(Her by: eery Lapis listens to this on repeat)

lapis' pov

I last visited Peridot a month ago, lately I haven't been able to due to exams and swimming. With the season almost ending I've been kept training for competitions. Exams at school on the other hand have been a pain in the arse. Like seriously, they expect me to memorize all the crap we learned in an entire year in just one night?!

Most of the things we learn is not even worth learning in the first place! We're taught all about how gems invaded earth and everything and how kindergardens were made and how they think "fusion" works, but it's all useless. I don't understand how the diamonds think we need to be learning this kind of stuff anyways? The only class I really enjoy at school is the math class I used to take with Peri

but she's not around anymore..

But it's fine. Mrs.Rose was the one who went to the diamonds asking about having a math class in the first place. Her secret husband, Greg told her about math one day and she really liked it and decided to teach it to other gems here at the high school. Somehow the Diamonds approved of it and let her go on to be a teacher here at HomeWorld High.

The class itself isn't what I like about it though, I really only liked it because Peridot was in it.

i miss her..

But that's okay. It's ok. I'm fine now. I'm at least not completely alone. I was lucky enough to have Pearl, Amethyst, Ruby, and Sapphire allow me to hang out with them and let me sit with them in class while Peri is away. They're all really nice too so it's not like they're bad friends or anything. Although sometimes Pearl can get a little bossy, and Ruby and Sapphire will tend to argue from time to time, and Amethyst can sometimes take things too far, they're still good friends.

"yeah, we we're friends"

My eyes start to sting again as I stare at my ceiling fan. Sighing I roll over and feel the tear glide down my cheek. I wipe it away and sit up, glancing towards my window. The breeze outside is nice today, glow of HomeWorld looks beautiful.

but not as beautiful as her

I've been wanting to see Peridot again for quite some time; the thought has bounced around for awhile now but I still can't. Mom and Dad won't let me because every time I come back from the hospital I end up crying for the next 3 days. Peridot really was mine. But now she's gone, forever. I'll get back what once was mine.

what once.. was mine.

a/n:
hello so i just want to apologize about this chapter being all over the place. currently i'm on vacation at my grandparents house with relatives so i have been pretty busy. this chapter is also really short but i just really wanted to post a chapter since it's been awhile but i'm going to try my best to keep things daily.