"Beach House"

Part II

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Javier

It was no secret that I had an obsession with substance, the word addiction sounds too mundane to describe my relationship with drugs. I could go a day without a bottle of liquor, maybe two without pills. . .but when it came to weed? I had no self-control.

The ecstasy of being high is like no other.

Nothing else compares.

It instills a calm within the raging storm within me. Something that nothing or anyone else is capable of.

Contrary to belief: do drugs.

We only live once, I'm a strong believer in trying everything while you're still young.

Dat nuh mean yuh fi fuck batty n' dem ting deh. . .doh twist mi words

Just be prepared for the outcome because at the end of the day all actions have their consequences. Whether it happens immediately or in the long run.

We are all bound to die someday, if drugs bring me an early demise, so be it.

The day slowly settles in as the sun peeks up from the horizon. Just as she had went the evening before, she rises painting the sky with beautiful hues.

The scent of the salty waters fill the atmosphere and I send a silent prayer to whoever created it all. I wasn't a religious person per say but I believed that there is someone or something to thank for it all.

A familar scent of perfume fills my senses and I immediately knew who it is.

She cya hide

"Cya frighten mi." I muttered, releasing a breath of smoke through my nostrills. I throw my head back onto the back of the chair looking up at her in silent admiration.

Kalíanna stares down at me. The glow of the morning reflects in her hazel eyes, the green fleks were brighter than that of the browns but they were still very prominent. I watch as she slowly purses her lips, something she often did whenever she was trying to conceal a smile.

Her lips were swollen and plumper than usual, a small tell that she had just woken up.

"Yuh never sleep?" She asked, her voice was soft. A subtle whisper in the air, adding to the serenity of my morning. I fold my bottom lip between my teeth.

It was extremely early. I wouldn't call myself an insomniac, I did sleep. However, not for extensive periods of time. I got four hours of sleep on average, five if I'm lucky.

I avoid the question, countering it with one of my own.

"Why you up suh early?" She didn't go to sleep early last night. She insisted on staying up with me, despite the fact that mi did know seh sleep a kill har. It was amusing to watch, nonetheless. I let out small laugh as I replay the memory in my mind. She eventually gave in around 3 am.

She relays a slight shrug in response.

"Yuh eat from morning, yuh wake up a smoke?" She scolds, attempting to take the blunt from between my fingers.

"Doh fuck wid mi spliff." I move my hand out of her reach. She moves from her place behind me to stand facing me. "Kali." I say, in a serious tone when she doesn't stop. Any peace of mind I had before is gone. I grab her hand and she trys to pry it from my hold. "Buil' nuh." I remark, when she delivers a hit with her free hand.

I let out a sigh.

"Eh soon done, mi nah smoke no more." I lie.

I pull her down onto my lap. "Yuh done?" I ask, finally letting go of her hand. She raises her hand to hit me and I give her a harsh look. She folds her arms beheath her breasts in defeat. Oh. I lift my hips forward getting comfortable in the chair.

"Pass mi lighter." She reaches for my lighter that had the words Mary Jane printed on it. She flicks it twice using the flame to ignite the spliff that sat between my lips. "Thanks."

"Can get this?" She asks.

I take a pull before removing the spliff from my mouth.

She doesn't smoke, suh mi nuh know wah she a do wid mi lighter.

"Yeah." I respond.

Less chattin'

If I said no, she would only pest me until my answer was what she wanted to hear.

I sit there awhile longer finishing my spliff, when I look down Kalíanna is fast asleep on my chest.

• • •

The sound of chatter fills the space of the living room. Not only have the others arrived but they decided that we should have a small get together. Though, the word small, must have been misinterpreted when I agreed to it.

I should have known better.

Apperantly, my idea of small and theirs were two completely different things

The music was at an ear piercing volume.

Girls walked about in bikinis that left little to the imagination. Others danced and some were outside on the sand.

I observe the group of girls in the far corner snapping pictures.

Rihanna, Kalíanna, Arielle and Renée

If dem nuh tek atleast one picture fi the day, dem nuh feel good.

The cup in my hand feels too light for my liking. Grabbing the bottle of Crown Royal before me, I pour more than a decent amount into my cup.

Next to the Crown Royal sat a bottle of Wrey and Nephew, so I added a little of that to the mix.

I have never mixed this specific combination before, but mi willing fi fuck around and find out.

I take a sip and the burning sensation calms my nerves almost immediately.

I lean back into the couch enjoying my drink as I observe some girls who were dancing. I was ok with just chilling in a corner by myself. Call me lame but this is my idea of enjoying a party.

I'm approached by a girl in a neon pink swimsuit, I don't know her—nor do I know half the people here. But she has been eyeing me the entire night. Being the person I was, I entertained it. I held her gaze each time hers caught my own.

"A you name, Javi?" She asked, with hesitance in her tone. Mi nuh really do eh shy ting.

"Yeah, a wah?" I actually take the time to look over at her.

She is positioned with her back on the arm of the couch and her legs were ajar.

"Nothing, just seen you around. . .I was just curious." I nod my head. "Curiosity killed the cat." I say, with all seriousness.

A brush of her feet cause my gaze to drift from the scene in front of me back to her.

Her hand traces the bottom of her bikini and I watch as she slips it to the side before inserting a single finger into her vagina.

Ah bwoy

I take up my cup from the table in front of me.

Walking away without another word.

Disgusted wasn't the word I was looking for.

Kalíanna

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The girls and I have always known how to have a good time. Tonight was no exception. It was all laughter from the minute they arrived until now. We all stood in the kicthen participating in a drinking game.

"Have you?" Renée inquires. Rihanna shakes her head with a deep dimpled smile. That was her tell.

"Drink." We all yelled in unison.

Rihanna tilts her head back and I take the bottle of liquor that was the closest to where I sat on the counter.

I poured some liquor into her mouth.

"Swallow, Swallow, Swallow." We all chanted, repeatedly. Rihanna visibly cringes as she swallows the entire mouthful in one go.

I let out a laugh of excitement enjoying the adrenaline of the moment.

"Never have I ever, stalked a significant other's page." Rihanna says.

"Every gyal inna dis fi tek a drink." She yelled, doing the honors of taking up the bottle.

Our game was interrupted by Javier and Dandre entering the kicthen.

"Wah yuh fah?" Arielle questions as Dandre corners her, he plants a kiss on her lips.

"No bada show off, mi will flop yuh show, yer'." Dandre laughs before stepping away.

We all laugh at his statement.

"Wah uno in yah a do?" Javier questions, looking between the four of us.

"If mi tell yuh Dandre might kill we, suh mi nah go bada." Rihhanna says, in a suggestive tone, with a tight lipped smile on her face.

"Shhh—" I said, bringing my finger to her lips to add to our dramatic display.

Renée acts as if her clothes is out of place and begins fixing her skirt.

Arielle is the next to speak, "Eh hickey a show?"

"Did know seh uno a battygyal from long time, a nuh secret." He grabs an unopened bottle of liquor before leaving just as they had come.

We let out a laugh when they exit the kitchen.

"We fi stop run serious joke." Renée laughed.

My night has been one filled with laughter. A much needed distraction. There was a feeling of pure elation that comes from surrounding yourself with your best of friends.

I stand alone on the beach.

I wasn't in a bad mood or anything, I just wanted to admire the water that was illuminated by the moonlight.

There was something so eerily beautiful about a full moon.

The breeze travels off the waters gently as the waves went in and out rhythmically. I would say it was all therapeutic but even that doesn't do much justice to describe the atmosphere around me.

A pair of arms encompasses my waist.
The strong scent of male cologne surrounds me.

"Let mi go." I spoke in a low tone. I throw my head back onto his chest to look up at him. His eyes are trained on the waters before us.

"Wah yuh go do bout' eh?"

I ignore his question.

"Afta yuh rub up pon' yuh gyal dem yuh come a hug mi up." I cringed at the image the words painted in my mind.

He hisses his teeth.

"Shut up, man." He retorts.

The sound of yelling sounds behind us and peeking around him, I see the girls running past us and into the water.

I have never been to the beach at night time.

I try shrugging off Javier's hold but he holds onto me tighter.

"Suh quick yuh gone lef mi as yuh see them." His breath tickles my ear and I let out a laugh.

"Yeah, mi frighten fi mi gyal dem real bad." I let out small scream when his teeth nip at my earlobe. "A joke, mi soon come back." I laugh.

He releases me from his hold.

"Good?" He asks.

"Good." I say, with a small smile.

He gives me a small nod before walking away.