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I held a deep mug on my face as Cee laughed recording me as I bounced up and down on my yoga ball in the middle of the room as he recorded me chuckling leaning back in the rocking chair that was in the corner of the room.

"Cedarian." I spoke smacking my thigh tilting my head to the side glaring at him making him laugh out loud as I pouted.

"Wassup baby momma?" he spoke making me reach over, grabbing my half-filled water bottle throwing it at him making him dodge it before he smacked his lips putting the bottle down stale-facing me.

"That's what the fuck I thought, stop recording me!" I rolled my eyes continuing to bounce on the ball, he just waved me off watching the video making me shake my head before screwing up my face, taking deep breaths feeling the unbearable feeling of a Braxton hick. I had been getting them since last night which has been making my life a living hell.

Rubbing my hand over my 9-month belly, Cee got up before sitting on the floor right in front of me putting his large hands on my belly rubbing it gently as I leaned my head back moaning out in pain.

"You sure youn wanna go to the hospital Jazzy?" Once I finally pulled myself together, I shook my head looking at him.

"Yes, I'm sure. I told you I want a home birth, if I get any worse, I'm gonna call Jess and the midwife." He looked at me a little unsure before nodding his head.

"Alright ma, if you say so. Come on though, the food is almost here." He held his hands out making me grab both of them standing up with the help of him, fixing the sports bra that I had on pulling it up some more since my boobs we're nearly spilling out.

I took a deep breath looking up at the ceiling as Cee stood in front of me, rubbing my stomach leaning down slightly kissing my forehead before kissing my lips.

Things we're very... odd between me and Cee, I met him last year when he got drafted to the Dallas Cowboys, we met through a mutual friend at a club one night when he was out celebrating with his team and we both clicked instantly. We didn't have any sexual relations AT ALL, whatsoever considering he was in a relationship when we met, and I was just fresh out of a relationship. PLUS, I just genuinely wanted to stay friends with him, I didn't wanna mess that up.

That was until we both decided that we wanted to try an experiment, going half on a baby. At first it was really a joke until I started to notice that Cee was serious which made us start trying, and let me just say this, the way that this man fucks ALONE could make anyone want to have the man's baby- I mean seriously, I was very close to acting delusional over this man and he's not my nigga.

Anyways, I ended up pregnant 8 months ago and now here we are, we plan on co-parenting and just doing us honestly. He's always traveling due to him playing football so it's kind of hard but nonetheless we're still trying to figure it out, we're both still young and are soon to be young parents.

"You good?" I nodded my head looking up at him smiling before I slowly walked out the room holding his hand as we made our way down the steps to the living room.

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Propping my phone that was recording up on the coffee maker, I looked at the okra water that was in a glass in front of me slightly gagging before looking up at Cee who was chuckling shaking his head.

"I don't wanna do this- why can't we just fuck? Dr. Avery said that was best anyways." I spoke mumbling under my breath making Cee laugh loudly as I just mugged him through the camera, I found nothing fucking funny honestly.

"Come on mama, drink this shit, all we been doin is fuckin. You need a break." I huffed before sighing lowly looking back at the water before grabbing my glass straw, putting it in the glass taking a deep breath before taking a small sip, I paused looking at the water and looked at Cee before sipping some more nodding.

"It's actually not bad, I hate that texture though. It feels like I'm drinking mucus. I don't see how bitches do it." I spoke as Cee stood behind me rubbing on my stomach making me smile slightly drinking some more of the water putting my cup down.

"You still want me to rub your feet?" He asked making me nod quickly smiling.

"Yesss, please. My feet hurt so bad it's not funny, have you talked to your mom? I want my girl to be here, I miss her." I spoke as he backed up turning around looking at him, he nodded before pulling his phone out looking at it.

"I'll let her know so she can come over," I nodded wrapping my arms around his body, hugging him with the best of my ability since my stomach was in the way, I laid my head on his chest as he did whatever on his phone and looked up at him, he looked back down at me staring into my eyes. I felt my face getting hot making me instantly look away before pulling away as he just smiled.

I'll sit on his face.

I waddled out of the kitchen after grabbing my phone ending the video that was still recording to go sit on the couch, I looked over at the round pool that I was going to be giving birth in up against the wall along with other stuff like towels and calming candles, I was just hoping and praying that this little boy decides to come sometime next week since I'm not really mentally prepared to push out a whole human.

I was honestly scared for my life, but I know this is all a part of god's plan.

I leaned back on the couch, putting my feet up on the couch getting on Instagram, swiping over to the camera recording myself before posting it to my story. Cee came out of the kitchen talking on the phone with someone, but I just tuned him out putting my full focus on my phone.

"Yeah, I'm bouta pull up gimmie 10." He spoke making my head shoot up, looking at him.

Pull the fuck up on who?

"Aight." I just looked at him now curious as he hung up the phone twisting one of his dreads.

"You leaving?" I asked as he nodded slowly, now I'm annoyed.

"Yeah, I'll be right back in the morning." He spoke making me chuckle nodding.

He's not your nigga, He's not your nigga. He's not your nigga.

"So- okay, see you tomorrow." I spoke looking back at my phone not even bothering to say anymore because what?

"What was you bouta say?" I shook my head keeping my focus on my phone, he let out a deep sigh as I slowly got up off of the couch deciding to just call it a night because now, I was about to be in the house by myself while he was gonna probably go out with some bitch.

He walked over trying to grab my arm making me shake my head moving around him.

"I'm good, I got it." I mumbled slowly making my way towards the staircase as Cee followed after me, I huffed silently and rolled my eyes walking up the steps being careful.

"Hold on, what's the problem Jazz? We were just cool." I just ignored him walking down the hall to my room, opening the door walking inside, I sat on my bed putting one of my pillows behind me as Cee just stood there.

"Youn hear me talkin to you? Don't do this shit right now." He ran his hands down his face looking at me making me shake my head.

"Nothing is wrong, I'm just tired. This baby is wearing me out." I quickly made up a lie just to get him to leave me alone because he'll really keep asking until he gets a full answer.

"You su-"

"Go have fun Cedarian." I looked at him smiling a little and reached over grabbing my charger plugging up my phone.

We both just stayed silent, my feelings we're kind of hurt but I didn't say anything. I just grabbed the remote turning on Netflix.

He finally walked over to me leaning down kissing my head before rubbing my stomach, I looked at him as he leaned his forehead on mine looking at me.

"I can stay, if you want me to ma." I shook my head looking back at him.

"No, go have fun. You've been taking care of me for the past 2 days, I'm okay." I nodded and kissed his cheek softly before he pulled away smiling.

"Alright mama, if you need anything call me, I'm right here." I nodded and watched him lean down kissing my stomach before walking out the room. I heard the front door close after a few seconds making me sigh. I wasn't even hungry anymore.

Laying down, getting comfortable, I decided to call it a night trying not to think so much.

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I woke up whining a little feeling discomfort in my lower stomach and opened my eyes slowly, reaching over grabbing my phone tapping the screen seeing that it was 2 in the morning and Cee had called an hour ago. I just sat up and slowly got off of the bed going into the bathroom before I paused feeling something wet gush down my leg making me sigh.

"Fuck." I slowly walked back into the bedroom and grabbed my phone calling my midwife first along with my doctor and then called Cee.

After a few rings, the phone finally picked up, but it wasn't his voice.

"Hello?" It was a female's voice, I just chuckled nodding my head before speaking.

"I need to speak to my child's father, I'm about to give birth." It was silent for a few seconds before she spoke up again.

"Well, he's sleep-" I mugged the phone.

"Bitch-" without saying another word I hung up the phone taking a deep breath trying not to stress or cry.

Pulling up my contraction app, I made sure I had it set up before calling my mom along with Cee's mom letting them know I was in labor.

After I changed out of my wet sweatpants, I just put on a gown of mine that I got for this moment, about 25 minutes later I was now on my 5th contraction and heard the door open downstairs making me freeze up.

"Jazmine? You upstairs honey?!" I let out a sigh of relief hearing my mother's voice.

"I-I'm up here mommy!" I spoke and heard her jogging up the steps. She walked into the room walking over to me kissing my forehead before rubbing my stomach.

"You, okay? Where's Cee?" I just shook my head shrugging.

"Well, from what one of his girlfriend's told me, he's sleep." I rolled my eyes as my mom just sighed.

"Oh dear, now is not the fucking time right now. He needs to get it together." I just shrugged it off and closed my eyes taking deep breaths.

The midwife and my doctor came, along with both of Cee's parents and his sister. I had a lot of support but right now I needed Cee. I didn't wanna do this without him.

"Ouch!" I whined gripping onto the counter as I stood in the kitchen with Bri, Cee's sister who held my other hand coaching my breathing, the contractions we're becoming unbearable, and I knew I was gonna push soon.

"Where she at?" I heard making me open my eyes, it was Cee's voice.

"In here!" Bri spoke as I just closed my eyes leaning against the counter not wanting to even look at him right now because if I did, I would cry.

I heard footsteps and felt him stand behind me.

"How long she been in labor?" He asked as I just ignored him taking deep breaths.

"You would know, if your whores weren't answering your phone Cedarian." Bri spoke before walking out of the kitchen, Cee sighed, and I calmed myself before opening my eyes standing up straight.

"Jaz-" I shook my head turning around.

"P-Please don't say anything to me right now, all you have to do is hold my hand when I push and go back to whoever answered the phone." I mumbled trying to exit the kitchen before he blocked the way making me sigh.

"Move Cedarian." I spoke rolling my eyes putting my hand on my stomach.

"Look it wasn't even like tha-"

"Oh, but it was. I don't play about me and my baby Cee and you fucking know that. We've been having sex for 4 days straight and the first thing you do is go fuck somebody else? I'm really fucking mad because that could put my baby at risk!" I whisper shouted at him as he sighed.

"No ma, I didn't sleep with her I swear, she one of my boys sister and we all crashed at his house on the couches and shit. Her ass was on some weird shit and answered my phone Jazmine I swear mama." I just sighed shaking my head.

"Okay- ouuu." I mumbled closing my eyes tightly leaning on the counter as Cee held me up, pulling me into him.

"It's okay breathe... there you go, keep breathing pretty girl." He whispered in my ear making me take deep breaths as he rubbed my back.

"I-I have to push Cee, now!" I shouted out in pain as the midwife walked into the kitchen with our moms helping me walk.

After a few big pushes and pain, me and Cee's beautiful baby boy Cedarian Lamb Jr. made his arrival.

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I'm running out of ideas, bad.