"tch, that dress is not your color." i managed to giggle out under tears to lighten the mood a bit.

"y/n." she called out, pulling the blanket off her legs, trying to get up.

i quickly run towards her, wiping a tear that was on my cheek and gently pushed her back into the bed, pulling the cover over her legs.

"no no, don't get out of bed."

"but i'm fine-" "i said no."

after fixing the blanket, i looked up to meet those eyes once again. surprisingly, she didn't look like she was in pain at all. she actually looked.. happy.

a small smile was formed on each of our lips as we stared into each other's eyes, enjoying each other's company.

"don't ever fucking scare me like that again." i mumbled a bit jokingly, the tears rushing back to my eyes.

at this point all those eager nerves were finally relaxing, the endless shaking due to stress was coming to an end.

the injured girl weakly placed her hand on my face, wiping the extra tears. her touch was cold, but gentle.

my breath hitched at the sudden actions, but i wasn't complaining.

i couldn't help but melt into her hand, grabbing my own and placing it on top of hers. "i'm ok." she whispered, trying to hold back sobs of her own.

i started to tenderly rub small circles on her hand with my thumb while discretely scanning her face.

she looked tired, thick eye bags of her own forming. her skin looked a bit pale and she seemed weak, but then again she lost quite a bit of blood that day.

soon after, she looked as if everything clicked in her brain. her eyes widened and she removed her hand from my face and placed it on the blanket rather harshly, trying to get up again.

"eren. i need to see eren!"

as she sat up on the bed, she put her hand on her forehead, groaning in pain- probably from a head rush.

"mikasa, i promise you eren is fine. i would never lie about that. he's resting as well in a separate room, ok?"

as i reassured the worried girl, i placed my hands on her shoulders, trying to keep her on the mattress.

"mikasa look at me."

her eyes darted everywhere but my direction, trying to find a way out of my hold.

"mikasa."

she didn't listen. she soon started hyperventilating, grabbing my wrists trying to pry me off.

i instead got closer to her, not taking my vision off those eyes, though she still wouldn't look back.

"let.. go." she mumbled.

"mikasa, eren is doing better than you. captain levi told me that he was conscious and breathing on his own. he needs to rest for now, as do you."

after saying that, mikasa slowly took her hands off my wrists, bringing them back down to her thighs in fists.

finally, she made eye-contact with me. they seemed different.. not like before. now all she had her mind was erens health, his safety.

i knew how much she cared for eren, it was fairly obvious to everyone. this must have been hard on her. to be in battle with the one she grew up with, and both of them coming back with fatal
injuries.

"why don't you tell me what happened- how all of this even started." i suggested, calmly placing her back onto the bed, fluffing the pillows out and placing her comfortably back into the covers.

thankfully, she didn't struggle out of my hold this time.

i made a spot of my own and sat near her feet, giving the girl my full attention.

a shaky breath escaped her lips as she looked down, fiddling with her fingers.

i sighed and placed a hand on her covered ankle, giving her a comforting rub. "do you remember.. what happened?"

"tch." is all i heard as mikasa turned her head, covering her face with her hands.

i gave her a confused face, tilting my head to the side a bit.

𝗺𝗶𝗸𝗮𝘀𝗮 𝗽𝗼𝘃

'jeez, how can someone be so caring and.. cute' i think to myself, covering my face, trying to hide the mini blush that appeared.

i've been thinking about my feelings towards y/n for a while now. i don't quite know how i feel about her yet, but i know this isn't what 'friends' should feel for each other.

that day during training when i pinned her to the ground like that.. i didn't intend for that to actually happen. she thought she 'won' and i wanted to prove that she didn't.

turns out i lost either way, cause now i'm just confused. with my feelings, that is.

i get y/n was just trying to help, but i have to see eren for myself, to make sure he's doing ok. after all, i don't really trust captain levi..

i grabbed the red scarf that was folded neatly on the mini counter next to me and gripped it tightly, nuzzling my face in it- another way to hide my heated face.

i couldn't worry about feelings, i didn't want to worry about my feelings, but it's about time i stop pushing them off to the side i guess..

completely ignoring y/n's question, i simply reveal my face to her, a rather calm atmosphere unfolding.

"check on eren for me."

she gave me that weird,  confused face again, but soon nodded her head as if she understood my request.

"promise me you'll stay in bed and rest?" she demanded more than asked.

i heavily sighed and rolled my eyes. "fine."

"ok, i'll check up on him when we're finished. now tell me what happened."

i lightly held my shoulder a bit in pain, but complied with y/n and explained everything.

i explained how it started, how it all happened. surprisingly, in excruciating detail.

i never showed this much emotion to anyone, not even eren.

it's just; the way y/n makes me feel so much more alive, emotional.

it's quite relieving, like i can finally laugh without feeling this baring weight on my shoulders that's holding me back from doing so.