❝ he can be a little slow sometimes, but i'm here for it. ❞

"ion wanna go to school today." i yelled to dami from my bed. "too bad!" he laughed as he poked his head in my room.

i sighed and got up from my bed. i did everything i do in the morning and was just waiting in the car for damiir.

i heard my phone ring and saw that it was dd. "good morning david." i said smiling. i looked at his hair and he actually wrapped it up. "good morning." he said with a morning voice.

"yo face mad red." he laughed. "oh." i said looking at him shocked. "are you coming to school or what?" i asked him. "sure." he said walking out of his door and walking to school.

"see youuu." i smiled. i ended the facetime and he immediately called back. "what you mean 'see youuu.'" he scrunched up his face.

"see you at school..?" my smile dropped. "we staying on until i see you." he answered. i smiled again and laughed. "DAMIIR. HURRY. THE. FUCK. UP." i yelled, checking the time.

after a few seconds dami was running out of the house and he got inside the car. he started the car and got out of his parking spot.

"who that on the phone?" dami asked me, looking at my phone. "dd grahh." dd said fake shooting. "aint yall going to school together?" my brother asked. "yeah, we staying on until we physically see each other." i answered.

my brother side eyed me and laughed. my smile faded and i grabbed my bookbag realizing that he was in front the school. "aye i'm here." dd said showing the front of the building.

"what entrance you at?" i asked looking for him at the north entrance. "uhh the one near hallway d." he answered me. "alright, see you damiir." i said dapping him up and hopping out of the car.

i walked inside of the building searching for dd. "COUSIN. slow... down." i heard darrian yell at me. i stopped and turned around. "wassuppp." i said hugging him.

"where you finna go?" he asked me. "probably bout to get breakfast with dd." i said pointing to the hallway dd was in. "yo lemme come." darrian asked me.

"sure." i said confused. i continued walking until someone bumped into me. and it wasnt soft. felt like a fucking boulder struck me.

"damn, watch where the fuck you going." i said with an attitude. i saw dd run towards me because he finally saw me. "bitches cant say excuse me?" she said all up in my face.

i slapped her with my hand and hit her with my bag. she grabbed my hair and threw me on the ground. "hoe!" she yelled at me. "one thing you aint finna do is.." i said getting up and dragging her down with me.

"DAMN." dd said standing there in shock. "aaaaa thats my cousin!!" darrian laughed jumping up and down.

"get off of me!" she yelled kicking her feet. i was on top of her punching her face and scratching. i blacked out and started doing some other reckless shit.

until i drew blood and she was unresponsive. someone snatched me off of her and.. i don't remember all that shit.

✮✮✮

"ms. jimenez. tell me what happened." the principal asked me. she love me type shit. "she was bein crazy disrespectful and i knocked her." i answered blankly.

"mmhm alright. you do know i'ma suspend you right. you lucky i aint expel yo ass yet." the principal laughed. "what strike is this?" i asked. "we not gonna mention that." she widened her eyes.

i saw my brother at the door and the principal let him in. "i hate coming up hereee. ms. teal saw me brooo." damiir said sitting down in the chair next to me.

"i told you if you lose a fight at school i'm revoking all yo shit." my brother said. "the bitch was bleeding and wasnt answering." i said mugging him.

he laughed and looked at the principal. "she getting 2 weeks. she come back the tuesday after next." the principal said. "YOO YOO YOO." dami yelled at her.

"come on you remember me. i literally went here last year.. damiir jimenez." he whispered the last part. i laughed and sat back in my chair. "i'm sorry damiir but she knocked that girl out." the woman explained.

"my sister need her education." he said frustrated. "dami, it's just a few days." i spoke up. "few days, my ass." he looked at me. i sat back and ignored him. "okay next tuesday she can come back." she added.

there was a silence in the room because of dami trying to think. "friday?" he added. "monday?" she stated. "fridayyyy..????" dami said extending the 'y'. "okay i guess." she said typing it in her computer.

"you get in trouble one more time desi you're out of harlem hill." the principal said looking me dead in my eye. i nodded and grabbed my bag. "and that means a full day, friday." she added.

"can i sign out darrian jimenez?" damiir said checking the time on his patek. "sure." she sighed and she filled out the sheets and called him through the speakers.

we waited there until we saw him walk out with a smile on his face. "DESIII." he said hugging me and jumping up and down. "too fucking bigg." i laughed. we all walked out of the school together and got into damiir's car.

my brother never be mad at me about fights unless i lose them bitches. but everyone know i never lose a good fight. "the video all over the school page." darrian said showing me it. "i look so crazy. oh my god." i said shocked.

the girl clearly stopped moving and i was still bashing her head into the floor. "i dont wanna see it no more.." i said pushing the phone away. "I WANNA SEEE." damiir said grabbing darrian's phone. "DAMN. DAMN. DAMNNN." he said after each punch i threw.

"is lil girl okay.." dami said with a shocked look on his face. "harlem hill just getting worse and worse." darrian added. "this yo first year here what you mean, son." i laughed. "ok and." he rolled his eyes at me.

"you being silly." i pushed his head away from me. he side eyed me and played on his phone. i got my phone from my bag and saw a bunch of notifications.

i went on my "💓" focus and texted my gc with dd, ethan, darrian, and sy'rai.

me
i'm sorry guys

rai rai
i'm sorry i wasnt there to beat that bitch ass pookie bear 🙁💔
i'm listening to yebba's heartbreak because i'm so sorry babygirl 🤧🤧

Lil Not Not 💙
i'm sorry for you having to beat that bitch ass. 🤣🤣🤣😢

me
alright now it aint that funny..

david 🗣️

me
why would u send dat
🙁

darrian
tell me why when i showed dami that he was shocked too.

me
oh my fucking god.

you left the group conversation.

i rolled my eyes and got out of the car.
"i'ma never escape that shit." i mumbled. "the girl had to go to the hospital, she had one of them concussions when you get multiple blows to the head." darrian said as he held the door open for me.

i nodded and walked in. i was so pissed off that i slammed my door but i heard something shatter. i opened my door and saw the portrait of my mami shattered on the ground.

darrian ran to me and looked shocked, but also felt bad. my eyes watered and i stared at it.

this was the last physical picture we had of her since she died.

her death was so hard on the family. she was never involved in the gang shit or did anything bad type stuff. she was the most angelic person i ever knew.

some nigga in the opposite gang wasnt fucking with damiir. then when dami fought that nigga, some time later, our mami never came home work.

days passed and we got that call. dami was the one that answered the phone at the time. when he let our pops know he didn't come back home that night.

i turned the tv on, and the news channel was on. i was getting ready to change the channel until i recognized something. i saw my pop's car and his name on the screen. they ruled it as a suicide and never really investigated his case.

i yelled for dami to come so he could see it. and a few days after that, we got another call similar to the one for our mami. we lost both of our parents within the same month.

i was only 13 and dami was 16 at the time. for a year and two months, until dami was 18 darrian's mom had custody over us. she wasnt the best guardian but she made sure we was straight. cause she lost her sister after all.

a month after dami's birthday, he gained custody over me and i've been living with him ever since.

"desi, are you okay?" darrian said hugging me and trying to wipe my tears. "yeah i'm alright. thank you darrian." i said hugging him and burying my face in his hoodie.

he rubbed my back and sighed. i let go and started to clean up the glass from the frame. "what happened..?" damiir said walking into the hallway. "the portrait." i mumbled. i threw away the glass and picked up the torn up pieces of paper.

i put them in a bag and put it in my drawer. damiir went into his room and didnt come out the rest of that night. he always felt responsible for the death of our mami and pops.

nothing could make him feel the opposite. i can understand how he might feel that way but it's just not true.

after i was done cleaning it up, me and darrian went into my room. we was smoking, listening to music, and just vibing. just wanna smoke the pain away, you know?

☆彡

𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐎𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐃.

REVISED.
3 JAN. 2023

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