I sit there softly looking at the sunrise. Awake even before zelda. I smile, people work in mysterious ways I guess. Some scared some happy, some sad and uncomfortable.

For all my life I've been all of those. Happy to he who I am but scared with this task. I'm sad because I cant open up and uncomfortable because I remind zelda to much of her self.

I've always felt so distant to people. I dont even remember my dad. Should I. Is it ok if i dont. It's like I'm hanging by a thread. My world is spinning and no one is here to make sure I dont fall. No one to hold me when I'm hurt.

No one to softly let me sleep in peace with a gentle voice to the ear. Its almost as I'm swimming, my heads to deep but cant touch the bottom with my feet.

Something pulls me down but nothing launches me out. Things corrupt my being, I can find multiple almost as a fight against life and myself. What is happening to me. Am I turning soft and scared or just to nervous to think.

For some reason I cant sleep, or breathe or think. It just hurts me. Its It's like my body is still here but my feelings are somewhere else. Running around being the kid, life where training wasnt the only thing I was allowed to do... am i to deep in thought.

Just enough

Or to little.