Chanyeol

I stared at the food right before me, as I was completely taken away in thoughts. It's been a week and she haven't come to college since the following day of the incident happened. I tried so hard to forget about everything and move on.

But something kept me thinking only about her. I couldn't forget those beautiful days I had with her. Eve since that day, every time I go out, I look at her house, hoping she would come out at some point. But, she didn't.

"Ya ya Xiumin ssi? Wae?? It's mine. Give it to me." Lay yelled at Xiumin who was having his food. The guys seems to be happy and they all gave up on her so soon, as they went back to their lives without any suffer.

The only one who is still carrying the pain is me. I tried to stay cold and dense outside, but inside my mind only makes me think about her.

"No! It's mine now." Xiumin said and tugged two more spoon of stews inside his mouth. Lay shoot a death glare at him. Sun Nim and Sehun came walking towards us, carrying some drinks and snacks in their hands. They handed over the food to the guys and took their seat.

"Thank you Sun Nim." Chen said showing his puppy smile. She smiled back at him. I am surprised that she is normal and not thinking about her. She never talked about Shin ah after that incident.

She was happy and having a lovely time with Sehun. Now, I am even more worried about Shin ah because, no one is there for her. No one.

"Did she say something?" Baekhyun asked her. She moved her gaze from the food to Baekhyun and asked,

"Who is that she?" Her answer was kinda rough that made me shocked.

"Uhm... Shin ah!" He exclaimed.

"I am not talking to her either, So I don't know anything about her." She said without any hesitation, which literally gave me a pain in my heart. She did say that.

"What?" Kyungsoo asked with terror filled eyes.

"How could you even say that Sun Nim? When you had no one, she was the only one who came to you and talked to you. She was there for you every single moment. And now when she is in pain, you don't even care about her? This is insane." Kyungsoo yelled at her. She kept the spoon aggressively on the bowl and looked at him with anger.

"You say I am being selfish and not worrying about her? I know the pain of being neglected by others and living alone. It's something which is terrible that I've gone through in my life. You know what? I care about her more than you guys. I love her more than you guys do. I want to go to her house, meet her and comfort her with soothing words. But things can't be forgotten that easily. Imagine, when you are by her side the entire time and you come to know that she hid something big from you. How do you feel? I felt shattered and broken. That moment I felt like I was useless. She didn't even let me know about that. If I don't talk to her or meet her, it doesn't mean that I don't care for her. I do. Even now I do. But also I want you guys to understand that I am human too, who needs time to get rid of things and forgive right? Please give me and her some space. I want her to understand what fault she has done. I want her to realize herself and come back to us. I know she will. I miss that beautiful smile of hers that can bloom my bad mood. We all want that charming and cheerful girl to come back to us with her heavenly smile and laughs. I miss her. Please understand guys, I am not selfish. I miss her a lot than you guys do." She said as she covered her face with her palm hiding her tears. Sehun embraced her putting his arms around her shoulder and leaned closer.

"Hey! It's okay dear, we know you love her so much. I know how much you are hurt too. It's just we worried about her. She has got no one other than us. Now, she is all alone. That's why they got furious." He whispered in her ears. Then the next moment, all the eyes were glued up on me. I leaned back on the chair and looked away.

"Chanyeol? Please eat something. You are losing your appetite." Suho said while bringing the spoon near my mouth to feed me. I stared at it.

"Say 'ahhh' ... just eat it." He said. I did so and munched the food.

"Chanyeol... Please say something. Why are you like this?" Kai asked me. I looked at him with blank expression on my face.

"How could I forgive someone who cheated on me over my long time enemy? Do you think I'll forgiver her and get back to her? Never. I can't" I said looking away with rage.

"Hey! Don't say that. She must be hurt. And you know what? They both stopped talking to each other. Look over there. He looked happy and not worried about anything and anyone. Shin ah doesn't know anything about him. Because she didn't see, what we all saw about him. Please forgive her." Baekhyun said.

"Yes Channie." Chen agreed with him. I rolled my eyes and opened my mouth for Suho feed me another spoon.

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End of the day

I pushed opened the door and walked in. I roughly removed my shoes and got inside the living room. The lonely feeling kills me already. I removed my bag and throw it on the floor as I jumped on the couch taking a deep breath.

I looked at the ceiling staring at it for a long time. Memories flashed at the back of my head.

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Flashback

The night I confessed my feelings to her. I kissed her under the moonlight and the bright stars above. I then carried her bridal style to the room downstairs. I lay her down on the bed and went back to lock the door.

I latched it and then turn back to look at her. She blushed. I took my steps slower staring at her. I reached her closer and then sat next to her.

"At last, I could embrace you in my arms." I said smiling at her as I tugged a chunk of her hair behind her ear. She flinched on my touch. I took my other hand to her cheek and touched her made her look at me.

"Love you." I said which made her cheeks burn even more.

"Love you too." She said while tagging her hands around my neck. We were too close enough to kiss. My gaze moved from her eyes to her lips.

"Now, you can kiss how much ever you want." She said chuckling cutely. I nodded and leaned in planting a soft kiss on her lips.

I slowly made her lay down on the bed without breaking the kiss, as I lay next to her. Her arms around my neck and my arms wrapped around her waist. We then pulled off and looked at each other.

"Promise me that you'll never leave me." She said.

"I will never ever do that sin, my angel. I promise." I said kissing her forehead. She smiled brightly digging her head over my chest and we slept just like that.

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Back to the present

No I lied. I didn't keep up my promise. I shattered all her trust over me. Everything disappeared in a glimpse of time. Everything changed. I closed my eyes and sniffed. I felt a warm liquid streaming down my cheeks.

I lost her.

I lost, my angel.

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