hey bubs! if we're being honest i wrote this whole chapter and then decided i didn't like it so i  deleted it all and rewrote it 😁 but i'd rather do that than post a chapter i'm not proud of yk 😙

but anyways, enjoy!!

After Draco and I's long awaited confession, we both decided to go back to the wedding reception not as a couple. It's not as if we weren't excited about what had just occurred, we both just wanted to have a little time to enjoy it for ourselves, free of any judgment from others.

There was a very small chance our close friends would actually judge us after announcing to them we were together, though it did seem nice to have some time to process by ourselves and take everything slow.

Plus the adrenaline of sneaking around together never hurt.

As I lay in bed, my body freshly washed and my pajamas a very comfortable fabric, I can't help but stare at the ceiling. My eyes are fully open, my brain not at all focused on sleep, the corner's of my lips rising at the memory of the last few hours.

I had been considering telling Pansy of what had happened ever since I saw her while walking back into the reception. It was always hard keeping Draco and I a secret from her when we were 'together' last year, but the urge was even harder to fight now. I had just said my first romantic I love you to someone and my best friend didn't even know.

I shift to lay on my side, looking at her as she peacefully sleeps on the bed next to mine. My teeth catch my bottom lip, biting it gently as I think.

After a few moments of thinking, I can no longer control myself. "Pansy," I whisper yell to her, sitting up in my bed.

"What?" She responds groggily, her voice full of annoyance. I don't blame her for being mad at me interrupting her slumber, though I knew it'd be worth it for news like this.

"Can we talk?" I ask quietly, getting up from my own bed to go and sit on hers.

She squints her eyes at me while shifting positions to lay on her back. "In the middle of the fucking night?" She asks grumpily, her words slurred together as she speaks.

A smile forms on my lips as I decide on what to tell her to wake her up. "I told Draco I love him tonight at the wedding reception." I blurt out before fully processing what I'm saying.

Her eyes widen immediately as she chaotically sits up against the headboard. She stares at me with her jaw-dropped, small shocked noises leaving her mouth as she attempts to speak.

"You-" She begins, though pauses for a moment. "You- what?!"

A small laugh leaves me at her shock, my head slowly nodding. "Yeah. It was amazing, honestly. We were dancing together at the wedding and I just got so caught up in my feelings for him that I couldn't help but say it."

She stares in awe for a moment longer, clearly not over her shock.

"Merlin I knew there was something between you two," She laughs in disbelief, her tone full of excitement. "Well how did he respond?!"

I bite my bottom lip to try to control the grin that appears on my face. "Well, firstly he grabbed me and kissed me,"

"Eeeeee!" Pansy squeals excitedly, her hands rising up to rest on her cheeks in a way to show her exhilaration.

My smile somehow grows wider at her reaction.

"And then he told me he loves me too," I explain, my stomach swirling giddily as I recall the moment.

She pouts with admiration, her eyebrows creasing her forehead. "Oh my goodness I could cry right now."

A small laugh leaves me at her emotional response.

"I can't believe you two had your first kiss and your first confession all in one night!"

My smile falls ever so slightly at her assumption and I lick my lips as I prepare to tell her the truth.

"Yeah... about that,"

For the next 30 minutes or so I explain Draco and I's whole story to her. She sits and listens, many gasps leaving her and many shocked expressions given.

It feels nice to finally be able to get all of this off my chest, especially to the person I had been wanting to tell these things to whenever they had happened. If anything, it made everything between Draco and I feel even more real now that a person from the outside knew.

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The next morning I wake up with dry and tired eyes, my body clearly annoyed at me for the lack of sleep. But even with sleepy eyes my brain felt awake the moment I had woken up, the excitement and giddiness from last night still present in my every thought.

Sure it wasn't a great thing to not get much sleep, but it also seemed almost impossible to sleep after an event like that.

I quickly get ready, taking a cold shower to wake my body up before getting dressed and packing up the last few bits I needed to pack.

This morning was the morning that we'd be leaving the mansion and heading back to Hogwarts. I was rather excited, honestly. Though, I knew officially saying goodbye to my mother wouldn't necessarily put me in the best mood.

"Well aren't you giddy this morning," Pansy smirks at me as I rather rush the process of shoving my clothes into my trunk.

"Don't be jealous Pans, I'm sure it'll happen for you too... soon enough," I shrug nonchalantly, teasing her.

"You be careful or else I'll have to pull out Nott's little middle finger trick," She bossily points her pointer finger at me, raising her eyebrows.

A silent laugh leaves me, my head shaking slowly.

Once I finish packing up, I slide my shoes on and gather everything I need before walking downstairs, setting my trunk near the front door.

I quietly walk to the dining room, immediately noticing Theo and Blaise eating their breakfast. Another thing I quickly notice is the absence of the third boy. My eyes quickly wander around the room, making sure I hadn't accidentally missed his appearance

"For Godric's sake Y/n, why are you so loud?" Theo whines, his eyes shutting harshly and his head leans back dramatically.

My eyebrows furrow with confusion as a small snicker leaves the boy next to him.

"I haven't even made a sound you idiot," I respond, taking a seat across from them.

Blaise takes a sip from his mug, the mischievous smile still showing in his eyes.

"What's going on, Zabini?" My brow quirks up, my arms crossing over my chest as I lean back in my chair.

"Well, as we can all assume, Theo decided to get very drunk last night." He begins his explanation and I nod my head along with his words. "The only problem is that he completely forgot to pack our remedy to hangovers so, big boy here," He pauses, giving Theo's shoulder a pat to which the boy returns with a glare. "must now deal with it."

A humorous huff leaves me, my head shaking slowly.

"Did Advil not work?" I question, stirring my tea.

The two of them both stare blankly at me, clearly having no clue what I'm asking.

"It's a muggle medicine, lots of people here take it for hangovers," I explain, taking a sip of my tea.

They both continue to stare blankly.

"Hold on." I say, getting up from my chair and walking into the kitchen.

Advil was highly common in muggle houses, and usually quite easy to find. I begin searching in different cabinets, my eyes scanning for any bottles of medication.

After checking about half of the cabinets, I find some, pouring a few into my hand and putting the bottle back.

I begin walking back to the dining room, my eyes immediately noticing the blond boy now sitting at the table.

My breath hitches at the sight of him, my eyes widening slightly. His gaze finds my presence the moment I walk in, our eyes staying connected.

"Hi," He says quickly.

"Hi." I respond rather quickly as well.

"I didn't get any 'hi''s this morning," Theo states grumpily, his chin resting in his hand.

Draco and I's eyes finally break apart as I begin walking back to my seat.

"How funny of you to say that, I personally got the vibe that you didn't want anyone to say anything to you," I cock my head to the side, now seated.

"That wasn't for everyone, just you," He narrows his eyes sassily at me, his tongue slightly poking out of his lips in a childish manner.

"Do you want the medicine or not?" I narrow my eyes in return.

"Sure, but I doubt it'll do anything." He sighs dramatically, taking the pills from my hand and swallowing them with a glass of water.

I shrug in response, taking a bite out of my toast.

"How'd you sleep, princess?" Blaise asks, referring his question to Draco.

The blond gives a glare to the nickname.

"Not too well, actually. My mind was distracted with other thoughts," He responds, taking a sip from his mug.

I pause my chewing, my eyes flashing over to him. I suppose I wasn't the only one struggling to sleep.

"How strange, you seemed quite energized this morning." Blaise says, a tone of suspicion laced in his voice.

Draco's lips form into a straight line, his shoulders rising as he shrugs.

As I watch him feign nonchalantness, a small smirk forms on my own lips.

Pansy shows up a few minutes later, all of us eating our breakfasts before heading to the front door. Everyone slips into coats before the boys all begin packing the luggage into the back of the car we'd be taking to the train station. I had to give Theo a few pinches for him to finally shut up about how strange yet amazing he thought the car was. The driver was surely a little suspicious at this point.

Once the luggage is all in the car, the group gives small goodbyes to my mother and her husband. After they finish they head out to the car, leaving only me left to say goodbye.

I didn't mean for my goodbye to be awkward and tense, but it seemed impossible to stop it from being so.

My mother and I look at each other for a moment in silence, a sense of sadness filling her eyes. She hugs me gently, to which I hesitantly return, my teeth chewing at my cheek anxiously.

"Goodbye," She whispers shakily. "Live a happy life, Y/n. You deserve it."

I stay silent, no words coming to mind.

She squeezes me slightly tighter before letting go, her eyes glazed over with tears.

I give her a single nod before taking a few steps toward the door.

"Goodbye," I give her one more glance, stepping outside before shutting the door closed.

Closing the door was almost symbolic in a way. At that moment I had not only shut the door physically, but I had also shut the door to my relationship with her.

There was to be no more stressing over her, no more feeling guilty, no more feeling unloved, no more of her.

In a way, I feel more free than I have in years.

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heyyyy;)

just a short little fun chapter idk i enjoyed writing it so i hope you enjoyed reading it!

as always i hope you all have a wonderful rest of your days!! be kind to yourselves! i love youuu sososo much! mwahhhh 😚