Standing under the night sky with you, as fireworks painted the dimmed sky. I feel a sense of security with you, a feeling like anything was possible, with you by my side. How long were we going to last? Probably not that long, but until then, I want to spend my remaining hours with you and only you.

"I don't want to hide anything from you. Especially when you've done so much and gone so far just to court me and sacrificed a lot so I'll tell you,"

I was afraid, were you going to leave me? I hope not, please stay. I don't want you to go, as selfish as that sounded.. I don't want you to leave, I've lov-

"I've started to fall in love with you." The lump in my throat went away, the tears that were held in dried up and my worries had faded away. You smiled at me, the side of your face illuminated by the light and your glasses twinkling. Your smile was bright, another one of your features I've learned to love.

It was an intimate time with you. You asked to kiss me, I didn't object and you leaned in, our lips touching as more fireworks lit up in the sky. I was happy, for once. "Promise me.. you'll marry me, okay?" Of course I will, I'll save up my money now. I want to marry you as soon as possible but...

"Yn-sama, are you feeling alright now?" One of the nurses who cared for me asked. "Yeah.." I nodded,

"Also, Kiyoko-sama is in the lobby. Do you want her to come inside?"

I looked at her, my gaze staying on her for a while. I wanted to see Kiyoko, know how she's been, "Sure, but maybe after you leave.." She only nodded, "I'll just check your weight." Helping me stand up, I stepped on the weighing scale.

She smiled at me, "Well atleast we know your condition isn't worsening."

Soon after, she left and I was sitting on the bed. Kiyoko then came in, how long has it been since that promise? And she cut her hair, she's still short though. "Kiyoko.."

"Yn.." She gave me a smile, "How long has it been since you've stayed in the hospital?"

"It's been months since I don't have anyone to take care of me back at home, so I'm here..." She could only nod, the smile on he face dropping as she sat down and clenched her hands. "Kiyoko?"

"Yn.. I'm sorry." What was she sorry for? Does she pity me for my situation? "What are you sorry about?" I chuckled even though I was confused,

"I asked you to keep a promise we made back in highschool and instead of keeping it, I broke it.."

Pain struck my chest, but I ignored it. I didn't want nurses rushing to me right now, we've made too many promises to each other, which one was it? "What do you mean-"

"I.. got married."

It hurt, but with all my courage, I plastered a smile on my face. "Did you forget? I told you, if I couldn't marry you in 4 years, you didn't need to keep that promise anymore.."

Don't say it, "I'm happy for you." No you're not. Stop lying to her, "Thank you.." She finally smiled, see? She's happy without you.

"I also wanted to apologize, we were 16 and I brought you into a relationship because I thought I liked girls, but I'm normal now."

"If you still find yourself liking women because of what I dragged you into, I'm sorry..." She continued, "It's alright, I'm completely.. normal now." Normal? What does she mean? It's completely normal to like women as a woman yourself... right?

We talked to each other for a while, actually no a few couple of hours. It was getting dark, so she had to go, "Ah, before you go.. who did you.. marry?" I bet it was Sugawara, he's really kind, he's a good fit for her.

"Ah, Tanaka... Tanaka Ryuusuke."

Oh, him.. "Like I said, I'm happy for you. Please be careful when you go back!" And with that she left.

I wasn't allowed to have a lot of movement when I was alone, but even so, with all my strength, I got up to the curtains and opened them. I see the same fireworks that painted the night sky that night, with her. It was intimate, I was happy, I loved you.

A dream I had, so far-fetched. Maybe if I didn't make that promise, would it have been different now? Or was it just not possible to marry you? Did you want something else? Someone else, perhaps?

Because, I would do anything and everything to go back, I didn't want to go while I was alone. I didn't want to go, only to see you visit me with him. I didn't want... to die alone. I want to be with you for a little longer, is that too much to ask?

- a/n
yoasobi's 'tracing that dream,' inspired this oneshot btw :} and it was the only song i listened to while writing this LMAOAOAO

from the line of the song: "I'll escape the night, I'll surpass that dream. Towards that future I want to reach." i got the idea of kiyoko asking the reader to promise them to marry her and, "The fireworks bursting in the summer sky that seem to connect the present and future. Together with you, here." was the inspiration for the fireworks stuff lol