...

"I was wrong"

...

As soon as they reached the dorm, the three walk straight to the kitchen while the remaining four members are already there waiting for them to eat their late dinner. Jin eat one third of his food before he excuse himself to shower and do anything he wants.

When everyone is already finished with their late dinner, they walk back to their own room.

"What are you doing?"

Yoongi asks right after he walks in, into his shared bedroom, noticing Jin there not sleeping. The elder take a seat at his desk area doing nothing but just staring deep at his necklace that he's holding on. Jin looks up, meeting Yoongi's eyes when he heard the words Yoongi said to him.

"Go to sleep hyung, we have early schedule for tomorrow" Yoongi says.

"I will but later" Jin replies, continue staring at the necklace again.

"You heard what Namjoon said right?" Yoongi asks.

"Yes. Don't worry, I'm not doing anything" Jin replies.

"Do you want to talk about it? I'm here if you want to" Yoongi says.

Jin smiles but decline the offer. Just another ten minutes passed, finally Jin decided to stop staring at the necklace and lay on his bed, covering himself. He can't sleep. He can't sleep but he closes his eyes hoping for the sleep to finally overpowering him. Jin didn't know how long since he closed his eyes but he knows, it was not more than two hours when he feels a warm figure laying next to him, on his bed, hugging him.

"I know you're not sleeping"

It's Taehyung. Usually the one who always crash in, sleeping in his and Yoongi's bedroom is Jungkook but for today, it's Taehyung.

"Go away" Jin replies softly, not wanting to disturb his sleeping roommate.

"I'm going to stay here" Taehyung says.

"I have a fever-" Jin replies.

"I know, you're warm" Taehyung says again.

"If you know then leave, I don't want to be the reason you're sick later" Jin replies.

"It's okay, I'm healthy" Taehyung says, not stepping back.

Jin gives up to kick the younger out of his shared room so he just let the younger do whatever he wants. After awhile Jin closed his eyes again hoping for sleep to finally come.

"She is proud of you"

That was the last words he heard from Taehyung before he finally sleep. When the morning approach, Jin woke up feeling heavy all over his body. It was like his body is shutting down, not wanting to do anything but then he remembers that Taehyung came crashing to his shared room last night. Without doubt, the reason why his body feels so heavy is of course because of the giant koala next to him. Taehyung.

"Tae, I need to go to the bathroom" Jin says softly. And Taehyung groans before he let go of his hands and legs.

When Jin stands up from the bed, he walks silently to the window next to his work desk, admiring the scenery. It's another day without his grandmother. It is not like Jin isn't sad anymore, he is but overall he just feel numb, no knowing what to feel anymore. Just numb with some sort of feelings.

After he takes the warm shower and wearing his comfortable clothes, he walks out of the room greeting some of the members who are already done preparing themselves.

"You look pale, I can ask for a break for you" Namjoon states as he watch the eldest from up to toe.

"It's okay, our promotion week is almost at the end" Jin replies.

"Are you sure?" Namjoon asks.

And Jin nods.

...

When they were performing DNA and their past year track, Blood, Sweat and Tears, a sudden firework blew out without any warning, that cause them to be shocked for awhile before masking their reaction for the performance. Jin dislikes firework especially a sudden firework. They didn't get any notice for the firework to be a part of their performance and the sudden firework almost cause Jin an anxiety attack.

It is not like Jin hates firework, he is more to disliking the firework after last year's incident. Yes, at that time they were given the warning about the firework so they were well prepared but what they didn't prepared was the firework waste to fall onto the stage and onto one of the members, Jin.

Jin tried to blame himself for that but it was nothing his fault. He was not standing any near the firework but still the firework waste hit him. At that time, not only Jin's skin were aching but his ears also ringing. Maybe there were some sort of short-circuit of his in-ears or whatever which caused the aching and ringing sound in his ears.

And yes, it was some kind of that. His in-ears were short-circuit. Because of what? No one knows. Things happened whenever they want it to be happened. So since that day, Jin dislikes the firework. The firework incident some kind of giving him a trauma. With earlier warning, he will be alright because he's well prepared but without any warning, that can cause him an anxiety attack if he can't calm himself.

As the firework suddenly blew out and everyone calmly collected themselves, Jin is having a hard time to focus back on his dance. He lost the timing, his heartbeat is speeding, his vision is a bit blurry and he is having a hard time to focus. Everyone notice his struggle. As they were moving here and there dancing, Jimin drags Jin with him and silently tuck Jin's hand, gaining the eldest attention which Jin give to him.

"Are you okay?" Jimin mouths to Jin when he is sure that the eldest is focusing on him.

Jin nods at that. Thankfully by Jimin's action, Jin quickly find the right timing again. All of them perform for awhile then giving the fans their last ment for that day before bowing and thanking all of the fans, the MC and the staffs.

"Are you alright hyung?" Jimin asks again once they were in their waiting room.

"Yes" Jin replies while taking out the in-ears wires from his outfit.

"What happened?" Jimin asks.

"I was just surprised by the firework, we get no warning" Jin says.

Right at that time, one of the broadcast staff come into their waiting room, bowing and apologizing at them. It turns out the sudden firework was some sort of technical issue. The members accepted the apology and quickly brush off the staff because they need to change their outfit and rush for their next schedule. No hard feeling of course.

The next schedules and days afterwards passed by without much mess, just some minor arguments and struggles.

It is days after the sudden firework incident that they are at their peak. Peak of mess. Tired and unstable. They are currently in the waiting room changing their clothes to be back at their dorm because less that five hours later they will officially start their international schedules. Their world tour, tv shows, music programs, interviews, filming and all sort of other things.

Everyone knows when one's body is too tired both mentally and physically, one's can be sensitive towards everything. So now, in the waiting room, they were shouting at each other while some of the staffs packs all of their things.

"It's getting annoying by the way you act. Learn to understand the situation before you muttered anything." Namjoon says.

Jin widen his eyes. Jin knows for sure he did some mistakes on the stage just now but he is not the only one. All of them did. Their in-ears were not working properly, it was a mess on the stage for a few seconds close to half of their performance. When their in-ears got back to work, everyone got their timing right, everyone except Jin.

He was struggling, frequently looking at the back stage where the staffs are monitoring mouthing and asking them why is his in-ears didn't get back to work like the others. He lost the timing and almost caused an injury to the running members. That, makes the others mad at him. Their world tour is around the corner, surely injuring themselves is not on the list.

"I know you're stress but you didn't have to pour it onto me. I apologized" Jin replies.

"I honestly still can't understand you although it's been years since we met. I can never understand you. Once you're kind, the other one you're demanding" Namjoon says.

"Are you a kid? You are mad at something else but you decided to throw shades at me. I have to laugh at that" Jin replies.

"Stop making it worse" Yoongi steps in, looking at Jin as he talks.

"Now you're taking sides. It's not the first time and I'm not surprised" Jin states.

"For once, just once. Why can't you listen to us? Just because you're older that doesn't mean you can do whatever you want" Yoongi replies.

Why did they blamed him? Why did they pointed out his mistakes? Why did nobody pour their anger towards the staffs? They were the one who were supposed to recheck all of their electrical things.

"What do you want me to do? Tell me. All this years, I've been listening to all of you. All this years, but all of you never listen to me. Just because I'm older? Don't make me laugh. The amount of disrespect I get from all of you is greater than what I got in my entire life before I met you"

"Just because I'm an easy target that doesn't mean you can blamed me for everything when I, when I clearly not the one at fault so now, now tell me what you want me to do?"

Jin says, with his harsh tone. He is tired. He is too tired for everything and on top of that, he is still not moving on from his grandmother's passing away. It's barely a week since she left the world. Barely.

"Calm the fuck down all of you" Hoseok shouts.

"Maybe he is right about you. No. He is right. You're lacking. " Namjoon says.

Jin laughs. Hard to believe that they finally agreed with their former management team's leader. The one who left the company to work with other entertainment company.

"Do you honestly think I want this? I should not even stepped in that day. I shouldn't. I'm lacking? Sure, I lacks a lot compare to all of you. Sure, I know that and I admit that"

"I was wrong, no one knows me" Jin says.

"I watched you all this years. We watched you" Hoseok replies.

"You don't even know me" Jin states, sweats still dripping down from his skin.

"We do" someone says.

"No you don't. I was wrong" Jin replies.

"Do you think you're the only one who don't want this? Me too. I don't want this. Your ego is showing, now, can all of us calm down?" Hoseok replies.

"Shut the fuck up. I had enough of all of you" Jin replies.

"Stop. Enough. Matured up" Jimin steps in, saying those words directly to their faces.

"I'm not done"

"You act like you know me when you clearly didn't. Do you know what I was signed as? No right? Because you didn't give a damn about me. Do you think you're the only one with problems? Just because I didn't show you that doesn't mean I don't have any"

"I can't even count with my fingers of how many times you put me down, make fun of me and insulted me. I can't even count. Every insecurities that I have, you said it out loud, humiliated me"

Hands up in the air. Fist fight was about to happen.

"You hate the fact that I said? Yes I hate that too. I trusted all of you but in return you disappoint me. Now what? You want to hit me? Go ahead. I can make it worse on you"

"Enough" Jimin shouts, stopping the argument.

"Please. This is not the time to fight. All of us are not in the best condition so can all of you calm down. I'm not taking sides. I said this as me. Calm down" Jimin says once again.

Clapping. The manager claps, breaking up the tight atmosphere.

"Whatever it is, settle it later. Now, get inside the vans" the manager says.

By usual order, Namjoon, Jin and Yoongi in one van and the other van consist of Hoseok, Jimin, Jungkook and Taehyung but today, today Jungkook offers himself to ride the other van, accompany the three eldest.

Why aren't they changed the whole order? Because the one who are not involved in the argument don't want to. If they rearrange the order, the situation might be worse with them taking sides. So Jungkook offers himself to ride with the others, just to make sure nothing happened.

But something happened.