chapter twenty-two:

first time

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as the night breeze cooled and the stars faded behind a few stray clouds, billie shifted slightly in madigan's lap, letting out a soft sigh. the moment had stretched into something so peaceful, so serene, but the air was getting colder, and the blanket beneath them wasn't enough anymore. billie tilted her head up to catch madigan's eyes, her lips curving into a soft smile.

"should we head inside?" billie murmured, her voice soft but filled with a kind of unspoken understanding that neither of them wanted this night to end just yet.

madigan nodded, her gaze lingering on billie's face for a beat longer, not quite ready to leave the comfort of the closeness they shared beneath the stars. but the idea of being inside, warm, and wrapped up together was tempting.

"yeah," madigan finally said, her voice just as soft, "let's go."

they untangled themselves from the blanket, billie giving madigan a hand up before leading the way back inside the cabin. the warmth of the indoors enveloped them instantly, a welcome contrast to the crisp night air. billie flicked on a few dim lights, casting a golden glow around the cozy living room. it was quiet, just the soft sound of their footsteps and the distant hum of the wind outside.

billie turned toward madigan, her eyes catching the soft glow of the light, and for a moment, they just stood there, staring at each other, both feeling the magnetic pull between them. there was an unspoken energy in the air, something that had been simmering all night but now felt heavier, more intense.

"do you wanna get ready for bed?" billie asked, her voice quieter now, almost hesitant.

madigan smiled, feeling her heartbeat quicken at the thought of it. "yeah," she nodded, though there was a tension building in the room, something unsaid but palpable.

they moved through the motions—changing into something more comfortable, brushing their teeth in the small bathroom, stealing glances at each other in the mirror, their smiles shy but knowing. the cabin's soft lighting made everything feel more intimate, like the world had shrunk down to just the two of them.

madigan slipped into one of billie's oversized shirts, the fabric soft against her skin. billie, in a tank top and soft cotton shorts, looked at her with an almost shy grin, her eyes lingering on madigan in a way that made her stomach flutter. they crawled into bed, the mattress dipping under their weight as they settled beneath the blankets, lying side by side in the quiet, listening to the wind outside.

at first, they were just close—hands brushing, legs tangling under the covers as they found comfort in the nearness of each other. but soon enough, the quiet wasn't enough. billie shifted closer, her fingers grazing madigan's arm before sliding up to cup her cheek gently. she leaned in, her lips finding madigan's in a kiss that started soft, slow, but quickly deepened.

madigan responded immediately, her hand sliding up the back of billie's neck, pulling her closer. billie's body pressed against hers, the warmth between them growing as the kiss became more insistent, more urgent. they'd kissed before, but tonight, with the privacy of the cabin, the soft intimacy of the night, it felt different. there was no one around, no prying eyes or judgmental whispers—just them.

billie shifted, her body moving to straddle madigan, her lips never leaving hers, the kiss growing more heated. madigan let out a soft sound against billie's mouth, her hands slipping down to billie's waist, fingers curling around the fabric of her tank top. billie's fingers trailed down madigan's sides, leaving a trail of warmth in their wake. the tension between them had reached a boiling point, the months of attraction and unspoken feelings now bubbling to the surface.

billie pulled back just enough to catch her breath, her eyes dark and full of something wild as she looked down at madigan. her lips were swollen, her breath uneven, and her voice came out in a soft, breathless whisper.

"i can't get enough of you," billie murmured, her hand sliding up to cradle the side of madigan's face, her thumb brushing over her lips.

madigan's heart raced, her pulse pounding in her ears as she looked up at billie, feeling the weight of her words settle deep in her chest. "you don't have to," madigan whispered back, her voice just as breathless, and in that moment, it was all the invitation billie needed.

they kissed again, deeper this time, their bodies pressing closer as the heat between them grew. billie's hands roamed over madigan's body, exploring, memorizing every curve and every soft sound she made. madigan's hands slid under billie's tank top, her fingers brushing against her warm skin, sending a shiver through both of them.

as their kisses deepened, everything else seemed to fall away—the world outside, the pressures of fame, the chaos that had been following them. all that mattered was this moment, the connection between them, the undeniable pull that had been building since the day they met.

but even as things grew more heated, there was still something soft, something tender in the way billie kissed her, in the way she held madigan close. it wasn't just about the physical attraction—it was the trust, the vulnerability they shared, the way they fit together so perfectly, like they had been made for each other.

billie pulled back slightly, her forehead resting against madigan's, her breath warm and soft. her voice was gentle, almost hesitant. "are you sure?" she whispered, her eyes searching madigan's for any sign of doubt. "i don't want to do anything that makes you uncomfortable, or that you don't want."

madigan's heart was pounding, but her voice came out steady. "i'm sure, billie," she said, her eyes locking with billie's, full of trust and certainty. billie's lips curled into a soft smile, and she leaned in, kissing her again, this time slower, more tenderly.

as billie's lips brushed against her neck, she whispered, her voice low but full of care, "tell me if i do anything wrong... or if i hurt you."

madigan couldn't find the words, so she nodded, her body trembling slightly under billie's touch, her heart full of unspoken emotions.

billie's eyes lingered on madigan's for a moment longer, a question still hanging in the air, unspoken but understood. when madigan nodded again, more firmly this time, billie leaned in, kissing her softly but with more intensity, her hand sliding gently along madigan's side. the space between them seemed to disappear, the air thick with anticipation.

madigan's breath hitched as billie's hands moved with careful intent, their lips locking in a deeper kiss. there was no rush, just a slow build of something that had been simmering between them for a while now. billie pulled back briefly, her forehead resting against madigan's, both of them breathing heavily, the connection between them palpable.

"just tell me if you want to stop," billie murmured, her lips brushing madigan's as she spoke. madigan nodded, her fingers tangling in billie's hair, pulling her closer as their bodies pressed together.

without another word, billie kissed her again, this time with a hunger that left no room for doubt about what was coming next. the room seemed to close in around them as their touches grew more deliberate, every movement full of intention. there was no hesitation anymore—just the two of them, wrapped in each other, ready to let go of everything else.

and then, the world outside disappeared as they sank deeper into the moment, their shared breaths and soft whispers filling the quiet space between them.