“  CONTINUING ”

I was just looking at the beautiful view from this bridge, The sea looks so calm and beautiful, He made his choice already. I wiped my tears right away, I've been holding back these tears for a while. I don't like to be weak in front of Chaiya, I knew that this would be good for him, It would be good for all of them. But it's inevitable that I won't get hurt, I thought I'm going to be okay, I thought it wasn't that painful but I was wrong, It hurts so much to see the person you love getting married to someone else, It's hurts so much because I have to let him go, I have to let him go because this is his happiness. I raised my head and looked at the stars in the sky, It was such a beautiful sight to the point that I wished human life was the same as stars.

I didn't think I would still see you here, Chaiya was telling the accident happened earlier are you okay win? I heard pornthip's voice, It was her who came. She came closer to me and also looked at the sea.

The view It's too beautiful the reflection of sea, stars and moon, The sea shines because of the stars in the sky and the big moon who gives more light to the sea; She said I was leaning on the railings here on the bridge and she did the same.

Let's grab a drink, Invite chaiya and your boyfriend if you want; I said to her she nodded and dialed a number.

Witch, Let's grab a drink with win, send me a location we're on our way; She ended the call after she said that to Chaiya. It's around 9 in the evening, I didn't expect any messages or calls from him, I smiled bitterly at the sky and immediately went to pornthip's car. She drove the car at full speed, We immediately got to where we were going, It's a high end bar. We immediately saw Chaiya sitting on the top of her car, She's wearing black shorts and a black leather jacket and her top is a white crop top.

What kind of dress code is that? Pornthip asked her, She rolled her eyes. Pornthip wearing an all black leather jacket and fitted jeans pornthip typical style she looks scary on that look.

This is called FASHION you don't know it because you always wear blacks; After saying that she immediately went inside and we followed her. The loud banging song welcomed us, Many people dancing in the middle of the floor and many people drinking different kind of alcohol, We all went to a small table.

Wine? Pornthip asked and I nodded, She stood up and got us the drink's.

I thought you jumped off the bridge, Are you feeling well? I glared at her and she just raised her hands in defeat.

Stop it Witch, We are here to enjoy ourselves; Pornthip told her she just rolled her eyes and grabbed the drink's.

Win? We all turned to see where that voice came from it was ohm and Tay.

It's you guys sit down; I said pornthip moved towards me, She took off her jacket and threw it at chaiya, Chaiya looked at her in confused.

What's this? She said Pornthip didn't look at her and continue drinking her wine.

Eat it, of course cover your legs witch, it's makes me sick when I saw you on those kind of piece and I hate other people gaze especially those guy's ; Pornthip said, She also noticed the stickiness of men's eyes while looking at chaiya's deriction.

Are you with bright? Ohm's question made me stop, I also felt Chaiya and Pornthip's gaze, I just ignored them and continued drinking the wine, The wine tasted like water to me.

He's not here; I simply said to ohm, Chaiya gives him a glass full of wine, ohm took it and thanked her, Chaiya did the same to Tay.

How's school? I asked I didn't go to school like for a week.

It's okay, It's just we are not used that you and bright are not there; Ohm said I just gave him a small smile.

Are you going to school tomorrow? Tay said I shook my head before answering him.

I can't go back to school for more weeks, We're going to leave the country tomorrow; I said, they looked at the two who were now also quietly drinking alcohol, I guess they noticed that the two were looking at them.

Yeah, We have flight tomorrow morning; It was chaiya who answered because pornthip was still silent.

When are you coming back? I drained the glass and poured more wine on it.

Don't know; I answered briefly and they both remained silent.

Hey slowdown, You turned wine into water; Chaiya said I raised my glass.

It tastes like water, What kind of wine did you order anyway? I told her, Her eyes widened and looked at pornthip who was now also looking at me.

Water, seriously? That's the highest alcohol wine they have here, Then you only taste it like a water? Chaiya said in shock, I drained the glass again and put more wine.

Whooah!! The wine is too strong win; Tay said, I shrug and drink more. I don't know why but I feel like my heart has become numb, I don't know if I still feel anything. It really tastes like water. I ignored all of them, I just keep drinking, I want the pain I feel to go away, They say that alcohol can take away the pain I want to try it.

Win stop it; My vision gets blurry but I know It's pornthip, She grabbed the glass I was holding and put it aside.

Pornthip what am I going to do now, I'm in pain but I have to let him go, I have to do that but why it's too painful, I don't know but those words just came out, I can no longer hold them in my heart. I felt her hugging me sideways, She gently tapped my head.

Chaiya took them outside; I heard pornthip says, Chaiya immediately stood on my other side. I couldn't stop the tears that wanted to escape from my eyes, It hurts to think that he will no longer mine, It's hurts to think that I won't see him again.

Pornthip, I will take care of him; I suddenly heard his voice, I shook my head a lot of the times, I thought it was just because I was drunk but his here in front of me, He's wearing jeans and a white shirt. He stood in front of us, I let go of pornthip I know I was drunk but I can leave the bar alone.

Pick me up around 6, bring Chaiya home now before anything happened; I coldly said to her, She nodded and I continued walking, I knew that Bright was following me when we got out, He immediately pulled both of my hands.

Win, talk to me please; The place where we were standing was a bit dark, I turned to him and smiled a little I want our last day to be happy.

I'm sorry if I didn't tell you that we're going to a bar, I also saw ohm and Tay earlier, Did you see them? I asked and he came to me and he hugged me, The tears that I had suppressed came out again.

Have you eaten? I asked, him, I immediately wiped my tears, He looked at me in the eyes, It's good that it's dark in this place.

I have eaten, let's go home; He said.

Come with me first, I will show you something; I said, He was frowning but he also nodded I told him the way, Because he was the one driving. We arrived at the bridge where I went earlier, The view was still the same, I held his waist and we looked for a place to sit.

Wow that's beautiful, When did you see it? He said happily while still looking at the sea.

Just now, come here; He immediately sat on my lap, I put my chin on his shoulder while we both looked at the sea.

I want your life to be this beautiful and clear because you deserve it; I said to him, He leaned his head on me and he was looking at me seriously.

I already have a beautiful life Win, I'm happy with you; He said while smiling, He looked back at the sea which now has become even more sparkling because of the moon, It's like the body of the moon is in the sea so it's beautiful to look at, I wish time could be stopped. I turned his head to face me, I immediately kissed him and he responded, He fixed his body position to face me even more, I explored his tongue and he did the same, I held his waist to come closer to me. I carefully lowered his head to the floor and I continued kissing him, He pulled my body to be closer to him, I was the first to let go and fixed him, I put our heads together while he just looked into my eyes.

I love you so much Bright Vachirawit, You are the only man I will love forever; I weakly said, He smiled and touched my face.

I love you too Win Metawin, No one can change that; I immediately hugged him after he spoke, I'm happy to leave because I knew he would be happy. He deserves the happiness without any danger on his life, I can only give that when I'm no longer here in Thailand.

Around 12 am we left the place, We are now at my condo, He was sleeping on my chest while I was just looking at him. This is the last day I will see his face, This is the last day I will see him, I don't know if I will return to Thailand, I don't know if I can return in this country alive and he's going to get married soon, He shouldn't see me anymore. That way he can live without my shadow.

“ SEE YOU ALL NEXT CHAPTER ”