the first time in his life, he felt unhappy about that.

But like a miracle, you were finally able to escape from that wretched place you were kidnapped and abused. You couldn't make out the faces of the attackers because they were wearing masks. You were strapped tight to a metal chair that was drilled to the floor so you couldn't even move an inch. They did all the torture sessions, whipping, cutting, tormenting, all of it. 

Of course you cried in agony- in pain. You cried out Dazai's name.

Regardless, you were able to escape the place and now you were running around in the city, feeling very frail. Leftover purple and green colored bruises were everywhere on your arms and legs and even back. Knives were cut into your cheeks, collarbone, neck, fingers, arms, legs, everywhere. You squeaked out Dazai's name like a helpless cat that was on the verge of dying.

Tired, you sat on a bench beside the street and looked up at the dark blue night sky. The city lights were too bright that you could make out a person up on the building near you. You eyes shot open wide when you realized who that was. You screeched in shock as you ran inside the building the person was standing on top of.

Your lungs were barely breathing like it was refusing to cooperate with you, but you still gave in all the power you had left inside of you and sprinted up the flight of stairs. Kicking open the steel door, you saw the man you saw down from the ground.

You were unable to hear anymore. Not this again. No, it can't be happening. After when he promised. Your heart was beating louder and faster than a drum, losing your sense of direction. Water burst out of your eyes, folding your hands into fists till your knuckles turned white like a sheet of paper. Taking a deep breath, you screamed out the last of your efforts.

"DAZAI!!!! DON'T DO IT!!!"

Surprised and astonished, he turned around on his heels and now he was facing you. You could see small teardrops on the corner of his eyes as they split up into a single river rolling down his cheeks quickly.

"(F/N) chan, I'm so sorry I couldn't protect you. I thought I could, but I guess I was full of myself." he chuckled and it was a chuckled that was filled with sorrow. He was right. Ever since you were his boyfriend, all these unknown organizations kept whisking you away to torture you or some of them tormented you in some way. It has been nothing but physical or mental abuse for you ever since you became his lover. Taking small cautious step at a time, you spoke.

"Y-You can't do this, Dazai... You promised! You promised you won't do it!!" you cried, choking in your own words.

"I'm sorry it had to be this way... It's all my fault that I couldn't protect you. I don't deserve you..." he took a step back and you screamed at the top of your lungs. Your vocal cords were burning like gasoline. It was all like slow motion. He hopped back, his brown hair gracefully swaying back and forth.

"I love you, (F/N) chan... I love you so much..."

Your mind swirling and spinning, you felt your legs feeling numb but they sped up into a running start as you jumped, no longer feeling the weight of the ground. You opened your arms as you fell onto his broad chest, feeling the whisking sound of the wind violently slap your cheeks with the strands of your (H/C) locks.

"You dummy... You're not leaving me alone." the water flowing from your eyes were sucked high up with the air. Dazai cradled the back of your head and pulled you into his chest, wrapping his other arm around your waist.

"You were my everything, (F/N) chan... So I thank you for everything you've done to me... Goodbye, love." was the last words that escaped his lips until your whole world went black...

Beep... Beep... Beep...

No. No. No. No. NO.

This cannot be happening.

Where am I? The hospital?

Oh god.

W-What?! Why is everyone here?

My voice... I can't move it... It hurts...

Help me, Dazai...

"I'm terribly sorry to say, but yesterday Dazai died trying to protect you and because of the many deep cuts in your throat, you won't be able to speak again..." the doctor took your icy cold hand, gently caressing it. 

Your face still as a statue, with only a single river falling down like a shooting star in one eye-

You cried silently.

Without any sound.

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Okay, I was really planning this story to be just him killing himself instead of you joining in, but it seems that I've been cursed by a spell of angst momentarily...

I shall make myself disappear so I can cry in the corner as well...

And the ending was so short and fast ;-;