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𝙶𝚊𝚖𝚎 𝚕𝚘𝚊𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐...

Explicit Trigger Warning for this Chapter:
Slight Body Shaming

When you woke up again, Nagi was laying right beside you, fast asleep. His breathing was slow but steady, and it took you a moment to remember how you got into this situation.
It was rather dark in your room, however you could clearly see his features. You had absolutely no idea what time it was but you didn't really care either.

Laying there with Nagi made you feel something and for a moment you forgot about everything else of your life.

Suddenly, you heard a familiar noise from downstairs. A key opening the lock of the front door.

Oh no. Why today? Why now?

You knew that right in this moment your mom was entering the house and you also knew that she probably must have texted you a few hours earlier, asking you to prepare a meal for her. Which you didn't. Because you hadn't seen her message since you were asleep in your room with a boy.

You had to wake Nagi up and hide him before she could climb the stairs and yell at you.

„Nagi", you sort of whisper-yelled, feeling alarmed and stressed, which was unusual for you. Nothing in this world could make you feel as uncomfortable as your mom being around.

„Nagi, please, wake up"

A soft grunt escaped his throat, yet he sat up and rubbed his eyes. You sat up as well.

„Nagi, I'm sorry for waking you up like this and I am even more sorry to say this in a hurry but-"

„(Y/N)! Why is there no food?!", a shrill voice sounded from downstairs. She was mad. Just like you had expected. Her voice made you freeze for a second before you looked back up to Nagi, who was giving you a confused expression.

„Hurry!", you whined and jumped out of the bed, trying to not make a sound. You grabbed for Nagi's hand and pulled him to his feet as well, turning around in your room anxiously, trying to find a place to hide.

Shit, there is none! What will I do? No, what will she do? What will happen to Nagi? Will he never want to see me again? Hell, I won't even be allowed to see him again. Maybe she will take my phone or-

A strong hand softly ruffled your hair. You looked up to the white-haired boy, who was surprisingly giving you a small smile. Never before you had seen Seishirou Nagi smile at anyone or about anything but right now - in this crucial moment - he gave you an assuring little smile.

For a moment you forgot about everything else, just took it in. Just took everything about him in. His little smile, the softness inside his eyes, his hand laying on top of your head ruffling your hair.

[𝙻𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚜: ♥ ♥ -𝟷]

Then he spoke up.

„Don't worry, I will leave"

You stood there struck dumb, watching him grabbing his rucksack, pushing the curtain aside, opening the window and looking down. Only then, when you started hearing footsteps walking up the stairs, you caught yourself lagging and took a step towards Nagi.

„What are you doing?"

„Leaving", he simply replied, carefully climbing out of the window. Your anxiety reached the next level and if there hadn't been that much adrenaline inside you, you surely would have broken down.

„Don't!", you grabbed for his hand which made him look into your eyes again. There was a silent, yet explicit message from him, telling you to let him go. You complied.

„What a pain, I didn't even get to ask you yet. Call me later, alright? As soon as you can!"

You nodded and watched him leaving. He was a fast climber. Nagi made it down into your garden in less than 5 seconds and you wondered how but hadn't time to evaluate the matter. As fast as you could, you closed the window again, then the curtain, then silently jumped onto your bed laying down. Your sheets smelled like Nagi and for a moment you lost yourself in the scent. Then, however, you heard footsteps halt right in front of your door.

You acted like you were asleep when she entered. What a childish play, you thought and wondered when you went back to acting like a child again. Had it been when papa left?

Suddenly the door to your room opened and you could sense that your mother was in a bad mood.

Should I have gone for sitting down with my books?

„(Y/N), why aren't you downstairs welcoming your mother? Did you not miss me at all?", she lightened the room and you acted as if you slowly woke up because of it.

When you opened your eyes and forced yourself to finally look up into her face, you realised that it must have been ages since you saw your mother for the last time. She looked way older and way more skinny. Unhealthy. Now you wished you actually had made food for her.

„Mom", your voice filled the room with warmth and worry, being the total opposite to hers. You sat up and wanted to go towards her, when she took a step closer to you.

Oh no, when she comes over here she will smell Nagi's scent, if she didn't already.

So you jumped up and ran towards her, embracing your mom in a tight hug. Your action startled both of you, making you freeze and widen your eyes. Yet, the next second tears filled them and made them ache.

It wasn't like you to be emotional but you figured that you actually must have missed her a little bit. At least, she was your mother in the end. Yes, she was your mom. But, when did you and her hug for the last time?

„I missed you, mama", your voice was drunk with tears.

„I missed you as well, dear", hers was dry of emotion and sprinkled with exhaustion. Yet, you knew she didn't lie. She never lied. She despised it; lying, games, lying by omitting. It was dangerous for you who loved the thrill. But it was fine since she was never there.

„Mom", you took a step back and looked at her. Her gaze was expectant, yet chaotic. She really mustn't have thought that you would hug her. „I'm sorry I didn't make food for you. I was asleep for the last few hours"

„I already realised that", she took a look around. „You can be glad that it's only your room that looks like this and not the whole house"

She gestured towards the tray on your desk and the school books on the floor, her face mirroring disgust.

„I'm sorry", you bowed your head.

„Did you have guests over?", her gaze was fixed on the two mugs and one glass on the tray but you lied casually to her, like you often did.

„Nana was over and Mika. For a round of chess and school studies"

„Tidy your room afterwards, (Y/N)"

„Yes"

„Now come, make me something to eat and tell me about your academics"

„Sure, Mom"

She left your room and you trotted behind her.

Why? Why does she not care? She never asks how I feel, yet I guess I can be glad that she didn't yell at me for sleeping. I hope Nagi is okay! Which time is it now?

It was past 7pm. You and Nagi really must have needed to get some sleep if you had slept for such a long time. While you were preparing some Yakisoba for your mom and yourself, you thought about the words he had told you when he left.

‚What a pain, I didn't even get to ask you yet. Call me later, alright? As soon as you can!'

What was it he wanted to ask you? Was it really about what him and Hyoma had talked about? Did he want to ask you out on a date?

When you and your mom had dinner together she refused to eat much of the Yakisoba and told you to learn to cook properly.

„Yes, Mom"

You didn't want her serving to go to waste so you ate it up. Her immediate reply was hurtful. „Look at you, eating way too much for your own good. Why do you do that to yourself, (Y/N)? Last time I've seen you you were way skinnier. Are you only ever eating unhealthy shit like this?!"

Tears stung in your eyes and you put away the empty boxes, only replying: „I'm sorry, Mom"

At least she was happy with your academic results. She told you that she would only stay a night, before she would leave for another few weeks. You felt bad about your own feelings when it came to your mom, but you really didn't want her to come back again. You made up your mind; you would ask your Nana if you could live with her instead. Because you never wanted to see your mother again.

You didn't call Nagi that night, since it was too dangerous to talk to him, even over the phone, so you left him a message.

You
I will call you tomorrow!

His reply came immediately, as if he had been waiting for you to talk to him.

Nagi
Are you okay?

Your heart nearly combusted reading these words, coming from him. Should you tell him the truth? You dared to. And you dared to take an even greater risk as well.

You
I feel okay when I talk to you.
You remind me of a good friend of mine,
who I am usually playing games with.
Earlier today, when you comforted me
before you went outside the window,
I felt so much more at ease. You make me
feel comfortable and happy, Nagi.
Thank you!

It took him a while to reply to you this time. However when he did, your face grew redder than ever before.

Nagi
I like you, (Y/N). Do you want to go out with me? Tomorrow?

When it took you a moment to reply due to your indescribable happiness, another message came in.

Nagi
I mean this to be a date.

Oh. My. God. Hyoma's plan had worked. Phase 1 - terminated successfully!

You

Yes! Gladly!

Nagi
Can I choose where to take you?

You
Sure, I'm excited for your pick!

Nagi
Alright, good night, (Y/N). Take care!

You
You too, Nagi!

You put your phone to your side for a moment and stared up to the dark ceiling. After a few moments, you pulled yourself out of your thoughts and messaged Hyoma about everything that had happened that day.

Then you went on yours and Mika's chat. It had been terribly and unusually silent these past few days. You wanted him back in your life like he was a few weeks ago.

You
Mika, can we meet on Monday after school?
I miss you.

Mika
I miss you too, troublemaker.
Yeah, let's do it!

You
Can you probably teach me cooking
more healthy?

Mika
Oh, where does the insight come from?

You
My mom.

Those two words were enough for Mika to get the gist of what must have happened.

Mika
Are you alright?

You
She told me I gained weight and
wasn't amused about anything
aside from my grades.

Mika
Hell, don't listen to this devil talking bad
about weight gain! I didn't even realise you
did but whatever, even if, where's the problem?
You'll always look great as long as you
are happy and I will always make sure

you are as long as I'm alive.
So don't you dare listen to this shit and
don't you dare believe anyone who says
having some certain type of body could be
right or wrong!
As long as you are healthy, you're good.

You
Thank you, Mika! I really don't know
where I'd be without you.

Mika
Finally she realises it

You
Pffff waited for this your whole life,
didn't you?

Mika
Nah, now don't exaggerate, dummy!

You
Idiot

Mika
Game-addict

You
Reo-simp

Mika
Psycho-in-love

You
I'm not in love!

Mika
That I said you're in love is worse for
you than me calling you a psycho?

You
I'm self-aware, dumbass!

Mika
Hell, you're not! Admit that you're in
love!

You
I have to go to sleep now, nighty Mika!

Mika
You bitch! <3

You chuckled. Mika surely was your best friend for a reason. You hoped that you were able to pay all this help, kindness, and support back to him. Although you knew that he didn't do it because he wanted to you give it back to him, he did it cause he loved you, as a best friend. And so did you love him. That's why you wanted to make up for your bad behaviour during these past few days.

For a last time that night, you opened another chat, this time on Discord.

You

Hey Choki, are you awake?
We could play now!

Choki56
Sure! Wanna talk about our date first?

You
Date?

Wait...is he really Nagi?

Choki56
How rude! It was you who asked me
to meet this morning, didn't you?

You
Oh, right! So, when will you treat
me for donuts?

Choki56
Whenever you like

You made up your mind to test something.

You
How about tomorrow?

Choki56
I'm busy tomorrow already.

So he could be Nagi...

You
I thought whenever I liked?

Choki56
I won't be free tomorrow.

You
Alright, how about next Friday?

Choki56
Sure thing! Still wanna play tonight?

You
Yes, your game. The...
What was it called?

Choki56
3-questions-game

You
Yes, this!

Choki56
You can start, ask away!

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