This chapter contains themes of Self Harm and Suicidal Thoughts. Be warned.

Tommy had always been a cheerful and happy child. He had a rough start in life, but that didn't affect him. In his eyes it made him stronger. The SBI adopted him when he was 15, Tommy never really talked about his past, not that anyone really ever asked. They knew Tommy had sort of a sad childhood, but never knew what it exactly was and how bad it really was.

Timeskip to a week before his 16th birthday

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Tommy pov

I woke up with a massive headache, it felt like my head had burst open. I heard Phil call me and my brothers Wilbur and Techno for breakfast. I quickly got up and got dressed. I went downstairs and got greeted by my family... Sometimes I wonder why they even took me in... It's not like I am anything special, unlike my brothers and father... Wil is a great musician, and his knowledge about geography is something to be proud of, techno well he is an excellent fighter... And my father Phil well that is self explanatory, he is just great at everything it seems, from singing to fighting, he can do it all... I can do nothing it seems, i am just so annoying... My parents were right about one thing, I really am a useless child who should've died...

Philza pov

I saw Tommy spacing out again. This has been going on for a while, I wonder what happened...
"Tommy, is there something going on that I should know about?". "Its nothing Phil, I'm fine... Just lost my appetite. Nothing else." "You sure mate? You have been spacing out a lot recently." "Like I said Phil I'm fine, just thinking about what we'll do for my birthday." "Hm, ok if you say so, also when are you going to stream?" I asked with a partially happy look on my face. "Around 10, probably. I have to prepare the whole streaming set up, you guys are also going to stream around that time right?" "Yeah, we can stream together if you'd like" I heard Wil say from the couch. "ok, see ya later" Tommy said in a hurry while rushing up the stairs.

Timeskip around 9:58
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3rd Person pov

"How are we chat?" Tommy said in his normal cheerful voice. "Today is a special day, today we will stream with Phil, Techno and Wil". No one knew they lived together, not even tubbo. Tommy wanted to keep it a secret, till it was time to tell. Tommy heard the rest of the SBI join the discord VC. "Hey Tommy's chat how are you guys?" Phil said with his usual cheerful smile. "Today we are going to play a mod, and this is not a normal mod. With this mod we can literally take anything into buckets and when we place them down the items mix to give us an op item" Tommy seemed excited to play this mod with his family and the SBI could see it.

Timeskip Around 1pm the ending of the stream
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3rd person pov

"Bye chat! Have a good day" Tommy said before ending the stream. "That was a good stream" Wilbur said leaning back on his chair in his office. "Yeah, where do you even find these mods?" Phil asked half jokingly. "I have my ways" Tommy said while jokingly tightening his air tie. They left the call and decided to talk on the couch with each other. "Hey, I have been wondering, what do you want to do for your birthday Tommy? I mean we want to do something special for you since it's your first birthday with us" Techno asked. "I dunno, whatever you guys seem fit, it's not my place to tell you" Tommy said while leaning back on the couch a bit. "Also, I have been wondering something for the past months" Tommy said. "What is it?" Wil asked not ready for what Tommy was about to say. "Why do you guys care? I mean why do you care about me and well I just don't get it, it's not like I did something special to deserve you..." Said Tommy with a completely neutral face. The once joyful faces turned into ones with worry. "Tommy why wouldn't we?! You are so special Tommy, and no one could replace you. I have never seen someone as cheerful and happy as you in all my years" Phil said while hugging Tommy tightly. "Oh" Tommy said, now quite surprised. Wilbur grabbed Tommy's arm to hug him and noticed how the boy flinched when he grabbed his arm. He brushed it off as nervousness. The whole SBI hugged each other for a while. And soon went to bed when night came.

Tommy pov

They were right

No one cares

Useless piece of shit

They don't care

Do it

Cut it

It's right there

You can do it

You already did it yesterday

Why stop now?

3rd person pov

Tommy without another thought got up from his bed and grabbed the razor in his cupboard and started cutting himself. The blood dripped off his wrists, the cuts he made today reopened the ones made yesterday. Most of them were quite deep, he then went to the bathroom attached to his room and washed his hands along with the razor. He placed the razor back in the cupboard and bandaged his arms. He rolled down his sleeves and went back to bed as if nothing ever happened.

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Part 2 coming out soon.
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I appreciate criticism.