Chan had opened his eyes to meet up with his bedroom ceiling... He sat up having a little headache last night.

He stayed up all night making new lyrics of their new song him and the band are going to perform this winter.

He lazily wore his school uniforms without the formal vest as he hung his name tag on his white shirt while his midnight pants had chains dangling from his waist.

He yawned while walking to the kitchen where he found his sister on her phone while his mom was making pancakes.

He sat on the opposite side of his sister when his mom put the plate of pancakes in front of him, he picked up the fork and started eating it with silence until his sister broke it.

“have you stopped your habit of sleeping around girls?”

He got irritated since this topic never dies among the family and he always finds excuses to avoid answering that.

Chan:“thanks for the food mom, I'm off to school”

He ate 2 out 4 pancakes that were given to him and rushed to escape this conversation since he doesn't want his family to interfere with his private life.

They let him pursue his dream of being a musician but they kept asking him about his nature of being a f**kboy since his sister caught him fooling around with female students she used to know back in middle school.

“you're avoiding answering me again... I'm just looking after you big brother”

He knows, he knows very well that his family was only looking after him but he's ashamed of himself that he had a dirty habit while he came from a noble family.

Chan(💭)«it hard looking at her right in the eyes»

He took his helmet and wore it, then started driving his motorcycle towards his school and when he arrived, he spotted Jisung with his bicycle.

He approaches him and both greets each other and something else Chan had noticed is that Jisung sounds silent than he used to be.

Usually he would smile widely upon seeing him then cross their arms again and start talking non stop about things that had been going on with him, just sharing his life with him.

But he doesn't do that anymore and he really knows why.

Chan:“I...uhm...i wrote the lyrics to our live show this February”

Jisung looked at him with a small grin nodding his head understanding, then look away while they walk together through the hallway.

Jisung:“I'll go to my class now...see you later, hyung”

He waved before going the opposite direction of the older who kept looking at him from behind and wondered if he was the reason why Jisung isn't behaving like he used to be.

Well of course it was his fault, HE BROKE HIS HEART.

Chan(💭):«I'm such a horrible person»

He shook his head blaming himself again for being such a horrible friend from others and walked towards his class where he took his table and slept the whole first period.

When lunch break came around, Chan found himself with the snacks he bought from the vending machine and ate them alone in the club room.

He felt himself getting distant with his band mates, and he doesn't want to spend time with other friends since they don't make him feel overwhelmed like Changbin and Jisung do.

and it seems out of the blue but he misses spending his time with Minho too.

He was just lonely and a coward to even go look for his friends and join them for lunch after he witnessed Jisung's status this morning.

more reasons to hate himse—

Jeongin:“Channie-hyung?”

His fuzzy black scribbles mind was cleared just when his eyes came in sight of the younger.

Always with his full uniform fit, wearing another converse since Jeongin is apparently obsessed with them.

And something Chan had noticed was the cute lemon hair clip above his ear.

Why does Jeongin have a big effect on him?

Chan:“ohh Jeongin...you're here”

He said while biting into his stuffed cake for Jeongin to start walking towards him and sat beside him in another chair.

Jeongin:“something is wrong with you,  isn't it?”

With a worried tone, Jeongin succeed in making Chan's attention fully on him since the boy was able to notice him being a little down.

But he hates to admit it to the younger, he doesn't want to trouble him with his problems.

Chan:“why would you think that?”

He tried shading those feelings with a fake smile but Jeongin knew very well that he wasn't being genuine with him which caused h to feel a little bit sad that he isn't allowed to comfort him.

Jeongin:“I don't know...maybe because you don't usually call me by my name and your tone is a little bit lower than it usually is”

The moment he stepped into the club room and found his hyung alone here not playing guitar or making lyrics, it made him a little bit worried that he was going through something.

Chan genuinely smiled for the first time since yesterday and he put his hand on top of Jeongin's hair and started caressing it with a soft slow pace.

Chan:“you know me very well by now, babydoll”

He can't know what spell Jeongin cast on him to feel all happy again, maybe his soft tone, or comfort aura, or maybe because it Jeongin.

The lead guitarist doesn't really know how he ended up being trapped by him.

Jeongin:“then what's wrong? I wanna comfort hyung until he's okay”

He bravely put his arms on Chan's other free hand and squeezed it wanting the older to share what had been going inside him.

But Chan wasn't ready to open up yet, not when he is dealing with those sudden fuzzy yet warm feelings in his chest.

Chan:“nothing to be worried about...just me fighting against myself”

He pushed Jeongin hair behind his ear where he held him softly by his jaw then looked at the lemon hair clip -jeongin was wearing- up close and admire every little detail the younger held in his face.

He was just mesmerized.

Jeongin:“you don't want me to help you?”

With puppy eyes and a pout, Jeongin was able to make Chan have the same unexplained reactions again and he can't stop his emotions from spreading more.

Jeongin's existence was surely doing something to him and he's aware of it but wasn't against it since it is overwhelming and comforting to him.

Chan:“your existence is all what I need to stay still”

Chan surely can say that Jeongin was different... Different than any other person had come to his life.

Jeongin was precious to him and he can't afford losing this little boy any time soon.