|NATALIA'S POV|

it was the next morning and last night was rough. me and kai stayed crying all night. but i had went home last night just to give kai some alone time.

I took a shower and changed into some comfortable clothes.

i watched a movie and tried to forget everything that happen. but then..

i get a notification from instagram

"@celiabraud_ posted a new photo"

i clicked it so that it brings me to her post.

when i clicked it, my heart broke.

into a million peices. (basically a post saying it was confirmed, it won't let me make a post.)

i can't do this anymore.

i can't live anymore.

i don't want this anymore.

im not doing this anymore.

i got up and grabbed my blade.

but first i texted everyone.
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i started with kai first.

me: hey kai. i just wanna let you know i love you so much. i wouldn't replace you for anything in this world. but before im gone im gonna give you a talk. move on from her. shes nothing. shes a cheater. DONT go back with her. you'll regret it. anyway. i want you to find the girl of your dreams. i want you to marry her. i want you to have kids with her. live your life. oh and if someone breaks you're heart, do not deal with it like im about to do. youre adorable. don't let anyone tell you otherwise. oh and know that i love so much kaikai <3. OH and grow some more for me little dude :)- xoxo your bean (kai's nickname for nat)
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next is matti.

me: hey matti. i needa tell you something. i love you. i really do. you made me happier. you made me come out my comfort zone. i was this shy girl until i seen you again. you taught me how to be better. you're a cutie btw. hope you find someone who makes you as happy as you made me.. or happier if that's even possible. ill miss you when im gone. love you. -xoxo nat.
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next is alejandro.

me: hey my monkey :). i love you. i wish we could've gotten closer than we are now. just know that i've  always wanted to get closer. like i said to the others. i hope you have a good love life. marry a girl. give her a kid if she wants. make her happy. love you monkey🥺- xoxo lili (his nickname for nat)
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next is Alvaro.

me: hey alvaro. i love you. you were a funny guy. sweet, caring. you know how to make people feel better about themselves. you made me less insecure by just hyping me up every day. i appreciate it. also you're worth it. dont ever do what im doing. ever. oh and if someone hurts you im coming from hell and beating that bitch😳. anyway, hope you have a good life. love you- xoxo nati (alvaro's nickname for nat)
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now roshaun.

me: hey roro. imma miss you. i love you. you were a funny person. you knew how to make my day better. i hope you dont stop throwing it back ;) . you're next girlfriend is lucky. the boys are lucky to have you too. im lucky. come to hell with me in 80 years from now. ill be waiting. have a good life. xoxo- nat.
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now robert.

me: hey robert. i love you. i always will. what you did hurt me. but not important right now. ill miss you when im gone. i hope you find the love of your life. i hope she treats you right. i hope that she makes you happy. that's all i want for you. is to find someone. i hope you dont plan on staying with celia. i dont want you to get hurt. just know i care for you. ill see you in hell mr.- xoxo nat.

UNABLE TO SEND

wow.
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now nia.

me: hey bestie. i love you so much. you were the realest friend ive ever had. i hope you and mar get married. i hope yall have kids cause dam yall would have some nice babies. if you dont, i hope you find someone who makes you happy. dont ever do what im doing rn. i want you to stay on this round peice of shit we call earth. i will beat any bitch that fucks with you when i see them in hell. oh and can you beat that pink haired snake bitch for me? thanks. ill see you in hell in about 30 years. ill miss you. so so much. and dont cry. i dont want you to cry. and tell the boys too. peace. -xoxo your fav bitch.
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lastly..mar

me: hey mari. imma miss you. i enjoyed the moments we've had. thanks for dealing with jacob when we first met. that meant alot. if you and nia get married. please treat her right. she deserves all the happiness in the world. also whatever you do please do not hurt robert. i know you were planning too. see you in hell- xoxo nati girl.
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i feel bad for leaving the people i love.

but this needed to be done.
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NOTESS.

currently crying my eyes out while writing this.

1-3 more chapters and its over... unless?

trying to end the story today... peace 😙✌