My name isElizabeth10th grade, I have no friends, and I'm treated like shit by everyone. I've moved to 3 different schools of course that's when my mom cared. I moved to Georgia, then I moved to Montana, and then we moved to Connecticut. Finally we stayed in Connecticut and my mom put me in a private school. We had to run from my real dad, because he wouldn't leave me and my mom alone. My mom left him when I was about 8. My dad would come in my room every night and hurt me in some kind of way, but I never knew what was going on until i got older. I would come home every day and go to my room until my mom told me it was time for dinner. I knew my mom knew something was going on, i could tell she was worried. I would cry every night when he started hurting me, i didn't like what he was doing to me. My mom could hear me cry every night. Mom was getting suspicious, because at a certain time of the night every night he would get up and come to my room. My mom knew what was going on, and came and asked me what was wrong because I'd been crying after he came in my room at night. Sometimes he'd do it while my mom was at work. I played Volleyball and he always said he was gonna take me to practice, but we never went he just kept hurting me. I never screamed, because he told me he would hurt me more if i screamed and he would kill me if i told anyone. My mom came and asked me what was wrong and i told her because i'd had enough of being hurt. When i told my mom she fell all to peices and all she could do was hold me tight up against her saying "I'm sorry babygirl, it's all my fault." But i knew it wasn't her fault. My dad came in and was going to try to hurt me bad this time, but my mom was in there, and i was glad she was there to protect me. My mom called the police the next day, and told them what was going on and how long it was going on. The police came and asked me a couple of questions and i told them what happened. My mom had the divorce papers when my dad came home, he pushed her out of the way and got all of his clothes and on his way out the door he signed the divorce papers my mom had. I had never been so safe in my life, but now i could be safe without anyone hurting me. It took them 2 years to find my dad.

        I had no friends, because while they were trying to find my dad they had to put it in the newspaper. Everyone would point and stare at me and call me a whore. How was i whore? I wanted to know. I started to think it was my fault, but i knew it wasn't mine or my mom's fault. It wasn't my fault, why were they being so mean? This gang of girls would follow me around school calling me mean things and telling me i was worthless and needed to die. They followed me everyday. They even followed me home. I've never felt so unwanted. They would push me and punch me for no reason. I was nice to everyone and i never talked. I hid in the ditch a couple of days so i didn't have to go to school. The school thought i was sick, they called on the 3rd day i stayed in the ditch. My mom was at home waiting on me and asked me "How was school today have you got anything you need to tell me?" I told her "i was just fine." She told me to lift up my shirt, i was fucked because there were bruises all over my stomach, she asked me how i got them and i told her i fell. She knew i was lying. Then my dad showed back up and started harassing my mom, so she called the law and that's when we moved to Montana. I thought this was all over. Why couldn't he just leave us alone? My mom told me everything would be alright.

        After a year of being divorced my mom finally found someone who was nice to her and treated her good. She was happy and i was happy. His name was Alex, and he had a son named Jordan, he was 16 a year older than me. After a few months of my mom and Alex dating, Alex and Jordan moved in with us. I finally got comfortable with Alex and Jordan and i told them all about my dad. My mom and Alex got married, and Jordan was now my brother. It felt good to have a father figure in my life, but should I trust him? Is he gonna hurt me? I started trusting him and getting really close with him, he was the dad i'd never had. He spolied me just like i was his own. He didn't claim me as his "step-daughter" he claimed me as his "daughter." Jordan was my brother now and that was exciting, we started getting really close, now i can tell him anything. I knew he would always be behind me. He never left my side, if people was mean to me he'd tell them to back off and he'd be mean to them. Me and Jordan had just got home from school when my mom and "dad" was sitting at the table looking worried. My dad looked at me and asked me if everything was okay? Everthing was fine that day just the same shit i got everyday. Nothings never  gonna change. I told him it was a normal day. I called Alex "dad" now because i don't claim my real dad as my dad if he was my dad he wouldn't have hurt me. Mom and dad had told me to sit down they had to talk to me, the school called my mom. My real dad tryed picking me up today. He was there so we moved again this time to Connecticut for good. I was glad my dad (Alex) protected me and my mom. My peice of shit real dad started running again, but this time he didnt get so far. They finally got him. I didn't have to worry about him anymore. I was so excited.

        Everything was going okay, the same shit. Except this time we didnt have to worry about my real dad. Everyone was still mean to me. Things got a lot more excited for me and Jordan, we found out my mom was having twins!! A boy and a girl. I was so excited to have siblings!! Jordan had to stay after school Wednesday and i had to walk home by myself, me and Jordan always walked home together, but i understood. A group started following me home they tripped me, they hit me, they pushed me, and the called me mean name and gave me razors out of a pencil sharpener. What would i wanna do with those? While 5 were taking turns beating me up the other 5 were yelling at me to kill myself. I was beat up pretty bad. I had blood running down my face and on my stomach. I called my dad (Alex) and told him to come get me and then i fainted. My mom, dad, and Jordan were taking care of me waiting for me to wake up. My mom would keep a cold rag on my face while my dad was cleaning up my face, and Jordan was upset crying and cleaning the rest of me off. Jordan thought it was his fault but it wasn't. People just liked being mean to me, but i didn't understand why. I was never mean to anyone and i never talk to anyone but Jordan. After i fully woke up i told mom, dad, and Jordan what happened. It was a mixure of boys and girls. My dad was taking this very serious. I told mom, dad, and Jordan about them giving me razors. My dad walked up into the school mad he wasn't gonna let anyone get away with this. It had been happening a lot lately, but this time it was a lot more than them just pushing me and calling me names. Jordan knew a couple of the guys that helped beat me up, ajordan walks up to them and punches then in the mouth and says "Doesn't feel good does it? Think about that the next time you touch my little sister." The principal didn't do shit about them, my mom took pictures of my face and took them to the police and the police went to get them with assault, because i looked bad. I knew it was just gonna make life harder for me, but they deserved it, I never did anything to them, i don't even talk to them i don't talk to no body. It kept getting worse and worse. The school board and principal wasnlt doing anything about it and they seen my face. My dad was taking it serious and he put me in a private school. Jordan kept saying sorry for this and i told him it wasn't his fault because it wasn't he tried to protect me.

        It wasn't much longer until my mom was gonna have the twins! All of us were super excited. I'd got beaten up again it got worse, but i didn't get beat up everyday like i use to. Jordan found me in the yard bleeding bad. They'd cut my wrists. It hurt really bad. They had to rush me to the hospital because the bleeding wasn't stopping. My dad carried me to the car and rushed me to the hospital. They told my dad if he wouldn't have brought me i would've died. They stopped the blood. Things were still the same, but at least i had the twins to look forward to. I was so excited to actually have blood siblings. Not that i didn't love Jordan because he was my big brother, but he was my step brother. A few weeks later me, Jordan, and dad woke up to mom crying. Her water broke!!! We rushed her to the hospital we was all so excited, even mom but she was hurting. When we got there dad and I got to go with mom in the labor room. Mom named my little sister Maddi Elizabeth and named my little brother Aaron Isaiah. My mom got to come home and we was all so excited. I helped mom with the twins a lot. I loved them so much. They made my life so much better. My mom hollered for me after i got done feeding Maddi, Aaron was done asleep. When i sat down my mom was crying, she was so upset. She told me she's had enough with these kids beating me up and calling me names. She wanted to take it to the police, but she said it was my choice. I was really tired of feeling like a worthless peice of crap. Mom didn't have a lot to do with me because she didn't know what to say. She sit down and had a heart to heart conversation with me. It felt good to know my mom actually cared, but that didn't change things at school. The private school worked for a while and then they started being mean to me. I'd thought about how they gave me razors and how they cut my wrists. The police found out about them vutting my wrists and they pressed charges on them. It was pretty much attempt of murder. I felt much better.

        I finally made a friend. It was exciting. Her name was Anna, and she was 15 just like me. She was sweet. We started getting really close. People bullied us together. The threats never stopped, the hitting never stopped, and the pushing never stopped. Some girl had came up to me and Anna while we was standing in the lunch line waiting for our food. She asked us if we wanted to come to her party. Anna and I was suprised and we just looked at each other. Anna and I was thinking about going to the party, we was thinking about if we should go or not. Anna wanted to go, so i told her i'd go with her because we were really close now. She pretty much lived with me, her parents didn't want her. We went to the mall for a little while to shop. We got some cute tops. The candy shop in the mall was hiring 3 people. Anna and I filled out our application, we had an interview Monday. I was kinda excited. It was almost time to go to the party. I felt uncomfortable there i didn't know there was going to be alcohol and drugs. I wanted to leave, but Anna was having fun. These boys kept coming around me and touching my butt. I went to find Anna i couldn't find her anywhere i was starting to get worried. I heard a scream and ran upstairs. I saw 2 boys on top Anna. I started panicing and i didn't know what to do. I called Jordan and told him to come get me and that Anna was hurt. I tried pulling them off of Anna, but they took turns punching me. One was taking Anna's shirt off while the other one took her pants off. They picked me up and put me on the bed. They'd busted my lip. I hoped and prayed that Jordan was on his way. I started getting dizzy, next thing i know they was on me one taking my shirt off and the other taking my pants off. I heard Jordan say "get the fuck off of her you motherfucker!" They gave me and Anna some kind of punch and i started feeling funny. Jordan punched them in the face and started kicking them. Jordan was pissed i've never seen him so mad in his life. Somebody called the law and seen the boys on top of us. The cops pulled Jordan off of the two boys. The cops arrested the boys and the other cop took me and Anna down to the station. I thought all of this shit was over with. We Should've never went to that party. Anna and i had to give our statement while the clerk called my mom and dad. The women officer took us to the hospital to get a rape kit. We was so scared. I couldn't wait till my mom and dad got there. My dad came in and kissed my forehead. My mom was crying, she didn't know what to say or what to do. My dad had to go out while me and Annd got our rape kit. My mom stood in the middle of us and held our hands. All me and Anna said was "I'm sorry." My mom told us she was sorry. My mom was taking this pretty hard. My dad went to the jail and looked for the boys that done this. They got charged with rape.

        Why did this always happen to me? I was having a hard time. I'd remembered when they gave me the razors. I started to get depressed more and more each day. I got the razors and started cutting my legs. Mom and dad called me, Jordan, and Anna into the living room and told us to sit down. We got some exciting news. Mom and dad adopted Anna, i was so excited. We were moving to a bigger house to have more room for all of us. The twins were getting big they made my life so much better. I started fighting back i thought about what i'd do if anyone messed with my baby sister and baby brother. I finally started standing up for myself. I got the job at the candy shop i loved it. There was a really nice guy that would come to the candy shop everyday when i was working just to see me. Anna didn't show up at work i was worried, when i got home Anna still wasn't there. She came in and was drunk falling everywhere. I was so pissed. She's a trouble child and this isn't helping her case none. I got her a job at this candy shop and she doesn't show up? I got the job about 4months before i got her one. The twins started crying when i came through the door, i always help with the twins, they're like my own. My mom got all over Anna when she came home. My mom couldn't take much more. My dad went to get Anna a drug test, while i was watching the twins and mom was talking to Anna. We thought Anna might of been doing drugs. When my dad got back with the drug test my mom followed Anna to the bathroom. We knew she would fail, but we didn't know what kind of drugs she was doing. I was pissed that she didn't come to work and i was pissed that she would do that with my baby twins in the house. Now that she had her own room i didn't know what she was doing. I didn't care either. I'd had enough of her shit. All i know is that she better not be doing it in the house around the twins. My mom and dad knew that she was gonna fuck up. She's a trouble child and she's been in jail 4 times. It pissed me off that my mom took her in and she doesn't ever care. I was getting tired of her shit. When we checked the drug test there was ectasy, and mollys in her system. That pissed me off to no end. My siblings mean everything to me. My mom didn't have to take her in but she did that's how she become my best friend but i've lost all respect for her now that she had drugs in her system that can mess with her head. My mom told Anna to leave. I got done feeding Aaron and my mom told me to get to sleep. I had to go to work, and i was kind of excited to go and see the boy that would come everyday i worked just to see me. My mom was pretty upset. I offered to stay home and watch the teins but she told me she'd be okay. I wanted to go find Anna and punch her in the fucking face.

        Anna tried to come to work the next day and i told her she needed to leave. She was all fucked up and you could see nneedle marks in the bends of her arms. The manager told me i did the right thing. The manager wasn't mad at me he thought i was doing a wonderful job, he was mad that Anna fucked up on her 2nd chance of life. There's no way he'd hire her now she'd fucked up to bad. Within the next couple of days Anna came to me asking me for money but she wouldn't tell me what she needed it for. I wasn't giving her my money. I knew exactly what she wanted the money for. I don't know who shes been hanging out with, but whoever it was fucked her up. I wasn't dealing with her she had a second chance and she fucked it up. I had myself and the twins to worry about. I spoiled them so bad. When i got off of work i was playing with the twins when mom goes and opens the door mom yells at Anna that she needed to leave. I don't blame my mom, i don't want Anna around either. I have bigger and better things to do. I'd had a lot going on but the twins are what kept me going. Jordan would come by work everyday just to make sure i was okay. Jordan was the best big brother ever, i didn't know what i'd do without him. What gives Anna the choice to do drugs just because shes had a hard life. My life had been harder than hers and i wasn't doing drugs. When i got home from work i told mom and dad to go out and have fun that me and Jordan would watch the twins. They needed time out together. The boy that came in everyday when i was working had asked me out his name was Justin, but i just had a lot on my mind. And i knew if i told him my life story then he'd leave, so we stayed friends. It felt nice that he liked me, and i liked him but i couldn't handle much more. Mom and dad came back and had a great night and i was so glad they got to get out. The twins were done in bed. My mom wasn't upset at us, she was upset at life.

        Mom seemed fine until we got a letter in the mail saying that i should go kill myself. My mom searched my body and she seen my legs, but i swore to her i wouldn't do it again. If i couldn't see the twins my life would be over. Anna tried to come sell me some heroin today, and i'm not into that. I needed to sit down and have a talk with my mom and tell her how i've been feeling. My mom felt like she was the worst mom ever when i let my feelings out. The next day i went to worl the kids that had beat me up came in the store, sat down, and then left they didn't even order anything. It was time to get off i thought i'd stop by the park and think for a little while. I got beat again, but this time i fought back. I went home, and my mom started crying because she'd seen my face. My dad went and got some towels to clean me up with. My mom didn't want me to work for the next couple of days so i didn't. My mom thought maybe this time Anna had something to do with it. My mom runs out the door upset, gets in her car and leaves. Dad went looking for her while i  stayed home with the twins. My dad couldn't find her so we waited for her. At midnight the phone rung and it was the hospital, my dad didn't even know what was happening as soon as they said mom's name he got little Aaron and i got little Maddi. My mom got hit by a drunk driver. At the same time my mom was drunk to. I was so glad the twins wasn't with her. My dad was pissed but he was glad she was okay and so was i. Jordan met us at the hospital and helped me with the twins even thought i didn't need help he still wanted to be there. My mom was hurt pretty bad. She got to come home after a week. I called my manager and he understood what was going on so he told me to take my time. My dad took off work for the next week so i worked that week. When i got home i helped with the twins like always but i didn't mind. Mom finally started getting better and told us she had a drinking problem. I felt like all this was my fault. My mom told me it wasn't my fault it was hers because she was a bad mother and thats not true. When somebody hurt me she made sure they'd never be able t hurt me again. Me, Jordan, and dad stuck together we was glad mom was getting help but we missed her so much. We all took turns with the twins. Mom fonally got out. My life felt complete.

        I decided to give Justin a chance. When i told him about my life story he just pulled me closer to him and told me he'd always be by my