Yoohyeon's POV

I was frozen. Minji was frozen too. I couldn't move. But Minji's struggling face, and her hard tries to not look at my naked body and only look at my face brought me back to reality. I grabbed my towel quickly and wore it even faster. My face was so warm, I could feel it almost burning! I was sure I was blushing madly. I left quickly out of her way and went to change into clothes. She went inside the bathroom without saying anything.

I was breathing rapidly at first. The only thing playing in my mind was that moment exactly. Her eyes, her stare, her soft touch, and then, my towel falling. I was feeling so embarrassed. But then... She didn't look at my body, not even once. Not even a quick glance. She had tried to focus on my face and especially eyes even if her curiosity told her otherwise. She respected me after all and that made me fall in love with her even more. Aish! Kim Minji, what were you doing to me?

I texted Dami quickly what had happened. And then I heard it. A loud scream in Dami's voice and then one in Handong's from the room above us.

- Wait, What? What? Yoohyeon are you for real?

She answered me.

- Of course I am! I am so embarrassed Dami ah! I don't know what to do! How to face her after this!

- Don't worry. I don't think Minji will mention it. She knows you well enough. And she knows you are feeling embarrassed too. So she will not mentioned it.

- Are you sure?

- Yes

- Ok

It was late at night. I tried to sleep. But my mind was playing that scene over and over again. And sooner or later Minji went out of the bathroom. She was changing and I was looking at the other way pretending that I was asleep. Something was making me want to turn the other way and she her naked body though. My curiosity. But I wouldn't let it win over me. It wasn't the right thing. I respected her, for goodness sake!

She then lied down to our bed. And that was the moment where I felt really really uncomfortable. She didn't hug me like she always did. She just lied down at her spot and tried to sleep. Some minutes passed by and nothing was heard. I thought she was already asleep till...

"Yoohyeon ah... Are you asleep?" A soft voice asked me.

"...no."

"C-can I hug you to sleep? I know you must be feeling uncomfortable with the double sized bed and the fact with the towel earlier. And I will understand if you don't want to. I mean, it's under-"

"Yes unnie. Please!" I said cutting her rumbling off. I knew she was rumbling whenever she was nervous. She smiled and hugged me. I could feel her smile on my shoulder. She had her head on my shoulder and her hands on my waist. I put mine on top of hers.

"Why do you have insomnia this time?" She asked me some minutes later when she saw I wasn't asleep yet.

"I don't know."

"It's ok if you don't want to tell me."

"I guess I'm just still nervous from earlier. From all day." I said. A part of it was true. Well the other part of the truth was that I was nervous for my mom. And I was also feeling on edge being this close to Minji after what happened earlier.

"It's ok. Just relax. Do you want to turn the other way and look at me? You always fell asleep sooner sleeping like that." She said. She was right. I would never get asleep looking at her face. If I could. It always made me want to stay awake and look at her all night. But I always felt so beautiful in her arms looking at her. So peaceful. So it made me fall asleep soon. Also, her beating heart made me fall asleep too.

I turned to look at her even if I was still feeling nervous. I took some deep breaths and said,

"I'm actually..." I scratched the back of my neck and continued talking.

"I'm feeling weird with the towel thing earlier." I said not looking at her. She put her hand on my left cheek and made me look at her.

"Don't avoid me please." She said. She knew. She knew me too well.

"Don't feel weird. I mean... It's not easy. It's not easy for me to pretend like nothing happened. But we can try. I already forgot it. I'm trying at least. So you should try it too. Don't think about it. It didn't happen anything anyway. It was an accident. One of many that my clumsy puppy makes!" She said smiling to me and then pinched my nose. I smiled back. I nodded my head showing her that I'll try to forget it and came closer to her hugging her more. I rested my head on her chest and she rested her head on my head. I was listening to her steady heart beat and soon I fell asleep in her arms.

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The next morning, I woke up smelling something really yummy. I stretched my arm on the other side of the bed and I felt it empty. I immediately stood up opening my eyes wide. Where was Minji? I looked around the room quickly. She was nowhere to be found. Then I ran to the kitchen. And I found her there humming a song and dancing a bit while cooking. She was so beautiful and happy. I stood there looking at her for a bit till I couldn't take it anymore and went to hug her tightly from behind. She was shocked but then she turned around and hugged me back.

"Good morning my puppy! What happened? Clingy from this early in the morning already?" She teased.

"I woke up alone, Minji! I thought something bad happened to you!" I said a bit worried. She laughed.

"What could have happened? I'm here, at Bora's mansion, with all my friends. What could have happened?"

"I don't know! Don't you ever do that again!" I said and hugged her tighter. And then I understood what I was doing. We weren't even in a relationship! Why was I so worried and even told her that?! What was wrong with me? I knew I loved her but I thought... I still couldn't believe it actually nor accept it either, yet...

"Ok my puppy. I won't. You'll wake up and I'll be next to you. You'll never be alone again." She said smiling warmly at me caressing my back trying to calm me down.

"Come on. Sit down now. The food will be ready in a while."

"I want to help you with the food." I said. She smiled and nodded. And we started cooking together. She sat behind me and put her hands on my hands showing me how to cook a new food that I didn't know how to. I felt so warm in her arms. The moment was amazing. Everything was perfect.

"Good morning everyone! I smell food!" Bora said and then she saw us and froze at her place.

"Awwww guys! Are you already together? My JiYoo heartu!!!"

"What? No! Bora no!" Minji said and went to stand beside me.

"I was showing her how to cook this food."

"Yeah yeah sureee. I'll pretend like I don't know~ Don't worry! Your secret is safe with me!" she said laughing.

"You were lucky it was me and not Gahyeon or Yeri. They are too young to see these things! I'm kidding of course!!!" She said laughing again. And soon everyone gathered in the kitchen. I went to sit down too leaving Minji to finish the food along with Bora.

They sat with us. Then the food was ready and we started eating.

"So, Christmas are in two days from now. We need to buy stuff for tomorrow and for Christmas too. We need to separate to pairs so it would be easier. One pair will go for food shopping. Another will go for decoration shopping and presents. Another will clean the ground floor and the other will clean the first floor. And then we gather all together to decorate and cook. Or in pairs again decorate and cook. Something like that. We'll see it later. So, who's going for food shopping? I'll go cause I know how to cook and I would want Minji to come with me cause she knows how to cook too. How does it sound to you Minji?" Bora said. Minji nodded and looked at me a little bit disappointed. I smiled at her.

"We will go for decoration shopping and presents!" Dami and Handong said together.

"We will clean the first floor then." Yeri and Gahyeon said. So that left me and Siyeon to clean the ground floor.

"Ok, and you two the ground floor. So it's settled then!" Bora said. When we finished eating and washed the dishes too Bora came to me.

"Can we talk for a second?" I nodded.

"Follow me." She said and took my hand. We went upstairs to her room and we sat on her bed.

"I wanted to tell you, that I have forgiven you Yoohyeon. You were drunk. It took me some time but I forgave you. It's just... I was afraid to tell you. I wasn't sure of myself to be exact."

"It's ok unnie. No need to apologize for not coming to me earlier. Some people take a long time to forgive others." I said and patted her head. She then came close to me and hugged me tightly.

"Yoohyeon ah... I'm sorry. For being too harsh to you. You are like a little sister to me. And it hurt me so much. I'm so happy that you and Siyeon are fine now."

"Yeah. I'm happy too." I said.

"Oh Bora. There you are." Siyeon said getting in the room. I couldn't read her face. And I couldn't understand what she was thinking either. Behind her was Minji.

"What happened?" Bora asked.

"Nothing. I just came to see where were you. And Minji needed to see if you are ready. We don't have time to lose." She simply said. Bora nodded and said she was ready. She kissed Siyeon, took Minji's hand and left. Soon we were left with Gahyeon and Yeri only.

We went downstairs and started cleaning. Siyeon wasn't talking at all. And I couldn't understand what was on her mind. She took some breaths and stop mopping the floor. She was looking straight at me waiting for me to stop what I was doing too.

Well, the house was pretty much cleaned so we didn't have that much work to do. Bora had maids to clean it everyday. She just gave them a few days off so we could be alone. So the house was clean. She just was a maniac with cleaning. And she also wanted everything to be perfect. It wasn't a big deal to us so we agreed.

"Yoohyeon..." I waited patiently.

"I just... I saw you. With Bora. And..."

"You got jealous?" I asked a bit confused. She nodded. I looked at her shocked. I just hoped she got jealous because I was hugging her girlfriend and not because Bora was hugging me.

"I am always getting a bit jealous when she touches others. She does that a lot. And especially to her friends. So this is silly. But I still get a little jealous. I keep it to myself most of times and try to get over it on my own. Anyway. I didn't want to talk about this. I wanted to say that... I want to tell her. The truth. About that night. I feel terrible to let her living in her lie for that long. Or even forever!"

"Siyeon... Please don't do it. You will hurt her. She won't just break up with you. She will be really mad and heartbroken. Do you really love her or not?"

"I do."

"Then why do you want to hurt her?"

"Truth hurts Yoohyeon. I love her so that's why I don't want her to live in a lie. I'll tell her. Tonight." She said determined.

"No don't! Please! Wait at least for these vacations to be over! Let her be happy. She organized all this. Don't hurt her now! For goodness sake! Just wait till Christmas are over, till we get back, till New year is over and then... We'll see..." I said. I was determined to make her change her mind later. There won't be later for her. She won't tell Bora the truth. I don't want them to break up.

"No. Not till New year. I don't want her to be broken in New year. I'll tell her a day or two before."

"Oh come on! It doesn't matter! You'll hurt her anyway! Please! Just, don't tell her! Or at least wait a little more." I begged her. She smiled sadly at me and nodded. She was going to wait. But she wasn't going to wait forever. She was going to tell her. She was going to break her heart. And I was feeling more than guilty and responsible about it...

After a long time later, we had finished cleaning and decorating. We were decorating all together. All except from Minji and Bora who were cooking, and sometimes Handong too, cause she was going over to the kitchen to help them with the food. It was afternoon now. Bora suggested us to hang out all together at Warsaw. And we all agreed.

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Bora's limo left us at the city and we started walking at the streets. We soon got separated from one another into pairs or should I say couples (?). Me and Minji were walking at a quiet street. Well, it wasn't that quiet. But at least there weren't any cars there. It had lot of people walking and talking happily. It also had a lot of street food shops. Me and Minji were walking hand in hand and we were stopping every now and then to eat something new at those mini street shops. We just loved food. Especially Minji. I didn't love eating that much before I got to meet her and know her better. After knowing her more, I couldn't stop observing her when she was eating. She just loved food a lot. And she made me in some weird way to like food too.

It was almost night time. We gathered with the rest of the girls at the centre of the city and went to a big amusement park. I was so excited. I wasn't expecting myself to be this expressive, to be this open about my feelings especially in front of others that weren't Dami, Handong or Gahyeon. But I couldn't care less now. I was excited and extremely happy. We were running from game to game and by the end of the walk we had played everything and eaten everything. Minji had won a big teddy bear at one of those games and she had given it to me. I was smiling and hugging her for the rest of the night. This was really sweet honestly.

Our last spot was the big roller coaster. It wasn't always running fastly. So when at some point, it started going slowly and it went up, on the top of its ride, Minji held my hand tighter and showed me the sky and the stars.

"Unnie... I wanted to share something that I had thought, but..."

"What is it Yoo? Come on! Don't be shy! Your unnie won't make fun of you!" She said and held my hands.

"Ok, so, I had spent a lot of times looking at the sky from the small balcony of my apartment. Sometimes I couldn't bear the loneliness. And... now that I have you guys, that I have you unnie... I thought... Had you ever felt lonely?" I asked her then, still afraid to share my thoughts with her. She nodded her head.

"It's easy to feel like that. When your parents give you Everything. Then yes...it's easy to feel that... something is missing from your life." She said looking at the sky. I turned to look back at it too, now feeling more encouraged to tell her. We stayed a bit quiet and then I said,

"Someday, if you feel lonely, just keep your head up to the sky and don't forget that we are together, under the same sky." I felt extremely shy saying this. But I was really thinking about it a lot lately. Whenever I felt lonely at least, I was looking at the sky and she was the first thing I could think of. I just hoped that she could ever feel the same.

When I turned to look at her she was already looking at me. Deep in my eyes. I had never seen her looking at me this way. It was kinda... it felt... I felt butterflies in my stomach actually. As much weird as it sounds, I felt something like that.

"Yoohyeon ah, have you ever fall in love?" She asked me suddenly.

"I think so..." I said trying to not confess yet. I wasn't ready. I needed more time. I started panicking inside my head. What was I going to do!?

"You unnie?" I said quickly before she'll ask me anything further, like who I was in love with.

"Yeah."

"With whom if I may ask?" I tried to ask her gently. I didn't want to push her too much. If she didn't want to tell me I was going to respect that.

"With a friend of mine." She said.

"Have you told them?"

"Not yet. But I will." She said smiling, looking straight to my eyes. I felt so hurt and sad suddenly. She was going to confess. And I was sure I wasn't the one she was in love with. I was so sure for some reason. And she wouldn't be free anymore. I was late. I was always late. What were you thinking you stupid thing?! That she could be yours?! That's ridiculous!!! Damn you Kim Yoohyeon!

"Do I know him?" I asked not knowing why I kept this conversation going on.

"Yes, you know her." So it was her? And she was telling me that just like that? I mean... Oh I don't know anymore! Everyone in my group of friends were gay and they were in a relationship with each other. Yet... I was still questioning my sexuality and felt weird about the gay thing. Not for my friends. I felt weird for myself. I felt weird being someone like that. I didn't know why. But it felt... weird. Not bad but... weird. I hadn't thought that I could like someone from the same sex. But... I guess I already did right? I liked Minji. But... was it just her or I liked girls in general? This was so confusing! I never had time to think of something like that cause my life was always miserable and full of trouble! How could I know!?

"Ok. Then, I hope everything will go fine and that you'll end up being happy. I hope she will treat you like a princess. Cause you deserve that unnie." I said holding both of her arms looking straight in her eyes. I wanted her to know that she deserved the best. She deserved the whole world and even more of that. I wanted her to be happy. Even if being happy wasn't with me. I would still be happy with her happiness.

I smiled at her holding my tears in... Loving can hurt, sometimes...

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Author's note:
That was a really big one! You see what I did there? With the sky thing that Yoohyeon said? She said it at the concert guys! I'm still not over it! She is the sweetest person aliveeeeee!!! So, as you can see, I had to add this in my book, hehe. Also, Siyeon is determined to tell Bora the truth huh? This shit is getting more interesting~

Anyway! Remember that English is not my first language so there might be mistakes. I hope you all liked it! Don't forget to like the chapter, and comment, if you want. It helps me A Lot. Bye! See you on Friday! Dream of Dreamcatcher!