The room broadcasted a soft and quiet silence, but radiated a tense atmosphere. Felix paced the room the necessary, but he just couldn't seem to give eye contact to the older. Who grew tired of his pathetic actions.
Hyunjin sighed; loudly. "Look, your wasting my time here sunshine. If your not going to speak to me, then I'd rather have my death sentence be made rather sooner then later—" "I'm sorry." That was enough to keep Hyunjin quiet, but not enough for him to showcase an expression. "And?" He responded. Felix didn't say anything. Words not seeming to process.
Hyunjin scoffed scornfully from the silence of the younger, "What? Cat got your tongue lixie?" Hyunjin teased. "Your impossible." Hyunjin's mood slowly faltered, "Oh? It can speak?" Hyunjin questioned. Making Felix slowly approach the tied up assassin. "Hyunjin, I get it. I get that I broke you, I made you feel pain that I never wished upon you. I fucking get that. But does it mean that you have to take it to the next level? In the most absurd and extreme way there is?" Hyunjin cocked a fake laugh. "Oh come on lix, don't start that shit with me. Your the one who left in the first place, didn't you?" Hyunjin cautioned.
"Do you think I don't regret that decision every day? Knowing that I left my best friend, my most dearest person. To hang on for dear life, in the nearest hospital, with a gun shot wound?" Felix didn't know if Hyunjin was listening but he didn't care, he had been holding onto these words for god knows how long. "Do you know how many times I thought about you for 365 days in the past 3 years? Do you know how bad I wanted to end my life right then and there because of how much pain I've set upon you?!" Felix didn't know how or just simply why. But he felt, anger rising in himself.
"I know it's no excuse for me, I know it's my fault. I was too big of a coward to stay by your side and deal with it. Your secret life. And I'm not going to hide it anymore, hell! I was afraid of you when I found out Hyunjin! That I've been living with not just a assassin, but the most dangerous one in all of Korea! But the only thing I thought of when I was escaping from you, was the thought of how much damage this would put you in. Yea I was selfish, I also thought about my safety, but could you blame me Hyunjin?" Surprisingly, the words started taking an effect to Hyunjin.
He always thought that when he would meet the younger again, that all of his past feelings would be rid, and would have no connection with him. But now... he didn't know what to think, let alone feel.
But the fact that Hyunjin had secretly craved for this kind of intervention almost drove him insane to the point where he wanted to isolate himself from everything. He never truly thought that he would crave these words more than an apology. He felt that some part of himself needed tough love more then sympathy.
Hyunjin had his head hung down low, giving no such contact with the blonde. Felix felt tempted to touch the older, slowly moving his hand towards his head, but only to be yanked to his side when he saw Hyunjin abruptly stand up then continue to place Felix in his hold; Choking the younger. "Awe come on lix, did you really think I wouldn't break free? They don't call me the best assassin in north and South Korea for nothing." He whispered dangerously into Felix's ear, making Felix whimper and yelp more loudly.
"H- Hyunjin, p- please. L- let me g- go!" Felix pleaded, if not begged mercifully. Hyunjin tightened his hold on the younger. The only thought overclouding his mind was that this was it, this was the time to be rid of lee Felix for good. But...
"Jinnie...." He froze, that nickname... He suddenly recalled all those times 3 years ago where he couldn't way to hear that sensational pet name that he adored. He looked down at the younger and saw his skin color start to gradually fade, he then panicked; releasing the younger. Slowly more than rapidly.
Felix collapsed on the ground, grasping for air. His skin color slowly coming back to him. Hyunjin stood there, looking down at his hands that were shaking obnoxiously. "W- wha what have I done..." he mumbled to himself as his body started trembling.
He almost killed Felix, his Felix.
Felix saw what was happening and hastily got up, he tried approaching the older and saying he was fine but it backfired, "NO! STOP, PLEASE- please... get away from me..." he pleaded, pushing the younger away from him. Felix's lip started to quiver as Hyunjin started yanking at his hair, while cursing himself mentally. "Jinnie... please... it's not your faul—" "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry lix. I- I never meant to do this, I never wanted this. I never wanted to h- hurt you... your so p- precious to me, h- how could I e- ever. I'm so fucking s- stupid, w- why.... Why did you leave me lix... I missed you so fucking much." Felix's heart broke at the sight before him.
Hyunjin was crying. Balling.
"I never stopped thinking about y- you, d- did you hate me that much l- lix, was I such a bad p- person? I wasn't t- trying to, I was t- trying to be g- good—" "You are a good person Jinnie! You've never not been! Please... stop this... just stop...." Felix approached Hyunjin with no hesitation, engulfing the older in his arms, protecting him.
It only made Hyunjin clutch onto Felix's shirt even more. God it felt so fucking good to be in his warmth again. But he couldn't help the resistance he felt when he forcefully pulled back. "I- I can't. I don't deserve it, not after everything I've done."
"Hyunjin—" "Felix, I almost killed you. And the words I- I said to you... I can't forgive myself for that, H- how could I? For years... I've hated you. Never understood the situation truly until now. And yet... some part of me is gunning at me to kill you right here and now. But seeing you... realizing that I've wasted so much precious time hating you, instead of finding you. It's killing me, the fact I had the audacity to even think such things irritates me like no other. And that will haunt me to the the end of time." Hyunjin explained, standing near inches apart away from the small blonde. They gazed at each other with more tension with words being spoken.
Felix knew Hyunjin wanted to escape, he knew he felt guilty of his past. But he wasn't going to let him voluntarily leave knowing how it took place the first time. "You seem to forget that I'm the one who caused this Hyunjin. Your not the only one to blame in this complicated ass situation. If that were so, then I would have no reason to argue." It seems as if the words weren't processed within Hyunjin because Hyunjin wasn't even acknowledging the younger.
"Your not just gonna ignore this, you can't. 3 years Hyunjin. And I'll keep reminding you until the day we part. But until that day comes.... Im never leaving your side." Hyunjin clenched his fists before walking up to the blonde, "Your fucking stupid you know that? Everyone is sitting here telling me that I need to keep control of my emotions when your the only one who's not." Felix scoffed, "And what about it Hyunjin, you can't do anything to me. We've both hurt each other enough. Shouldn't we put an end to this nonsense? ITS HELPING NO ONE HERE!" Hyunjin was taken back from the sudden rise in the blondes voice. "And what will it do for us if we stop?! Things will never be the same Felix, you know that!"
And Felix did, he knew that things would never be the same for them. It would never be hyunlix, the main duo. Fire and ice, the sun and the moon. It would just be Felix and Hyunjin, past mates who mourned over each other for 3 years. It was like a tragic ending for your typical broken friendship, except....
They were more than that.
They weren't a typical friendship. They were each other's one. Their soulmate if you would specify it Morley. But what's lost can never come back, promises could always break.
Nothing ever stays the same.
And not everything can be fixed.
"We're both fucked up lix, and there's no denying that. So stop fucking around and face reality. We were never supposed to be friends, let alone lovers." Felix felt lost at that moment, how could he say that.
"H- how could you say that? You know shit about love—" "And do you?! We both had feelings for each other but have we ever confessed? Let alone spoke about it?! NO WE HAVEN'T! So don't you dare tell me I don't know shit when neither do you." Hyunjin spat, if not yelling at the short Australian.
Felix felt tears starting to surface his eyes, he thought he gotten through hyunjin. But did he not? Or was that part only a lie? "Jinnie..." "STOP! S- STOP CALLING ME THAT! P- please... stop having me hold on. It's Been far too long lix, I can't take this anymore..." Hyunjin begged, tears also starting to surface his eyes as he begged himself not to fold into his inner feelings.
It went silent as Hyunjin stared at the opposite of the room, Felix lingering behind as he silently gazed at the older. Why does it hurt so much to long for someone who resists the urge to get close to him? Was it really over?
"Today's my death day lix, theres no point in Rekindling a false hope. Especially when it's been lost for ages." He informed in a calm manner, it disgusted Felix on how chill Hyunjin was being about this situation, even so speaking about it.
He dryly laughed, "So what? Your just waiting to face the end of it? For doing nothing? When it's been me this whole time? Your just gonna give it all up and say 'I quit'" Hyunjin didn't respond. Felix scoffed when he saw no sort of action, "Then your more pathetic then I thought." Felix was about to walk off before he was pulled by a large force from behind.
Before he knew it, his lips crashed into a warm surface, which he melted in almost instantly. If for not the damaged room, scattered with broken glass and damaged walls with bullet holes inside. This would yet be the most beautiful thing in the world to both of them as they engulfed themselves in each other's perfect embrace.
The kiss didn't last long before the two individual's let go, breathing out a heavy sigh as they gazed at each other with so much love. The love they kept to themselves for years was finally released, and they couldn't be any happier.
The both softly relaxed their heads together as they took in each other more calmly, "I kept you in the dark, I'm so fucking stupid. I shouldn't ask for your forgiveness but...?" He asked the younger, making Felix softly smile from the long awaited words, "What other answer would I give minus ye—"
But sadly, their time was at a lost when multiple men barged into the room, already making their way towards one Korean. Felix's eyes widened largely when he knew it was coming, "Father please! Let him go!" He pleaded. "Take my son and lock him somewhere far away until we depart, I don't want him anywhere near this bastard." Hyunjin scoffed, "Why? You mad that a bastard like me managed to steal your dear sons hear—" Hyunjin was cut off when he felt a hard surface being hit onto his cheek, "Shut your trap boy, I could kill you right here and now—" "Do it then, show your son what kind of father you are." Felix's father bit his lip before looking at his son who was struggling to release himself from two of the henchmen's hold. He signaled his hand before demanding, "I don't need to prove I'm a good father to a son of a bastard like you, now take him downstairs. I'll be there in a second to commence the task and finish it once and for all."
"No father please! Please let him go!" Felix cried out. His father didn't acknowledge his son before making his way out of the door, two henchmen's following from behind. The other two henchmen's started to follow after with Hyunjin until he used a tactic to release himself from them for a mere couple of seconds.
Once out, he immediately made his way towards Felix, the bodyguards letting go of Felix then approaching Hyunjin rapidly. Not even breaking a sweat did it take Hyunjin measly a couple of moves to knock them out out of the game for a shortened amount of time.
"Lix." Hyunjin spoke grabbing a hold of Felix's face which was wet with tears overflowing his freckle imprinted face. "Oh lix... I'm sorry, but this may be the last time we ever see each other so please... when I'm gone, forget me. Forget all of this torture, remove yourself from this lifestyle immediately, go and live your life to the full extent and never look back. Go and find the one true love of your life and share that beautiful smile with him every morning and night. This may be the last time... but I promise... until my last breath... you will be the last thing that overclouds my mind, to the full extent." This time, Hyunjin let the tears fall as he spoke to his love one last time.
Felix did the same, releasing his emotions full on. He couldn't bear to cave them inside, "P- please don't l- leave me... I- I just g- got you back." Felix's voice grew more desperate as he started to choke at his words. Hyunjin smiled softly as a tear fell from his face onto the cold ground. "I'm never leaving you lix, no one could drag me away where I wouldn't be able to find you..." Felix tried to smile but couldn't.
"Besides... your smile is so bright, that It shines brighter than any of the stars in the galaxy. And your voice will always bring me home..." Felix looked at Hyunjin one more time, both individual's staring deeply into each others eyes as if they could see the whole world in their brown orbs.
Until it was gone in seconds when Felix sobbed uncontrollably, watching as Hyunjin was being dragged away from men in suits. He reached out but was stopped by the previous guards pulling him back. He then suddenly felt dizzy when he felt a sharp pain in the back of his neck, his eyes starting to fluttering close. He then swore he saw Hyunjin depart with the words...
"I love you..."
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