Tyler and Troye leave the room and I look at Ricky.

"This is a mess" I say, "he hates me now".

"No he doesn't. He just doesn't understand why you won't tell him. He probably feels like you don't trust him".

"But I do trust him. I just can't talk to him about this".

I put my face in my hands and can't stop the tears from flowing over my eyes. I am usually a more private person but I can't help crying right now.

"Connor, please stop crying".

"What am I going to do?" I ask through tears.

"Come with me" Ricky says and links our arms. He brings me into the bathroom and sits me on the toilet.

"I am not going to let him see you like this" Ricky says sweetly.

"He already has" I say and look up at him. Ricky looks surprised but before he can say anything I tell him what happened.

"When I came back after talking to you about me yelling at him, I broke down in the hallway and Tyler dragged me into the room; Troye witnessed everything".

Ricky puts a hand on my shoulder and says "it's going to be okay Con".

"No it's not...he is going to hate me until I tell him, and if I do tell him he will hate me even more. I have used him ever since he got here".

"What are you talking about?" Ricky asks.

"I shouldn't have let him sleep in the same bed as me. I shouldn't have let him cuddle with me. I shouldn't have let him tell me I was amazing and how proud he was of me" I say and feel like crying again.

"Connor, if you didn't realize; he initiated everything. If he didn't want to sleep in the same bed as you or if he didn't want to cuddle with you he wouldn't of asked. Also, he wouldn't lie to you and tell you those things".

I just stay silent and hear Troye and Tyler come back into the room. Ricky hears too and squeezes my shoulder.

He stands up and walks over to the bathroom door. Going into the room and closing the door behind him.

"Can I please talk to him" I hear Troye ask and can't take it. I walk over to the bathroom door and open it. When I walk into the room, all of their eyes are on me. I probably look awful.

"Con-" Ricky starts.

"No" I say sternly and he stops talking. I look at Troye and get nervous. He is just looking at me, probably really confused.

"I need to tell you something" I say and Tyler covers his mouth with his hand. I see him look at Ricky and Ricky does the same.

"Okay" Troye says.

I look up at him and before I can chicken out, I say "it's you".

It takes him a second to understand what I mean and when he gets it his eyes widen and his mouth drops.

He doesn't say anything for a long time and I turn around and start walking towards the door. I knew he would hate me.

"Connor" Troye says and I hear him run up to me. I stop walking and he says "Ricky, Ty, can you please let us talk?".

I close my eyes and really hope that they say no. I cannot do this without them.

"Sure" Ricky says and they walk towards the door. I open my eyes again.

"Just talk to him" Ricky whispers when he passes me. Tyler and him leave with a soft thud of the door and I can't bring myself to turn around.

"Connor" Troye says quietly. I don't say anything and I can hear him walking away from me. I then hear him sit on the bed.

"I'm sorry" he says and I finally turn around. As I do so he looks up at me and I can see the emotion in his eyes.

I stay silent and then I can't help myself, "do you hate me?" I ask, bowing my head.

"No" he says sweetly, "can you please come here?".

I shake my head. This is the most awkward thing that has ever happened to me, and trust me, there have been many awkward moments. Troye stands up again and slowly starts walking towards me.

"Stop" I say and he does. I don't want to do this right now.

"Connor, I'm sorry for pressuring you. I am really really sorry, it wasn't my place to talk about it anyway. I was just jealous...you told Ricky and Tyler and I felt like you didn't trust me. When we had that conversation last night I thought you would finally tell me or at least say something to give me a hint, but you didn't".

"I couldn't" I say quietly and my voice cracks. He starts walking towards me again slowly.

"I know that now" he says and I can hear the smile in his voice.

When he is a few feet away, he stops walking and I just look down at our feet. I still feel really guilty about everything that has happened and I can't bring myself to talk about it.

"So," he starts, "DO you have a type then?".

I look up at him and he is smiling. I feel my face get red and I look down again.

"I don't know" I say quietly.

"Well I think I have an idea" he says then adds, "maybe a singer...Youtuber...and someone REALLY attractive".

I look up at him again and he is still smiling. I give him a small smile and I'm glad he is trying to make this easier for me.

"I guess that's a start" I say quietly and smile bigger, my heart is still pounding in my chest. He holds his hand out towards me and says "please?".

I slowly put my hand in his and he pulls me slowly towards him. He leads me to our bed and sits down. I sit next to him, letting go of his hand but letting our legs touch gently.

"I really hate Tyler" Troye says once we sit.

"Why?" I ask confused.

"Because he could've told me to stop pressuring you a lot earlier on".

"Well, the day I had my breakdown he didn't know either. I told him the day after...only Ricky knew for a while" I tell him. There is no point in lying to him or keeping something from him now.

"He said that he knew there was someone in January though" Troye says and I realize that it has been a while.

"So you've liked me for 6 months?" he asks and I bow my head.

"Actually, no" I say. I stand up and walk over to the window on the other side of the room.

"I should've told you earlier..." I turn around again and look at the ground.

After I breathe in and out I say "okay, you know what, enough secrets". I look up at him and he nods.

"I realized I was gay when I started to have feelings for a guy...it was all new to me so I just told myself it would pass, but you know what? It never did. I started trying to push it out of my mind but I just couldn't". I stop and breathe for a second.

"All of this started in December...I finally admitted to myself I was gay on January 3rd, I finally said it in the mirror and it was the weirdest feeling".

"So it's been 8 months?" Troye asks and I nod.

"You've kept it a secret that long?" he asks astonished.

"Yeah, I mean, I kinda had to. I only told Tyler because I was sick of running. I felt really awful not telling you but I didn't want to say anything until I was sure".

"So you're sure you like me then?" he asks and I hesitate a second but then nod slowly. I smile at him and bravely say "I'm positive".

He smiles at me and then runs to me; enveloping me in the biggest hug I have ever received from him.

"Well good" he says after a few seconds, "because I like you too".

My body freezes and I push his chest gently so he will stop hugging me.

"What?" I ask shocked.

"Um, yeah" he says and looks down. "These past few days I have been pushing myself to do things too".

I don't say anything but I feel like I am going to explode with happiness.

"So you like me?" I ask to make sure this is really happening right now.

He gives a small laugh and says "yes".

I grab him again and absorb him in a big hug, I also bury my face in his shoulder.