It was miserable.

It was a miserable life I have lived.

It was a miserable childhood.

It was very miserable.

I have lived my life in the most hurtful way. It wasn't like those who didn't have parents, or lived poor. No, I had parents and they were wealthy. All my friends in school have been always telling me how lucky I am and that I should be more cheerful and grateful instead of looking like the opposite of humble.

They were right... I should be happy because I was abused everyday. Because I was always been forbidden from eating food for days for the tiniest mistakes. Because I was always compared to other girls. Because of the everyday reminder from my parents that they wanted a boy and not a 'girl'. Because for whatever I do... I've never felt enough.

I've always been the best daughter any family dream of. I'm not trying to show off or talk highly of myself, but I know for a fact that I was good throughout the whole time they told me I'm not. I discovered that recently when I heard my friends talking to their parents, and when I've visited their houses. I've never been allowed to even have friends but I somehow managed to have some when I got into high school without anybody's knowing. I've seen them how they were treated and how they treat their parents, I've never been shocked like that before.

Just when I started making friends finally, I've pushed them all away. I discovered that I was just too different, that I think different. Perhaps because I've never had friends before it feels odd to me and I don't seem to fit anywhere.

I graduated high school. I, of course, had struggled to convince my so called parents to continue my studying. I just didn't want to stay at home and see their stupid faces and listen to all those hurtful comments. I've been abused physically and mentally, but something I know is that I'd rather be abused physically than mentally. Verbal abuse hurts way worse than any kind of abuse.

I attempted suicides multiple times. However, something deep inside me kept on telling me that this life is full of mysteries and that all those people who survived bad stuff like me are now living a happy life. I know that that sounds ridiculous but... but I also did not want to die!

I somehow managed to get into the medical field. It was something great. I felt like I have achieved something very great. Although my parents didn't even react to when I told them. I wasn't expecting anything from them anyways. But that wasn't only it, if I got accepted in the medical school, it means that I can go and live my life in my own apartment away from my parents.

I did.

I left them.

It wasn't easy but they were tired of my existence anyways. I'm pretty sure that is the only reason why they somehow agreed. They wanted to go and live abroad and they definitely did not want to drag me with them.

Instead of making friends, I always just went on with the flow. In other words, love me or hate me I don't give a damn shit. I've never trusted anyone anyways.

What a boring life! I graduated college and have became something great, yet I don't want to live the normal life of work to get money and make a family and bring food and so on. It was wonderful at first and I made a lot of money, yet what the hell!

And then one time when I was done having fun in the club (or rather kill boredom) I was going home, I was completely wasted to the point I would actually get in a car accident if I drive the car. I got in the car, and I just sat in the driver seat and... passed out.

Next thing I know is that I was sitting on a chair and there's a blind fold wrapped around my eyes and I was chained.

"What in the name of the seven demons of hell is going on?!" I questioned in a not shocked or scared tone for some reason.

"Oh so you're finally awake!" A voice around me spoke making me flinch "The other girls that my men picked all woke up the same day they arrived. None of them was able to entertain me though, so I wonder if you are worth the time I waited for you to wake up"

I stayed quiet for few moments "How long have I been like this?"

"Three days"

"...three... THREE DAYS?!"

"Chill! I didn't even touch you. I'd rather have my gorgeous and delicious meal awake"

"W-what?! Meal?! Are you a cannibal or something?"

"Huh?"

"That's not what I meant anyways! I meant that I'm late for work THREE days! I have patients you know."

"Aha! So you really are a doctor"

"Nope! I'm a surgeon"

"... that doesn't matter. Now, let me take a look at those beautiful eyes" unfolding the blind fold on my eyes "oh.. my.. GOD!... I wasn't expecting this! Damn! You're GORGEOUS!"

I was now able to see his face and... his eyes... are... well... how do I say that? Unexpectedly Attractive!
And ohhh how handsome he is! Damn!

"Oh thank you! You're making me blush! Now make me a favour and unchain me. I have to go and see what kind of mess have I made this time. I hope they're not dead you know!"

He laughed loudly.

"Oh! Glad that my tiny joke made you laugh"

"I'm not laughing at your joke. I'm laughing cuz ...as if I'm gonna let you go easily!"

"Why not? We had a fun sleepover and now we're done!" I said with an obvious fake smile.

"..."

"(●'◡'●)"

"This is not a sleepover"

"Yea it was very fun!"

"This. Is. Not. A sleepover! You are kidnapped. By me!"

"Yea me too it was a good opportunity for me to sleep this much, for I was passed my bedtime like five days or so anyways. I'm very glad that I got the time to enjoy my time here"

"⊂((・⊥・))⊃... are you really someone who is supposed to be smart and graduated from a medical school and save lives?"

"Yea..... why?"

"Oh Lord!"

We both sat in silence afterwards, but then he looked at me and scanned me from head to toe.

"What's your name?"

"I'm not telling you! You already know that I'm a surgeon, and my name is widely known. I bet it's not hard for you to know what it is" I remarked staring on the floor not looking at him. "That is if you already know what is it but just wanna act dumb"

He chuckled "fine! Let's be even then! Hence this goes the same for both of us! I'm known too you know!"

I looked at him and I found him watching me with a malignant smirk on his handsome sly face.

He continued "Hajime Kokonoi"

I didn't answer for a few moments but then I replied "Y/n"

"Y/n what? Your family name"

"I forgot"

"You're lying"

"And how can you tell?"

"I know a person when's lying and you are lying"

"And what if I am! So what?"

"Looks like you're in bad terms with them that you don't wanna even mention their name"

"You got it"

Silence.

"Can I leave now! I got bored and I need to take a shower!" I whined loudly.

He looked at me kind of shocked.

"I'm also very hungry and I can't function well when I'm hungry!"

He looked at me for a couple seconds and then burst out laughing "Well then! Let me take you to a fancy restaurant!" You'll love it!"

"W-wait? What?'"

"Shhhh! I know you'll be a big trouble so... " he whistled making big men with black suits and maids come in.

Without any objection, they followed his orders. The two big men held me up making sure I won't move and the maids just followed.

I wasn't expecting the maids to shower me honestly. It was embarrassing for me and super tiring for them hence they had to deal with me making them wait and scream "I CAN DO IT BY MYSELF!"

However, they made me look like a whole different person with all the expensive beauty products they used on me and the perfect skin care they gave me. Let's not forget my nails and my toes including my shiny glossy skin and hair.

After I was done, or basically after they were done; I looked in the mirror and saw a beautiful gorgeous lady. I couldn't even recognise myself. Though it was very small amount of make up and I mostly looked natural -aside from the stunning dress- I looked so good and I know that the reason is because I've been depressed for very long time that I ignored the fact that I am actually depressed and I didn't take good care of myself. I was ignoring myself completely.

I heard knocking on the door. He came in and believe me when I tell you his reaction was PRICELESS. Apparently, he didn't expect that I'm going to look like that. Even I didn't.

"I'm so lucky!" He whispered to himself.

"Did you say anything?"

"No. Let's go!"

"What if I don't want?! You can't force me!"

He rolled his eyes but then smirked immediately afterwards raising his fingers "should I whistle?"

"NO! They were very aggressive!"

"I won't be though! So what do you choose? Huh?"

I looked at him annoyed "UGH! Fine!"

He led me to where his car is and damn that shit is extremely expensive and high class!

He opened the car's door for me like a gentleman, but even though, I still felt uncomfortable. I was scared and also not scared. Like I know I shouldn't be here and that I'm kidnapped, yet I don't care I just want to go on with the flow. I was feeling mixed feelings all at once.

We arrived to a huge fancy restaurant that it looks like a resort from the outside. We were welcomed by men with black suits and sat on a VIP table.

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"I really enjoyed this meal!!! It's so good!"

"Glad that you liked it!"

I narrowed my eyes at him "I know you're doing this so you can just manipulate me into doing bad things with you. And that definitely isn't happening! If you let me go I PROMISE I'm gonna pay you back for this delicious meal! You don't possibly think that I can't actually afford it huh?!"

"Hey listen! Calm down! If I actually wanted to do something bad, I would've done it when you were unconscious or when you were completely incapable of escaping at all" he paused for a few seconds "and I know very well that you can pay for such a meal and this fine wine."

"If you know that and you don't want anything from me then" I got up "that's a good bye!" I started walking and then I halted and turned my face to him "thanks for making me realise that I'm actually beautiful and that I need to take care of myself more"

At the point I started walking out of the restaurant. I reached the door. I stopped for a second feeling something uneasy inside me. I continued and walked out of the restaurant and started walking through the parking lot.

I stopped next to his car and just stared at void. "But if ai go back... I'm pretty sure I'm not going to take care of myself and I'm going to die a lonely broken boring person with lots of money which I'm probably just going to donate it to a charity or an orphanage"

I don't know why but I went back. He was still sitting on the chair. Does he know that I was going to come back?!

I fixed my posture, fixed my dress, my hair, and I rose my head. I walked to him all confident and sat back on the chair. I don't know if my eyes were playing tricks on me, but I think I saw him smirking a little bit.

"I thought you left"

"I didn't wanna miss the dessert!"

"...(°_°)"

"(*^ω^*)"

He started laughing "yes sure! It's already ready by the way"

Yup! He knew I was coming back.