We stayed at the beach for a few days for the beach episode and went home after that. They gave us a rest day tomorrow but we'll continue shooting the next day for the camp episode. Beck will be there too so we'll see each other soon. How i wish i can see her sooner. I was going to take a shower but i suddenly hear my phone having a notification so i checked what came and it turned out it was bec's message.

Geez this girl sulks so fast. Laughed it off but it's actually kind of cute.

I took my towel and went in my bathroom. I picked some lavender bath bombs for today and placed it in my bath tub. What Nam said before struck to me again, i don't even know if i really like girls but the idea of it have came to before. I dated some of my guy friends before but no one made me feel something before, even when i kissed them i felt nothing and it feels like i'm kissing a mannequin, i feel more giddy when i kiss my dogs. 

I laughed when i thought that i just compared guys to dogs. 

Girls can be quiet confusing, being clingy or sweet to my girl friends is quiet normal for me, so i don't know if i should give meaning to bec's actions. I haven't really met any of her friends except for our mutuals like nam so i don't really know how she usually interacts with her friends.

I stayed for a few minutes and decided to end my bath when i noticed my fingers turned soggy. I put my towel around my hair and wore some pajamas and took my phone.

When i saw her message i immediately called her, i prolonged my bath too long i let her wait for a long time. I pressed the call button and after just 2 rings she answered it.

"p'freen!"  I saw her smiling from ear to ear

"how's your shoot?"

"It was very tiring specially when we shot during the day, it was so hot we need to reapply our make up because we were sweating like crazy"

"Then good thing that i wasn't there, I would've hugged you all the time even if it's hot and you'll sweat more"

"Oh no, i'm going to smear all of my sweat to you till you can't take it" she laughed

"Eww you're so dirty p'freen" she' saying that but she's still giggling. My telephone rang so i told her to wait for a sec so i can answer the call

"Good morning ma'am your food deliver is here downstairs in the lobby, i'll just leave it here and you can go pick it up" It's the staff of the condo, i didn't order any food so i'm confused why is there a delivery.

"hey bec i'll just go grab something downstairs in the lobby, i will be back in a minute" i left my phone on my phone holder beside my bed and went downstairs. There's a table here in the lobby where they leave your food deliveries and you can grab it there once you arrive.

I saw a plastic with my name on it and took it, there's a note inside so i grabbed it and turns out it was bec who delivered the food. "Good work p'freen, eat plenty and have plenty of rest after"

I ran back to my room and saw that bec's also eating salmon in the video call.

"Let's eat together phi!" She said while already eating some

"You didn't need to do that but thank you bec" i smiled as i took out the container from the plastic and broke the chopsticks into half

"But i want to, plus i really wanted to have dinner with you but i can't drive a car to get there so i just sent you some"

"Thank you again" I smiled, geez this girl really loves paying for other people. "Now tell me how's your day?"

We talked like for hours after that, whenever we talk, topic just naturally comes and there is no any awkward moment. Sometimes we call each other even if never talked about something, just appreciating each other's existence in the call and we do our own thing like studying or she's taking care of bonbon.

While in a call i actually fell asleep until she called my name continuously

"phi! p'freen!" that woke me up and realized i'm in my bed laying with my phone still in my hand in front of me

"Go sleep na ka and drop the call so you can charge the phone"

"un bec" i'm still half asleep, i want to reply properly and bid a good night properly but i don't even know if i said it properly

"geez phi" she laughs and i just heard the sound of someone a screenshot and it brought me back because i realized she just took a picture of me

"oi beck! delete that" that made me wake up again

"but you look so cute half asleep, you were so weird in your position. You're not even using the pillow and used your arm as one but still has the perfect frame for the vidcall" she laughs not apologetic of what she did

"okay okay i'm gonna go, i already feel the tireness of my body"

"okay phi sleep well! bonbon says good night too!" she showed bonbon who is also beside her. i can see bonbon smiling at the camera with a lil cute dress

"awww good night to you too bonbon mumu!"

"aw! you kiss bonbon but not me" you can see the camera came back to her face and she's pouting, i laughed at her antics

"good night bec, i'll see you real soon" I jokingly kissed the camera and ended the call.

I woke up quiet late the next day. When i checked my phone i saw messages from orn and bec

I don't have anything to do today since it's our rest day, might as well have lunch with orn. I replied to orn's message to have lunch first before. She agreed so i'll just take a shower and prepare. I took out some clothes from my walk-in closet and picked some comfortable clothes. Knowing orn she'll just drag me everywhere, it's so tiring when you're with that girl. I also replied to bec before i stepped in the shower.

Showered for about 15 mins and applied some light make up, wore a black top with black pants, went for a simple look today. I went to the entrance of the condo and took my white shoes and wore it. I got in my car and settled in and started the car, i took out my phone first while i let the engine sit around for a few minutes and replied to bec

So she actually knows her, Orn is actually great friend of mine and we usually hang out randomly, sometimes with heng too.

I mean you can call it a lunch date i guess, a date with your friend. 

I put the gear into reverse and went to the mall to meet orn at the restaurant. I saw her already in the table and when she realized that i arrived she stood up and we gave each other a brief hug.

"i missed you freen! you're with heng all the time so i'm kind of jealous with him" She sat back on her seat and handed me the menu

"It's not like i want to be with him always, i'm fed with his long face already" i sat in front of her and checked the menu, i'm not in the mood for a heavy meal so i just decided on  pancakes

"Pancakes at lunch?"

"i just woke up so it's my brunch" she laughed and raised her hand to call the waiter

"you're really weird" she smiled and she gave our orders when the waiter arrived.

"how are you lately? your face is everywhere so i assumed you're kind of busy" i asked her

"Oh believe me i am, i'm actually going to shop some clothes for our new MV that we're gonna shoot this week" she said 

"Oh! let me coordinate your clothes!" i said excitedly, i really love everything that comes with art. Photography, paintings, fashion, cute girls

wait what

i mean yeah, cute girls are somewhat a piece of art of their own

"That's why i invited you, i know how much you love these things"

"Is there a pay for this"

"Milktea"

"aww you're low balling me, is that what i'm worth to you?" I jokingly pouted

"do you want me to give my card to you?"

"how digits is the limit?"

"6 digits"

"deal" We laughed at the same time. This is how we usually joke around, she's a year older than me but it feels like we're just the same age and she hates when i call her with phi

After our lunch we went to look for her clothes. I handed her some clothes and she went to the dressing room to try the clothes i gave her and i went around the store to casually look around the store.

I saw a cardigan that i think would look good on bec, i went to check the size and it's a small so i think this would fit her perfectly. I went ahead and checked out at the register. Orn also got out of the dressing room with the clothes she tried on. She posed in front of me when she got out.

"damn girl you're so gorgeous!"

"aww thanks babe, i'll get this ma'am" She also checked out and after we went to shop some more, we went to a cafe and she treated me some milktea, we sat down beside each other at the corner of the cafe and talked some more. Then a thought suddenly struck to me

"You dated a member before right?" She scoffed while she's drinking her drink almost spilling some of it

"Where did that come from?" she wiped a tissue on her mouth

"How do you know if someone's just naturally clingy to you because you know how girls are or if that clinginess has a meaning?"

"Well normally you wouldn't put meaning into girls' action because it's quiet normal for us to have skinship with each other, i guess it has a meaning when you became so conscious of it."

"Why? Someone in mind?"

"Well i'm not conscious of it but everyone called me out for it which made me start thinking about it, plus i don't even know if i'll like a girl"

She laughed loudly with matching hands on her stomach

"why?" i'm genuinely confused on why she started laughing

"Freen oh my god" she continued on laughing and repeatedly taps my shoulder, did i say something funny

"First of all freen, You love rosie from blackpink which screams 120% gay, you even answered in an interview before that what if you don't like guys. you even call kissing a guy feels like kissing mannequin" She tried to calm her laugh off "oh that was hilarious"

"i thought you realized you're gay but turns out you're not" she continued

"i haven't dated any girls, how would i know"

"Then will you go out with me?"