BEA

It has been two months since that incident in the bar happened. We have never really talked about it. We are getting good at avoiding things lately.

Two things are clear to me though.

1. We are not a couple.
2. I messed up bigtime.

Now that I have that out in the open and I was able to admit that to everyone including our friends I want to get her back but she has been so busy lately and she has been avoiding my calls and not responding to my text.

The whole thing backfired. Ang lakas pa ng loob ko na sabihin tanongin siya kung ano kami pero ako naman pala tong palpak at the end.

I have been basically a stalker in the last 2 months. I wake up extra early to see that she is at practice and that she safely comes home after. She already recovered from her acl and is slowly regaining her form just in time for the psl.

I only get to see her during her dinners with dad and her time with Ben. Since Ben insisted that Jho visit him once a week. I tried to talk to them about it but Ben wont budge and Jho said it was okay. Nahihiya din naman ako kay Jho. Wala naman siyang responsibilidad sa anak ko pero ginagawa pa rin niya.

Again I messed up. And what turned out to be a simple misunderstanding turned into a big mess because I didnt have the guts to lower my pride and listen.

Over the last two months she has also been busy with endorsement shoots and promotions. Some with Nico and some she did herself. But in those shoots she did with Nico, she always made it a point na trabaho lang talaga. She was interviewed a lot of times and was asked if they were together. She denied it saying na friends lang talaga sila. They asked if he was courting her but she just smiled.
Nico did the same when asked that question.

Basically, the last two months were hell for me since social media blew up with Jho and Nico's videos during shoots and shows.

I, on the otherhand, had no balls to stand up for her. Kinakamusta ko naman siya but those were awkward texts that end up in one-liners and short text conversations that end in Goodnights after 2 or 3 exchanges.

I really felt bad for what I did so I went to Batangas to talk to Jho's parents and Jaja as well. I already got an earful from dad about what happened and every time he sees me sulking he constantly reminds me saying "Kung magmumokmok ka lang diyan Beatriz maagaw ng iba si Jhoana, pagnawalan ng nanay ang apo ko patay ka sakin." He would be all serious about it and then he would laugh really hard when he sees my reaction.

When I arrived at Jho's house that afternoon halos hindi nila ako papasokin. I apologize for a whole two hours and actually begged them to allow me to court Jhoana again. Halos umiyak na ako para lang payagan nila ako. In the end, pumayag sila with a condition na if umiyak at masaktan ulit si Jhoana, wala na akong babalikan.

I went home very happy that night. It was a Friday and I would get to see Jhoana since she will be having dinner at the house to see dad and Ben.

When I got home Jho was already there with Ben. It was obvious na she came from training kasi naka oversized shirt lang siya at shorts.

"Hi Mommy! Mama came early today. We have been playing and tomorrow she promised to swim with me in the pool outside."

I just smiled at them. Nilakasan ko na ang loob ko at Nilapitan si Jho para magbeso.

"Hi Jho!" I was about to beso when she turned her head, for a split second our lips touched before she moved her head so I can kiss her cheek.

Good thing Ben did not see it. Ayoko namang umasa siya ng hindi pa kami ayos ni Jhoana.

"Sorry" I whisper low enough for her to here. She just smiled at me and continued playing with Ben.

Umakyat muna ako para magshower ng mabilis and change into comfy clothes. Since Jho promised Ben with a swimming sesh, I assumed dito siya matutulog. Sisimulan ko na ang pagsuyo sa kanya.

I ate dinner in silence while stealing glances at Jho. She was very attentive of Ben. At ito namang anak ko parang tukong nakadikit kay Jhoana every time nandito siya sa bahay. Minsan nahuhuli ako ni Jho na nakatingin lang sa kanya. I would just smile and continue eating. The rest of the night was spent watching a movie in my room.

Ben insisted na manuod kaming tatlo ng Lion King. It was one of his favorite movies. He even had a seating arrangement bago kami manuod. I was supposed to be seated at the couch but he insisted on it.

Jho and I were seated next to each other on the bed and Ben was seated in between us. Nice one anak! Sabi ko sa isip ko.

We watched the movie in silence while munching on popcorn and some other snacks. Halfway through the movie Ben fell asleep kaya inayos ko siya nang higa.

I also noticed that Jho was asleep as well. Napagod siguro sa training. Pinahiga ko sila ng maayos. Ben ended up hugging Jho and as if it was reflex Jho hugged him back.

I tucked them in. Hinalikan ko si Ben sa forehead. I look at Jhoana to admire her features.

Kumunot naman noo. She looked so peaceful while sleeping but you can see the bags under her eyes. Nakakatulog ba ng maayos to?

Umupo ako sa tabi niya. Careful not to wake her up. I caress her face at dahan dahan kong hinawi ang buhok na nakatabon sa mukha niya.

I kissed her forehead and her cheek lightly para di siya magising.

"I miss you love." Bulong ko sa natutulog na Jhoana. I knew she couldnt hear me at alam ko din na tulog na tulog na talaga siya.

"I am sorry I messed up. Babawi ako. Im sorry for hurting you." I took her hand and kissed.

I cried a little while looking at here, ang lapit lapit lang namin pero hindi kami nag uusap. Ni hindi ko siya mahawakan. I wanted to feel her presence. I wanted to feel what it is like to be next to her. So I did the boldest move that I could do at the moment.

I slowly laid down beside her. I wanted to be next to her again and hug her. So I did. I hugged her and inhaled her scent. It was a good thing that we were sort of spooning coz if she were facing me, I probably would not be able to help myself and kiss her.

This feels so good. I cried in silence again as I remember the pain I must have caused her in the last few months. I prayed hard and begged God to please give me and Jho another chance.

Alam kong magagalit si Jho sakin sa ginawa ko tonight. Coz for the past few months, a sleepover was a rare occurrence and if it did happen, she usually ends up sleeping in the guest room. But I dont care anymore, I will deal with the consequences in the morning.

JHO

I think I have had the best sleep in the last two months. Buti nalang hapon pa yung training namin.

I admit I have not been sleeping very well this past two months. Ganito siguro yung feeling ni Bea dati when I had been out with Rex all the time.

I moved to hug the pillow on my side.

Wait

Kinapa ko nasa tabi ko.

Napadilat ako nang gumalaw din yun akala kong unan.

Babangon na sana ako nang nagsalita ito.

"Love.. lets sleep in.. hapon pa practice niyo.."

Wala sa isip na sabi ni Beatriz na halatang antok na antok pa. Hinatak niya ako papalapit sa kanya at hinalikan pa ako sa noo.

I think she realized what she did dahil naramdaman kong parang nanigas yung katawan niya.

Bumangon ako at umayos ng upo.

Awkward...

Bumangon na din si Beatriz at sumandal sa headboard.

Bumuntong hininga ito.

"Sorry about that Jho. Siguro nasanay na yung utak at katawan ko. It defaults into what we used to be." Nahihiyang sabi niya.

"Okay lang." sagot ko naman.

Pagkatapos noon wala nang nagsalita. Pareho kaming nagpapakiramdaman.

"Bea I think we need to talk."  Seryoso kung sabi.

Nakita kong parang nag-iba ang itsura niya. Halata sa mukha niyang worried siya sa sasabihin ko.

"If this is about what happened in the bar I am really sorry Jho. I drank too much and went overboard. Please don't leave me."

She hugged me and this time umiiyak na siya. At paulit ulit na nagsabi ng please.

"Bea bitawan mo muna ako." Sabi ko at bahagya siyang tinulak.

Umiiyak parin siya at halata sa itsura niya na nag aalala talaga siya.

"Bea, Im..." Simula ko but she interrupted me again.

"If you are gonna say you're with Nico now then you better break up with him coz we are still married and I aint signing divorce papers this time. You are stuck with me Jhoana."

"If I have to make up for what I did everyday I would do it just please dont leave. I love you so much. Please choose me this time."

At tuloyan nang humikbi si Beatriz.

I hugged her really tight to calm her down pero umiyak lang siya nang umiyak.

Iningat ko ang ulo niya so she can see my face na umiiyak narin. Nasasaktan kasi ako dahil nasasaktan ko padin siya kahit wala akong ginagawa.

"Beatriz, please lessen to me. I love you okay. It has always been you. Walang iba. Walang Nico or Rex o kahit na sino pa."

I wiped her tears and kissed her as gently as I could making her feel that what I said is true. Making her feel my true feelings for her. Hindi ko na kasi alam kung paano ko siya patitigilin eh.

We were both out of breath when the kiss ended.
"I love you Beatriz. Ikaw lang."  pinunasan ko ang mga luha niya at hinaplos ang kanyang mukha.

"Mahal na mahal kita Jhoana. Thank you for giving me this chance." She hugged me again.

This time I can feel na tumigil na siya sa pag iyak.

"But wait, how did you know that we are still married?" Tanong ko sa kanya.

"Well after I found out that you and Rex did not push through I was kinda suspicious. Coz once a divorce is finalized both parties will receive a letter about it. I didnt receive mine in the US so I assumed it was delivered here so I asked dad if he received it. Wala din so yon. I did some digging and found out the truth."

"You really think I would sleep with you if we werent still married right? Alam mo naman ang stand ko jan. So when I found out. I lost all inhibitions and went for it. " dagdag pa niya while smiling at me.

"Wow ha kung makangiti ka jan." Asar kong sabi.

"I really thought I was going to use that card on you in case you leave me for one of those girls at the bar."  I continued.

"Di kaya. Ikaw lang ang mahal ko Jhoana." Sabi niya at akmang hahalik ulit sakin pero iniharang ko ang kamay ko sa mukha niya.

"Ah kaya pala enjoy na enjoy ka sa mga kahalikan mo sa bar. Tang ina mo Beatriz pag naulit pa yun wala ka nang babalikan. Pati si Ben dadalhin ko. Kaya ayosin mo yang pag walwal mo. Iinom inom di naman pala kaya." Singhal ko sa kanya.

"Jhoana naman.. akala ko ba bati na tayo.. bat nagagalit ka na naman.." malambing na sabi niya.

"Oo bati na tayo Beatriz pero please lang kung may problema tayo pwede pag usapan muna natin? Wag yung nag aassume ka. I wont lie to you, sobrang nasaktan ako sa mga nakita ko sa bar kasi andon ako nung nangyari yun. At nakita ko lahat pero instead na magalit initindi kita kasi baka yun yung paraan mo para mabawasan ang sakit. Pero tandaan mo to, pag naulit yun hindi mo na talaga ako makikita."

She hugged and kissed me.

"Im sorry. Im really really sorry."

Naawa naman ako sa mukha niya and I know sincere siya sa mga sinabi niya.

"Mahal na mahal kita Beatriz. I want to make you feel how much I miss you and how much I love you."

I slowly moved her and kissed her slowly and passionately as if one wrong move ay mababasag siya.

Sinuklian naman niya ang mga halik ko with equal passion. Dalang dala na kami sa mga emotion namin. Our clothes are already gone as we continue to express for each other.

Her kisses moved from my lips to my neck. Ang mga halik niya ay nagdulot ng ibat ibang sensasyon sa buong katawan ko.

It took all I had to even speak.

"B-Bea..l-love.. I think... we should stop.."

She stopped what she was doing at kunot noo akong tiningnan.

"Are you kidding me?" Inis niyang tanong sa akin.

"Eh baka kasi marinig tayo nila dad. Nakakahiya."

Nagsmirk siya bago magsalita.

"Yan lang ba. I already told Dad that we need the house to ourselves today so all the maids are on their day off and Dad took Ben to Batangas to meet his Grandparents."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko.

"You did what? Bea nam—?"

Hindi ko na natuloy ang sasabihin ko dahil sinunggaban na niya ang mga labi ko. Gusto ko sanang magprotesta pero nalunod na ako sa mga halik niya.

All the doubts and fears that I have been keeping flew out the window when Bea told me she loves me. I am certain in love with her and I would do everything to keep her.

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Yan na guys. Nagkabalikan na sila.

Dont expect any SPG scenes from me. Hindi ako marunong magsulat ng ganyan. Use your imagination nalang guys.

This story is almost done. Less than 5 chaps nalang siguro to.

Thank you for reading guys!