INNOCENTS, chapter twenty two

❝I'm cutting the string❞

Odette dragged her legs through the forest as she looked for Xavier. Her legs were hurting and her back was in pain not to mention the fact that her brain was screaming at her to turn around and walk back to school and just tell coach she couldn't find Xavier. 

But she was really close and she could har Xaviers music through the broken windows of the shed. 

When she entered she didn't even bother to knock, she just walked in and pressed pause on his phone but it didn't stop the boy from splattering paint against his canvas, he stayed silent and didn't even look up at her. 

"Xavier" she said, crossing her arms over and he didn't reply "Xavier, Weems wants all the kids who don't have family this weekend to go into the English rooms" she explained and still no answer from the boy as he painted "Xavier!" she yelled and the boy didn't even blink an eye. 

"Why are you making this so difficult" she groaned

This seemed to tick something off as he placed his brush down and turned towards her "me, I'm making things difficult" he said accusingly "yeah, you were just painting when I had to tell you something" she said in anger.

"Oh so you're mad that I ignored you when you tried to speak of me, that reminds me of this morning when you did the exact same thing!" he pointed to her "This is completely different your just angry" she yelled back "yeah and I have a reason to be, the girl I kissed last weekend is ignoring me with no reason whatsoever!" he yelled, stepping forward for Odette to step back.

"There is a reason..."

God Odette hated herself for these next words.

"The kiss was a mistake, I'm trying to stop this now, this" she said, pointing between the two of them "wouldn't work, it would never work" she said and Xavier sighed "so the kiss was a mistake huh?, because I asked you and you were okay with it" he pointed out

"It was a mistake Xavier! I only took you to the dance because you caught Wednesday, she then asked me to take you" she lied

Xavier stood back and scoffed "you're lying" he said and Odette shook her head "no I'm not" "yes you are" he scoffed 

"If you at least liked me the slightest bit you would be honest to me!" he said, tears now forming in his eyes, the one thing he always liked about Odette was how she was so honest, but now

Well I guess he wouldn't know. 

"Did you even like me Odette?" he asked "of course I did, I even cried when Wednesday asked you to the Rave'n like an idiot" she said, tears now forming in her eyes 

"Then what are you doing?"

"I'm cutting the string" she said "I'm cutting this invisible string between us that keeps on pulling me and you together, I planned on ignoring you my whole school career and now I can't even go a day without seeing you"

"fine" Xavier said "cut the goddamn string but give me a reason, I know you asked me to the rave'n because you wanted to, nobody made you. So tell me straight to my face why you are going to give up on us!"

Odette looked to the ground in tears, she knew it would be hard but she didn't think it would hurt her this much. 

She took a deep breath before looking up at Xavier, his hair was half up and half down and he tears in his eyes were hanging on. 

"If I stay with you, I will be reminded that I killed innocents everyday, my family was slaughtered because of me and everytime I look at you I see them, I'm sorry I kissed you, I was blinded and I forgot about what happened that night but seeing all these families today reminded me of what I did to them, how I killed them, how I saw their life leave their eyes" 

"Odette those people treated you like-"

"You don't know what it's like to take someones life Xavier!" Odette yelled 

"I saw it Odette, I saw all of it when it happened and I have never thought any less of you!, those people tortured you in a cell for years, those people you are crying about took your life as soon as they put you in that cage, I lived through you at night when I slept, I saved you from them!"

"I never asked you too!" she screamed, her eyes flashing with bolts 

"what so you were perfectly fine with being in that cell, being tormented and experienced on?" he asked stepping forward and watched as Odette didn't answer, she looked down "I killed innocents" she muttered "they were going to kill you" he said to her and grabbed the side of her face lightly and lifted it up. 

"Odette you were the victim" he whispered to her and wiped away her tears with his free hand. 

Odette shook her head out of his hands "Xavier I can't...I can't I-, I can't be with you" she shook her head and hugged herself 

"fine" Xavier said and grabbed his jacket and the canvas he was painting just minutes ago. 

"But never forget what those 'innocents' did to you" 

Xavier put the canvas on the floor in front of her and walked out the shed, slamming the door on his way out, leaving Odette to finally let out  her chokes of sobs.

She looked down at Xaviers painting and her breath hitched, it was her.

She looked younger than she was but she was in the cage, her cage that she was locked in, her hands were cuffed and her wings were out although they were damaged. She looked defeated. Tears ran down her eyes, similar like the ones in the painting. 

She was damaged and Xavier never treated her like that even when he knew. 

He knew. 

HA lol.........i'm not crying 

this scene was actually more brutal then I planned it on being

but only more heart break to come my lovelies 

on my way to make sad edits of Odavier for you guys now (:

Odettes just in denial...she's fine

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if ya'll have read violent delights you know I'm not afraid to kill a bitch

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ok enough ranting bye bye