Tw/Cw: Depression, Dyslexia, a little self-hate and homophobia

Karl POV:

A sound. A sound of a car. What? A car?

I have just wake up and wait for Sapnap to wake up. I crawl up closer to him bury my face in his oversize shirt.

But the car noises makes me leave the comfortable position. I walk to the window and look out.

Fuck.

My parents are home. They will see their already hated child sleep with a boy? They will kill me. Sapnap have to get out now!

"Sapnap! Sapnap wake up! Now!" I say and shake my boyfriend's shoulders.

He open slowly his eyes and grin.

"What is it?"

"I don't have time to explain but my parents are home and they can't see you so you have to leave before they find out about us!" I just say and start pack his things in his bag.

"Oh okay, call me if you need something!" He ask carefully.

"I will! Sorry for kick you out but I have to..."

Sapnap grab all his things and jump out from the window down on a small roof under my room. He glide down and run away, through the bushes.

I take a shower and clean up room so my parents doesn't should found out about Sapnap.

The thing was that I haven't told them about sexuality because they are homophobic. My sister was straight. Of course, she is the perfect one in the family.

"Karl Jacobs! Get down here and help us carry in the bags from the car!" Mom yell downstairs.

Not even a 'hello'...

"I'm coming mom!" I scout back and run down to the car.

Ella step out from the car. She have brown long hair and green eyes. She is pretty short compared to me. She is holding only her own bag and just walk past me like if I was air.

Dad gave me a bag without even look at me. Sometimes I feel like a ghost...

"Honey! Eat something, you must be hungry. I hope Karl haven't eat everything there." Mom say to my sister and throw an short glaze at me.

"Yes mom! I take a fruit, It's not many left tho." She shout from the kitchen.

My mom turn angry at me and say to me:

"You are going to be fat if you eat more! Don't you want your sister to eat something? Do you want her to die?"

Yes

"N-no sorry mom!" I just stutter and feel tears burning in my eyes.

"Don't call me that!" She say and give me and slap on my cheek.

It hurts but not as much as when Technoblade or his friends hit me. The thing that hurts now is the feeling of loneliness.

She walk in and leave me crying in front of the car. Me and all the bags I am supposed to carry in. Why do I still cry for this? It happens all the time. Mom tell me to not call her mom and then slap me.

Why do I still call her that then? I think it's the hope. It tells me that she one day will love me. Just like she love Ella.

"Karl wake up! It won't happen."

No. It won't happen. So I just wipe away my tears and walk in with the bags.

I have to be used to this now! Why is it to hard?

"Is it okay if I go to a friend?" I ask my parents that already have start pack up their stuff.

My dad just start laugh. Walk up to me.

He is really tall and strong. I am actually scared of him.

"So you have a friend huh? Stop lying for me, a mistake as you doesn't have friends!"

I back slowly and my back hit the wall. My dad is walking closer and stare in to my eyes.

"Please... I- I do have a friend... He is-" Tears start run down my cheeks and I don't know what to say to calm my dad down.

"You say he? You stay here today! But why don't you bring over your little friend? We don't want you to be a fucking fag, right?" He say and walk back to the kitchen.

I run up to my room and try to hide my sobs on my way up. I lock my room and lay down in my bed.

How could I think I could leave the house? I'm so stupid.

I need Sapnap now. But I can't get him now.

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