Author note
As promise another chapter after 4 votes!Thanks btw..Enjoy!
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Kim Taehyung p.o.v
When I have a bad time,I always wondering,why me?Did I do something bad to deserve this?You know what after a few bad things happened I realized maybe its me.

Its me who are worthless,Its me who are always annoyed people.My presence alone was an annoying things for people.Maybe I deserve this.Maybe its my fault.Maybe I deserve to die earlier.Maybe its my punishment to get this cancer.Maybe the members was right,I am annoying.

Here I am at the park.This park is the only place I could pour all my feelings secretly.When I'm sad,Here is where I will crying.This is where I don't feel the need to smile.

After what happened just now with the members,I felt guilty.Is it really my fault?I keep wondering this thing.

The truth is I know they don't enjoy my sandwiches.When Jimin hyung shouted at me,my headache just came back and decided I need to eat medicine and calm myself,I make my way to the kitchen to get my drink.

And I saw the things that teared my heart into a million pieces.Its my sandwiches.They just throw it.Its take all my effort to stop my eyes from produce the salty tears.I was shocked when Jimin hyung shouted at me and I was hurt about the sandwiches.

I guess they just not in mood to eat sandwiches.Its my fault do not think what they want to eat!Maybe I am Selfish!

I want to tell the truth to them but they keep cut me talking.No!its not their fault!it just the bad timing,they were worried about kookie.After a few minute thinking I conclude that this is all my fault!

I keep crying because I felt like I'm alone.I'm afraid If I will be alone even when I can't move later.I will be dying alone.I can't think about something positive.The thought that I will die and I will be alone keep haunting me.

What should I do?!

I keep sobbing until someone unknown talk to me.

"Are you okay,sir?"he said warmly. I just look up and realize its my doctor.

"Oh,its you Taehyungshi.Are you okay?Do you still thinking about your condition?"He spoke slowly while sitting beside me.

I don't know why but I felt like I can trust him,maybe because he knows about my condition.I just told all what happened with the members,How it was my fault.I told him everything except my past and the nightmare that always with me.

After that he kindly tell me to stay at his house.He said he has something to say about this thing.I just followed him.Like I said just now I can felt his sincerity to help me.I can trust him.
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No one p.o.v
[at the doctor's house]

Taehyung just sit with the doctor at the living room while having one cup of hot chocolate in their hand.In just a few hours they seemed to be close already.

The doctor just call Taehyung,Tae while Taehyung call him Seojin hyung.They talk about anything random.seojin don't want to stressed Taehyung by forcing him to talk about his members.

Taehyung who was suddenly talk about his members and want seojin to give him some advice.He was thinking he can't run from his problem.

"Hyung,what do you think I should do?"He said softly still thinking about his members.

"Tae,believe me Its not your fault.Its them who don't appreciated you."Seojin spoke slowly trying to convinced Taehyung that all of that was not his fault.Its true!Even he just know Taehyung,He can be comfortable with him.For him,He was like a cute dongsaeng that have a warm smile.

When he heard that Taehyung's members treated  Taehyung like that,he felt dissapointed.They should appreciate Taehyung.Not to mention Taehyung may not live really long.

"I don't know hyung.What do you think I should do hyung?"Taehyung asked again.

"You have to tell them about your illness."He answered while looking at Taehyung.

"No!I can't.Its to soon.I will tell them when I survive from this cancer"Taehyung said panicly.Eventhough he said that he will tell his members when he survive,He knows deep in his heart he may not survive.

"Okay,maybe you should stop smiling to them and show how you really felt.I know you hide your feeling by smiling."He said.He knows Taehyung too well eventhough he just met him.He noticed this habit of Taehyung when instead of crying Taehyung just smile sadly when he heard about his illness.

"I don't think I can do that.I will not stop smiling."He spoke filled with determination.He can't stop smiling.When he ran away from his Family he promise to himself that he will never show his feeling and just continue to smile

Seojin just sigh and he came out with an Idea to make Taehyung's members appreciate Taehyung more.

"You can smile,maybe you don't have to talk to them.I suggest you must have something you want to do right?I will try to do it with you.eventhough I will do all that things with you but I want you to know,I believe you will survive Tae,okay?"Seojin spoke firmly while looking deep into Taehyung's eyes.

Taehyung who were touched by Seojin words just agree with a teary eyes.Seojin was shocked with Taehyung's teary eyes and he quickly hug Taehyung.

"You can cry on my shoulder.You don't have to hide it if you are with me."Seojin whisper to Taehyung.With that Taehyung just cry as much as he want.He just realeased all his feel after what he have been get through alone.His cancer,His past,His nightmare.But He believe now he have someone who will always be with him.
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Author Note
Here another chapter for you.I know it depressing..I don't know why I wrote this story like this.Oh,I also need a new cover,If someone can kindly make it for me I really appreciate it. σ(≧ε≦σ) ♡

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