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I was seven, years old that time, when my mom and dad start arguing
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I was eight, when they decided to broke up without filing divorce papers. Dad left us without telling us why
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I was nine, when my mom met a guy. He's a good man and I like him for my mom.
I thought he'll stay with us but I'm wrong
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I was ten, when Paul (the man) decided to leave us. I can't help but to cry. For the second time, We're being left again.
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I was eleven, when my mom starts getting busy and have no time for me
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I was twelve, when my mom decided to go and follow Paul who left us. He left me at my Grandma's house

"Babalikan Kita okay? Hintayin mo ako. I love you Hazel" my mom whispered and left me crying

For the 3rd time, I'm being left again.
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I was thirteen, and now I'm a high school student. I always waited for mom to come back but she didn't

'Babalik naman si mom, promise nya yun eh! Pagbubutihan ko ang pag-aaral ko' I said to myself
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A family day happened. All of my classmates are together with their family. I can feel the pain inside me because I don't have my parents anymore

"Don't mind them. We're here" my lolo says and holds my hand tight
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I was fourteen, when I met a guy named Jason. He makes me happy and I can't help falling in love with him
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I was fifteen, when I and Jayson decided to be in a relationship. He made my tears into laughters. For a short time, I forgot about the pain inside me
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I was sixteen, when Jason suddenly gets cold towards me. I don't know why but starting that day, All the pain comebacks

My graduation day comes, I must be happy but I can't. My mom and dad can't go here. I feel so down

'Mom, please comeback'
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I was seventeen, when Jason and I broke up. I almost don't want to eat and go out because of the extreme pain inside me. For the fourth time, I'm being left by the person I love

I always cry every night. How I wish mom and dad is here for me. I want to feel loved, not left. I want to feel happy, not down. I want someone beside me, but no one dares to stay.
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I was eighteen, when I reached second year college. It's quite difficult but I have to do my best for my Mom
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I was nineteen, when I'm in third year college, it's now getting difficult. I tried my best, and I did. I passed my third year college.

'I'm graduating next year mom. Where are you now?'
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I was twenty, when I graduated Summa Cum Laude. I'm gonna be an engineer soon...

'This is for you mom. I hope you're proud of me'
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I was twenty-one, and I'm now an engineer. I'm always hoping that mom will comeback but I'm wrong
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As time goes by, I always waited Mom to comeback and I always failed to see and be with her.

Mom, I miss you

No words can explain how hurt I am everytime

I want you here beside me..
I want you here for me..
I want to solve my problems with you..
I want to hear your advices for me..
I want you to take care of me..
I want to hear your words saying 'I'm proud of you'..
I want to feel your hugs..
I want to feel your kisses at my cheeks and forehead..
I want to feel your sweetness..
I want to taste your cookings again..
I want to see your face..
And most of all, I want to feel your love and presence....

I NEED YOU MOM...

I thought you're the first person that will stay and never leave me.

Until now, I'm still handling your words. I'm still hoping that you'll comeback....
But you didn't comeback Mom, you didn't....