She felt all those pain stinking her heart,her mind. She felt her body being weak,when her heart felt pain. Was she overthinking? Obviously no. She felt as if they will also go away from her,like always. She needs to talk,but to whom? Neil? Will he listen? Will he be able to understand her sorrows or will he misunderstand her? Her mind filled with millions of questions. She have never opened up herself to anyone,she was fighting,all her life. She needed someone by her,who could carry her away from all the pain. Her Neela ma gave her him,a someone who could carry her from all the pain. But now she thinks,he could never carry her from the pain. Her pain is getting vulnerable. She felt she was responsible for all these. From the time,she was with him,he needed needed to fight.once with his mom,with his life,now fighting between his past and present. Was she responsible for this? She felt she is. Because she considers herself as a bad omen. She was asking to herself,Why can't she again become that Ananya who could hide her emotions and feelings? Why? She knows why,Because it's his love which made her come back. The string of his love entwined with hers pulling her back. She feels the same pain in her heart now,The same pain which once Dayawanti caused. The same pain she went through when that bulled peirced through her skin. Helplessness. She hates it. She hates to feel herself or anyone she loves seeing helpless. The pain I'm going through now,is it because of Neil? She asked,then slapped herself for thinking that. You're the bad omen Avni,it's not his fault. It's your fate. She reminded herself.

She is fierce by her brain,but sensitive by her heart. Sometimes giving your shoulder to someone would help them,give them relief. But in her case,she is alone. She once felt,being alone feels a thousand times better and worst,but now she feels worst. She feels  she don't deserve him,this family. Just look at that little 5 year old girl,who don't even know what's the meaning of love of mother and father. She will get a motherly love from Juhi,but what about Father? Does mishti needs Neil? Obviously, Was she(Avni) being selfish? But what will she do? She cant live without him. She felt happy around him. She went through the worst more than mishti,Doesn't she deserve happiness? Doesn't she deserve Neil? Or like her mind said,Was she being selfish? Was she doing injustice to that child? They seemed to be a happy family,whenever she saw Neil,Juhi and Mishti together. Unknowingly she craved for her father. A family. Despite having a family,which she always craved for around her,why do she feels pain? Or was she just born to conceive all these pain? Or did the God also hates her?

She wants to talk to him. But he is so stressed with the recent happenings. She can never give him more stress. She thought about him,that child. But what about herself? She chuckled thinking,she could never think about herself,because she sacrifice her life for those,she loves. She hates being alone. She never felt all those,which she felt with Neil. But that was also temporary,she know he is stressed and maybe that's what behind the reason why he ignores her unintentionally. Her heart said,but she wasn't satisfied.

**

Life played the worst game with me. My brain isn't working. I couldn't find a solution to this. Why? I hurted her alot,i know. Still she never complains. But her eyes says it all. I needs to talk to her,but I'm getting busy, sometimes with Mishti or sometimes with cases. I couldn't help but feel helpless about my fate. That day,I wont forget it ever. I waited for that day for 1 year and finally when it came everything destroyed. She proposed me,But I gave her rejection,pain. Those eyes reflected emptiness. I gets scared to see her blank face. Her eyes getting moisten because of me. Everyday I gave her pain, but she removes my stress. We need to talk I know. I brought her whole past infront Of her. I know I ignored her unintentionally being with mishti. I know what she might have felt when she saw us playing. She might have craved for her father,her mother,her family. I always wished to give her the fairy tale life. But now,I'm giving her the pain. I don't deserve you Avni. No one deserves a gem like you. No one. You deserves something better. But why do the fate always gives you the worst.

But not again,Today we need to talk. I can't handle this anymore. Day by day,she is getting silent,drowning in her thoughts. She thinks a lot,overthinking! If this continues then I'm afraid she might slip into some depression,and I can't let that happen. I took the vows to protect her. I will and will always loves her till eternity. I need you Av. I'll bring you back.

She was sitting near the open window as usual lost in her thoughts. She didn't even realized my presence. Her eyes are ruddy,means she cried. Her swollen eyes,with some fresh tears still made me again feel ashamed. I can't do this to her anymore.

"Avni,"I called her,as she I stood near her caressing her hairs. She jerked suddenly,awaking from her thoughts.

"Neil tum agayi,I'll bring you tea,"she stated going away from there before I can grab her.

**
She ran towards the kitchen, and broke down keeping her hands on the slab. The air around her started getting thicker. She closed her mouth with her hands to prevent her sobs. There was only them and Juhi and Mishti as the family went out. Her tears flow continously just like the rain water flow from outside. In an absent mind,she went outside, standing in the rain. She cried,hardly. Maybe trying to take out her pain. She sobbed in the rain,making her tears also flow with the water.

His heart pained as he her. He came there in search of her. He knows she is crying,silently. He can understand her. He slowly moved towards her,and slid his hands around her waiste,hugging her tightly. His tears made their to her shoulder. She shuddered feeling him,that too so close to her. He started sobbing,not for him,for her,for their relationship. Feeling guilty, for why their relation is here now,at the stage of ending.

"Neil-neil Why are you crying?,"She asked holding his face,trying to turn,but he didn't let her. He sobbed like that,hugging her from behind.

"I'm crying for you avi,Why are you hiding your feelings? Tell me everything Avni. Slap me,Beat me,curse me,I deserve all. I'm the reason for your tears. Im so sorry. It hurts seeing your tears, and it hurts even more knowing, I'm the reason behind it. I'm sorry."

"Neil Don't cry." She said, "I don't like your tears Neil. It wasn't your fault, this is my destiny. I need to accept the truth and carry on in my life. Nothing lasts forever."

He got alerted at her words. Her words spoke sterness in her decision. He knows whatever her decision might be, it'll not be good.

"What-what do you mean Avni?"He asked."I couldn't understand.""There is nothing to understand Neil. You've a family. You're daughter, Her mother. She needs all the happiness Neil. Unlike me, who was destined to drown in the pain. You should move on with your family. Everything is temporary in my life. You also."she stopped. He understood what she meant. It was always in her mind, since he gave her the news of his child and ex.

"You're not going to do that Avni. Are you-Are you planning to leave me?"He choked. She closed her eyes stopping her tears which will flow, which was at the end of flowing.

"Neil it's nece-necessary. Maybe this was our destiny."She finally let her tears out. She cried hardly. She wouldn't live without him yet she tried.

"You'll never, Because Mishti isn't my daughter."Neil let the bomb out. He finally did her DNA test secretively.

"Wh-what..?"She asked, shocked.

"Yes its the truth. I'll kill you and kill myself if you ever try to leave me I swear."He glared at her, with luv in his eyes.

"I'm sorry."she looked down in guilt.

"It wasn't your fault either. It was your feelings, and I needed to hear it. I love you."he said, leaning his forehead on hers.

"I love you too."That was enough for him to crash his lips on hers, kissing her passionately, wildly making her feel loved.

Those raindrops made them bring back. They witnessed the reunion of two hearts, in every sense.

"Talks can bring you back"

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That's a oneshot I pendown before going inactive for few days.

I don't know how was it
But hope its good enough :)

Thank you for reading

||Hari||