~ 𝕄𝕪 𝕃𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕝𝕖 𝔸𝕟𝕘𝕖𝕝 ~
~ ℂ𝕙𝕒𝕡𝕥𝕖𝕣 𝔽𝕚𝕧𝕖 ~

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'Dear diary,

It's been about a week since I met Nishinoya-san and the rest of the team. So far I have bonded quite a bit with Hinata and Yamaguchi, I'm extremely surprised at myself for being able to deal with Hinata as someone with as much energy as him would usually of scared me away by now but he's...different. In a good way of course! Anyway, me and Yanaguchi have gotten really close too! He's like a younger brother to me now and he's always there for me when I need some help. Since my last breakdown I haven't really been struggling with anything, I've been lucky is all I can say... I've been purposely avoiding those girls every chance I can, just a couple days ago I found a small room with tons and tons of books inside! There's also a small table with a chair beneath a window that overlooks the main field where all of the main sports activities take place, I'm currently sitting in said chair. I don't know how much longer I can avoid them but I'll try my best! Oh! Also, Nishinoya-san has started picking me up from my lessons, walking me to the gym and to where he and Tanaka-san sit at lunchtime. I wasn't too sure at first but with constant reassurance from Koushi and Nishinoya-san my nerves were soon eased and I now feel comfortable eating and sitting with them.

However, although I've bonded with some of the team there is still two who seem like they won't be opening up to me anytime soon...I don't mind though everyone has a right to keep themselves to themselves but Tsukishima-kun's and Kageyama-kun's stern attitude does give me the chills at times.

How can someone hold such a frightening gaze for so long without realising that they look very intimidating?'

You giggle to yourself lightly before spinning your pen between two of your fingers and putting your head back down, munching on some dango that is placed next to your diary.

'Class has also been going really well lately, I'm still sitting at the back by myself and when we get set a project my teacher, Mr.Sato gives me extra time to complete it as I'm working by myself. I scored 86 out of 100 on my most recent one!

I've also been seeing less of Koushi whilst we're at school, this saddens me mildly as I enjoy his company but I don't mind because I know how much stress I cause him on a daily basis, and since I have Nishinoya-san "protecting" me now he doesn't have to worry as much!

Well I think this is enough for today, I haven't really got anything else to write about...oh! This dango from that cute little store on the corner in really good! I must remember to buy some more when I can!

May 4th, 2020'

You sigh contentedly before closing your (favourite colour) diary and admiring the stickers on the front. Butterflies and flowers filled in all of the spare space on the front and back cover and to some it looked like a mess but you loved this book, it is one of your prized possessions. Every moment in your life that in your eyes is worth remembering is noted down in this book and you've recently started using it as a diary as you wanted to write down what happened daily when you started at Karasuno. Originally, you were filling it in with loads of detail everyday but now that things have died down there hasn't been anything to report on, you didn't mind this though.

Once you've put it away you search for your earphones and when you found them you plugged them into your phone and you laid your head down on the desk with one of your favourites playing.

"I know it's not the same, but I feel it anyway"
"Tell me if that's okay"

You move your hand gracefully through the air, swaying it from side to side and spinning your wrist in all sorts of directions in an attempt to recreate some beautiful dance you saw on a video not too long ago.

"Know I'll be on my way, should've known, now, I feel insane"
"Am I insane?'

Unconsciously, your feet begin to gently tap on the floor in rhythm with the beats from the song.

"I've waited way too long, yeah, I know you've changed"
"You have a different face to me"

Your body is the next thing to start moving as your chest starts to sway along with your head from side to side, as your hand was previously.

"I guess that where I was wrong, I'm the one to blame"
"And that's a shame to see"

Soon enough, your body has left the chair and you're now dancing in the small room following the exact steps from the video. You would usually spend weekends watching contemporary dance routines and you'd end up watching them over and over again so by the time you decided to stop you knew the routine off by heart.

Dancing was a small passion of yours ever since you were a young child and you've always had a natural talent for it. Agility has always been your biggest strength and you decide to use that to help yourself move more when dancing. This ability allowed your body to move swiftly and smoothly, never once has a single one of your little performances that usually take place in your room ever been static.

This was your hidden secret, your mystery fact, one of the very few things in life that you can enjoy without having the constant fear of being judged, your fears and worries were distant when your were doing what you loved the most.

However, what you didn't know was the volume of sound your feet were making every time you landed on the floor from a jump or the creak coming from the floorboard when your pirouetted, and unfortunately for you a certain group of girls heard the commotion coming from the room and decided to take a peek.

"Is that who I think it is?"

"That's Sugawara-senpai's sister isn't it?"

"What is she doing?"

"Why is she...is she dancing?"

"I'm just surprised that she's alone, I mean she's had that shortass following her around for like a week!"

"Hey don't be rude to Nishinoya-senpai!"

"How do you know his name?"

"T-that doesn't matter!"

"Uhm, okay whatever then..."

"Hey focus!"

They manage to enter the room without attracting your attention as you're eyes were tightly shut, preventing any light from reaching your retina and the illusion of you being on a large, well-lit stage performing at a grand event inside of an extremely prestigious theatre fading away. They all giggle slightly at your movements, they clearly didn't understand the blissful feeling of gliding though air, defying the laws of gravity when you executed a move that involved you leaping high off of the ground.

Eventually, when the girls had enough of watching you one approaches you and removes an earphone from your ear, instantly causing your face to drop as you turn to see them.

This could potentially become your worst nightmare.

"Haha, found you~ Y/n-Chan~" she sings in your ear menacingly.

"Nice moves Y/n-Chan!" The girl in the back cackles as you gradually begin to take steps backwards.

How long have they been here?
Why are they here?
How did they know I was here?
No one is here to help!
I'm all alone!
Please someone else walk by!
I'm panicking...why am I panicking so much?!
Why am I like this?
What am I doing?!

Your hands find their way to your mouth and your teeth begin to clench around your soon to be short and dismantled nails, nibbling the edges off slightly. Tears well in your now wide eyes and your pupils are so contracted that they may as well just disappear completely.

"Is she biting her nails? Gross..." the final girl scoffs and snarls at you.

"You never answered our questions last time~"

Questions?
I don't remember a lot from that night...
I don't care about that right now I just want to leave!
Someone please come help me...

I don't know how much more I can take...

Soon you collapse to your knees and the tears that once threatened to fall from your eyes had completely violated your previously bright and perky face.

"Oh come on no need for the overreaction~"

The main girl kneels beside you and cups your chin, forcing you to look at her.

"It's just a few innocent questions, nothing too tremendous~" they all laugh in unison but your vision becomes blurred from the intensity of your tears.

Someone...

Please...

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