Ena's POV:

Yesterday kept replaying in my mind. Mizuki's bright smile was all I could think about. What was happening to me? Was I falling in love with Mizuki? No, I couldn't be.

The way her eyes brightened when I gave them that penny plush; she is so cute! I audible groan as I sat back in my chair, I completely forgot I was supposed to be drawing the next cover for our newest song. I hadn't even been able to think of anything. Well... I can think, but when I do, it always ends up being something that correlated to Mizuki.

"Ah! What is wrong with me!?" I complained as I rested my head on my desk. My thoughts were all about Mizuki. But I don't believe I'm crushing on them. I made someone happy for once. Maybe that's why I keep thinking about her.

My heart pounded as I received a message notification; it was Mizuki, of course. She wants to arrange another meet-up... with me! I don't think I've ever been so excited to hang out with someone. As much as Yuki and K are nice, they aren't Mizuki.

If I told myself that I was becoming close friends with Amia, when I first met Amia online, I wouldn't have believed it. I was so jealous of her back then because of their talent, and now, we're meeting up. I'm never normally up for lunch, even during the weekend, but I ensured I was up so me and Mizuki could hang out. Having a chance to see that beautiful smile again; how could anyone pass that up.

Walking into the shopping centre, I saw the baby pink ponytail right away. She was early. Worried that I made her wait too long, I quickly walked over.

"Hey, Mizuki!" I said with a small smile, causing her to look up from their phone. She instantly smiled at me and hugged me. It was a friendly gesture. She was a hugger, but my heart was beating extremely fast.

"Ena! I'm so happy to see you!" Mizuki beamed, her smile brightening as they finally released me from their grasp. I could see a faint shade of pink on her cheeks, but I decided to look past it. She must've rushed to get out of the house as their iconic red bow in her hair was barely holding up her ponytail.

As if it were on instinct, I reached up and grabbed the bow. I quickly fixed it for them since I think they didn't notice it was barely holding on, or they did and just bothered not to fix it. When my arms fell to my sides, I could see Mizuki's face, which was bright red. God, they're so cute I could kiss them! Wait! What was I thinking!? She's not like that! We're just friends.

Instead of speaking, we both began walking to find somewhere to eat. These thoughts were getting out of hand, literally because I was thinking and wanting to hold her hand. I wasn't really paying much mind to the happenings around us due to being lost in the web of thoughts in my mind.

Mizuki's POV:

Ena was spaced out, which didn't actually surprise me. She always had a talent to get lost in that creative head of hers. Even when trying to speak to her, she never replies. It was cute. She was cute. The one thing that still lingered in my mind was when she ignored me for a long time. I really wanted to know why, but I didn't want to ruin the moment.

Even the day I had planned on talking about it, I never got to because well we got distracted by the rides. Something tells me that Ena isn't a very open person, especially about her feelings. I wanted to try something, something out of my comfort zone. My hand inched closer to Ena's, my pinky interlocking with hers.

She flinched at the sudden touch, not from fear but from being dragged out of the never-ending abyss of thoughts. She quickly retracted her hand into her pocket, a faint blush on her cheeks. Though I was a little sad I couldn't hold her pinky anymore, it was worth seeing her flustered. The more I'm with Ena, the more I fall for her. I'm so down bad. It's killing me. Even though we weren't speaking much, it wasn't awkward. It was rather relaxing. Just being able to be near Ena felt great.

Something else I couldn't get out of my brain was what my older sister, Yuuki, said. "Be careful; she might hurt you."

Ena's POV:

It had been a while since Mizuki and I hung out. I kept turning her down because, well, I don't know why. I began ignoring their texts again, ignoring her calls and comments. Was I still jealous of her? As much as I was growing to like her, for some reason, I was beginning to resent her more. She was literally perfect in every way, and I was a mess. They were good at everything they did, and I hated her for it. The worst bit was that they always put others first.

I was going through cycles of liking her and resenting them. I've become even more pathetic than before. Even if I had a crush on them, it would make my dad hate me. He's very, homophobic I guess. Even when I came out to him, he went into denial. So I stopped talking about my emotions and my feelings.

It's their fault for falling for me if she does actually have a crush on me. I can't date someone I'm literally jealous of. It would be a toxic relationship. Ugh! Why must I be like this?

Mizuki's POV:

She went back to her old ways again. She was ignoring me, and this time, she was only ignoring me. In our group chat, she would respond Yuki and K perfectly fine, but she ignores me. Every time my heart ached, like a tiny piece was being ripped out. I wish she would just reject me, just rip my heart instead of letting me suffer slowly.

She was giving me crumbs of the person I wanted, and I was sucking it up desperately. My sister had warned me, and stupid me didn't heed that warning. Instead, I kept chasing. I decided to dive head first into the abyss people call love. I feel pathetic, I am chasing a thought that will never become a reality. I feel worthless. People had always said I let others' actions get to me, and I know they're right. Is it bad to say that I wanted to be selfish for once? I want Ena, but she doesn't want me.

Mafuyu's POV:

I was doing some homework when I got a message from Amia. She wanted to call privately. I already knew this was about Enanan since I could tell she was ignoring Amia. I hopped into the call as I wanted to let Amia talk and have someone to listen to, but I could hear Amia sniffling. Were they crying?

"Hey, Amia. What's wrong?" I ask cautiously, I didn't want to make her more upset. Though, like everyone else who gets asked this question, she started crying more.

"Enanan is ignoring me again! We were getting so close, too!" Amia cried out. I felt so bad for her. They must be feeling like shit right now. The last thing I wanted was for my friends to be fighting.

I let Amia stay on call with me while I tried to sort Enanan out. I mean, you have to be a heartless monster to behave like this. Enanan has ignored us all before, but it seems to mainly be directed at Amia. It must be breaking Amia's heart for their crush to be acting like this towards them, even when they were getting along. It feels like Enanan is leading them on, but I don't think Enanan knows about Amia's feelings.

Yes, I'm only an outsider looking in, but it's common sense not to treat your friends like dirt. I get Enanan has her own issues, but it's not like she's ignoring all of us. She's only ignoring Amia, so there's no excuse.

It's weird having to get involved like this,  but if I don't, I feel like they won't be friends anymore, and I'd feel guilty. I could hear Amia calming down; their breathing became steady, and I could tell they were relieved that here even if we weren't talking. All my messages to Enanan were being ignored. She was leaving me on read. Was it because it was about Amia? If she wasn't talling me, then she wasn't going to tell anyone.

"Anything?" Amia asked in a defeated tone. She could probably tell what my answer was going to be.

"She's avoiding everything to do with you. Are you sure you two didn't have a fight?" I responded, I know Amia didn't like confrontation but maybe they had a disagreement or a heated discussion.

"Nothing of the sort! When we last met up everything went well!" Amia exclaimed. I really wanted to get to the bottom of this but I knew Amia was probably gonna have to do this alone. And I think they knew that.

Ena's POV:

Being bombarded with messages all day was annoying. Don't people have any respect for the fact that I have night classes? What's even worse was Yuki was now getting involved. As much as Yuki is nice, I don't need to explain myself to her. She should stop wasting her time. I did actually read the messages,the last one just shattered my heart and angered me at the same time. "You're heartless! Amia has tried to get you to open up, yet you hurt her, break them down until they were in tears! You are pathetic!"
Before I knew it, my phone hit the wall and made a loud BANG sound as it fell to the floor. She's not wrong, I am pathetic but how dare she say that when she's interjecting herself into this. These idiots were who I saw as friends. You know what, I don't need them and I definitely don't need Mizuki!

Mizuki's POV:

It's been about a week since I heard from Ena. I feel like I shouldn't trust her or care for her. Though she doesn't talk about her feelings, she definitely let's them make her choices.

"You should try and move on. She clearly doesn't care about you." Yuuki stated. It was cold but more importantly, it was the truth. I need the truth. Chasing Ena was only going to lead to more heartbreak and tears, I can't live like this.

"I swear everyone I meet hates me." I sighed, causing my sister to shake her head in disagreement. There must be something about me that Ena doesn't like about me that makes her ignore me... right?

"That's not true. Stop thinking about that girl!" My sister sighed on defeat. She knew crushes were hard to get over and knew that it was going to difficult for me. It sounds selfish and childish when I say that I want Ena to be ,you girlfriend especially since she clearly doesn't like me back.

The last thing I wanted was to force Ena to like me when she wanted nothing to do with me. It was a painful cycle that I kept putting myself through. I want to know why she's ignoring me but at the same time, it's better if I just leave her alone. I can't keep going on like this; my sister is right, I need to move on. I honestly want to know if Ena even cares about what she's doing but I don't think she does.

What's more annoying is the feelings. I feel dependant on the little interactions we have and when I get ignored, I feel worthless. I just feel like I'm only there for when Ena cares and then I'm tossed away like rubbish. I don't want to feel like that. Taking steps to get over her was difficult. I unfollowed her socials and blocked her number. Since we're in a group chat, that'll be the only time we interact and even then I won't reply to her anymore.

Ena's POV:

They went on a massive blocking spree. We're no longer friends on any socials, I can't even message her privately. God this was pathetic.

She's acting like a child because I don't want to speak to them. I'm glad I don't have to get hundreds of notifications from them now. I've never met someone so stupidly needy before and quite frankly, I'm glad I don't have to speak to her.

Though something hurt. My heart felt like it was aching. But why? I don't like Mizuki. Maybe if I say that to their face then it won't hurt. What a waste of brain space!

Hey guys I'm back!!!! I've had this written for months I just needed to find motivation to type it up. Its quite angsty than my usual stuff but if you guys like it let me know! Also me and my friend have a shared tik tok account if you wanna follow it. Its called; wonderlandsat2500! Anyway cya guys soon.