I woke up to the smell of saltwater. It took me awhile to remember where I was before getting up. I put on a jumper and pants. For breakfast I just poured myself a cup of coffee and ate a banana.

I decided to go on a walk down the beach with a notebook and quill. It was cloudy with no sun when I looked up at the sky. It wasn't a surprise to me though, I was just glad that I could be outside again.

I sat down by a rock and started to write my thoughts down. It started out short, but then my hand just started going and it never stopped. Writing felt good because I was finally getting thoughts off my chest.

Soon after I was done writing, Luna came up to me.

"Hey, Luna."

"Hello, Ali," she said sitting next to me. "What are you doing out here alone?"

"Just writing a few things down," I said calmly.

"Do you want to know what helps me write?" She asked.

"No, what does?"

"These glasses." She handed me a pair of glasses that looked normal.

"They look nice," I said taking a look at them.

"They're not just ordinary glasses, try them on," she said.

I put them and was amazed.

"Oh, I can see what is happening behind me."

She nodded.

"But how do these help you write?" I asked.

"Well, you don't need to understand what you are writing down, it's really just the experience." She said.

I took them off and handed them back to her.

"No, keep them," she said.

"Oh, thank you, Luna."

She simply just nodded and walked off.

I kept the glasses on and turned the page. I just started to write. Luna was strange, but she was kind, and that's what really matters.

—•—

I was still at the beach when I heard movement behind me. I didn't see anything, but it felt like someone was watching me. Soon after Malfoy appeared behind me.

"What are you doing here," I said not even having to turn around.

"I wanted to tell you that I'm sorry for what I did," he said sitting down next to me. I took off my glasses and when I looked at him, I was no longer met with the glistening stars in his eyes, in fact I felt nothing but regret.

"You broke your promise yesterday," I said closing my notebook.

"What?" He asked confused.

"What?" I asked questioning him. "You're turning towards the death eaters Malfoy, can't you see that?"

"Ali I had no choice. I couldn't just run away from that whole situation."

Silence

"So, is that all you wanted to tell me?" I asked.

"Well yeah, but I guess I just wanted to see you again, to check up you know."

Silence once again

"Can you imagine where we would be right now if we didn't meet?" I asked him. "I mean, I personally wouldn't be in this situation right now."

"Well, what do you want me to do? I can't turn against them, Ali. It's harder than it seems."

"Harder than it seems? Malfoy you have it so much easier than the rest of us. Almost everyone has been fighting for their lives this whole time and you say you have it hard?"

The world felt like it stopped for a second. Malfoy went cold silent after I said that. Had I gone too far?

"What happened to us?" He asked silently.

"I don't think this was our fault Draco. I think it's your fathers."

"Oh so now you're blaming my father?"

"Yeah, I mean you are almost turning into-"

"I am nothing like my father," he said cutting me off, "and for you to suggest otherwise-"

"Why? Why are you acting like him? Don't you realize your actions Malfoy?"

He sighed heavily

"I'm just going leave," he said getting back up, "don't expect me to come back to you when you need it the most." He said annoyed. He soon disappeared into the distance.

A tear dropped down onto my paper as I ripped it up and threw it in the water. I walked away as the inc smeared across the paper.

Don't expect me to come back when you need it the most? Didn't he want me to be safe?

I just wanted him to get away from me. He is the reason I almost died last week, and I didn't want to go through that ever again.

Dracos POV

I'm not having it hard? How dare she say that! But I guess she had a point. I was lucky to be in my family. I wasn't running for my life.

I guess I do feel bad that I didn't do anything when she was locked in the cellar. I felt bad thinking about it. Bloody hell why didn't I do something sooner.

If we didn't meet, she wouldn't be in this situation. I put her into this. She doesn't deserve it, does she? Ali would probably be with her family, safe at home. For a split second I was going to go back and apologize, but she probably didn't want to see me ever again.

Ugh, why do these things always have to happen to me.

I was going to mail Blaise to come over, but he was probably done with me as well. I rolled over in my bed and screamed into my pillow. I noticed that it was a bit dramatic after I did it, and I hope no one heard me.

A few minutes later my mother came in with a worried look on her face.

"You haven't ate since breakfast my dear," she said in a worried tone.

"So, I'm not hungry mum."

"But you should eat something before the sun goes down," she said walking towards my window.

"Please, just leave me alone."

She slowly made her way to the door and left. I didn't eat that night. I wasn't hungry and felt sick. Going to bed was harder than I thought it was going to be. Eventually I slept, even though I didn't get much sleep.

When I woke up I took a shower to get thoughts out of my mind. But they circled my head. Memories of Ali came flashing back. Like the time we danced and when we kissed. This girl has been through so much. It has been a toxic relationship all around.

I wanted to go apologize, but this time I wouldn't flash out no matter what she said. I have to control myself so I don't get her hurt. I instead just wrote her a letter.

Dear Ali,
I'm sorry for the way I got upset yesterday. I should have controlled myself better. After we had that conversation, I realized that you were right. I don't want to bother you because you have been through so much. Sorry if this sounds stupid, but I really miss the times we were together. Not in a toxic relationship, like when we really cared about each other. I just wish I could go back to those days. This is an apology, probably one of the first ones I've ever wrote. Hopefully that means something,
-Draco Malfoy