finally you and taylor were done with all the boxes and you two could finally move to your house together.

emily moved with you two and she used the guest room as hers. taylor tried to convince you to decorate it as emily wanted, the colors, the bed and all that.

"i don't think that's a good idea, tay... my dad said he would be back, and i'm not gonna lie, i thought he just left her with me and left for good. but he has been texting me and asking me how she was, and he even gave me the number of the guy that is following him with the rehabilitation. i think he wants to actually be there for emily" that's what you answered. as soon as he asked you to look after her you immediately thought he was just abandoning her. but the day after he texted, asking how his 'little angel' was doing. and the day after again. and again. and again.

and now it was the first night you would sleep in the new house. your new house. yours and taylor's.

you put emily in bed and then you joined taylor in your bedroom.

"first night in our new home" taylor commented while hugging you and laying her head on your chest.

"yep" you smiled down at her and kissed the top of taylor's head.

"how is emily?" taylor looked up at you, her chin laying on your chest now.

"she's good" you replied and taylor started at you for some seconds.

"what are you thinking about?" you asked her since she was just staring without saying anything.

taylor sighed, thinking if she should ask that question.

"how are you feeling?" taylor asked, you could see in her face that she was concerned.

"i'm good, tay. thanks for asking" you chuckled.

"how are you?" you asked back, just that taylor didn't answer that question.

"you know i'm not asking you that. how are you feeling about this whole emily situation?" she asked again, more specifically.

you just sighed, not really wanting to talk about that.

"i mean, i'm not telling you that you have to talk about it if you are not ready, but i think you need it" she finished.

"i like her" you simply replied, knowing that was not what taylor wanted to hear.

"yn..." she softly spoke, brushing some of your hair that had fallen in your face.

"i don't know, tay..." you started, knowing that taylor was not gonna give up.

"he really seems to be waiting her back, and i'm happy he does. i honestly am not ready to take care of a kid...yet" you started explaining. you and taylor both knew that there was more though, and you knew that talking about it would be nice, so you took some deep breaths and started talking again.

"but i'm confused... i think" taylor frowned slightly. you notice her confusion and chuckled at her face. you run the hand that was not wrapped around taylor through her hair, and leaned closer to taylor to kiss the top of her nose.

"why didn't he want to do that with me?" you finally spoke and you saw taylor's face relaxed the frown.

"why didn't he tried to make up with me? why didn't he tried to get better? to stop drinking? why didn't he realize he was hurting me?" you asked all the questions out loud, knowing that taylor couldn't answer those questions but deep down you hoped she would try.

"i don't know, love" she said, starting to draw patterns on your shoulder with her finger.

"i know you don't, i wasn't expecting an answer from you" you told her, smiling slightly at her.

"maybe you could ask those questions to him?" she suggested and you thought about it for some seconds, while still running your hand through her hair. from the front of her face to the back of her head.

"i don't think i wanna know... i mean i do want to know, but i'm scared tay" you confessed.

"it's normal that you are, baby. he hurt you deeply and i don't blame you for being scared" she tried comforting you.

"i'm scared of what the answer could be" you admitted and taylor smiled at you, happy that you could at least talk about it.

"i know, baby. i'm glad that you were able to talk about it with me"

"of course. you are the only one who i feel safe with" you kissed her nose again, making her scrunch it. you smiled at her and she poked your dimples, like she always does.

"i love you, tay" you said smiling and she smiled back.

"i love you more" her smile swiftly shifted in a smirk.

"why are you making that face?" you asked chuckling, knowing exactly what she was thinking.

"what do you think if we inaugurate the new bed?" taylor asked, confirming your thoughts.

"are you sure?" you asked and she nodded.

"yes, if you are" you didn't answer. you just smiled and moved quickly so that you were on top of her. you started kissing her passionately, with each kiss tension grew. taylor stopped kissing you for a second.

"i know we never did it and it's completely fine if you don't want to but can i take care of you tonight?" she asked and you smirked at her, not moving.

"you wanna be on top?" you asked to make sure and she nodded slowly, biting her bottom lip.

"yes if that's okay with you" she repeated and you moved to her side.

"go on" you told her and she smiled, getting on top of you. you've been together for four months and you were already living together, but taylor never, and i mean never, saw you completely naked. you were always the one on top and taking care of her, and by the time you were done she was too tired to even shower by herself.

she started by kissing you your lips, then moving slightly on the side of your lips, then the cheek, jaw, neck, collarbone. until she arrived to the neck of your shirt. she sat up on your lap, helping you take of your shirt, and then she continued by kissing your chest, and going back up when she reached your bra. she went all the way up to your jaw, where she started sucking and leaving marks. she left some of them. one on your jaw, right under your ear, one on your pulse spot on your neck, one on the crook of your neck, where the neck met your shoulder, one on your collarbone, one on your chest, and finally one on your boob, right over your bra.

she took her time doing this, making you moan some times, but you were quick enough to bit your lip before waking up emily.

"can i take this off?" taylor suddenly stopped sucking and kissing your neck to ask this. you were surprised by how excited you were already and you were scared that if you opened your mouth all the moans you held would come out. so you just nodded.

"baby, words. i thought you knew that" taylor said, the last part indicating that you always said that to her, so she thought you knew how to answer properly.

"y-yes" you managed to say without moaning. taylor smiled at you and unclasped your bra, taking it off completely and throwing it on the ground next to the bed.

taylor stayed there, still, watching you for some seconds. without touching anything else if you she got of of your lap and touched your pants.

she quickly pulled them down and threw them with your bra. she then grabbed the side of your underwear and looked up at you.

"can i?" she asked again and you nodded. you immediately noticed that you didn't answered verbally so you immediately fixed it.

"yes, please" you said and she smiled at you, taking them off and then she stayed standing on the floor right by the end of the bed. she was looking at you for the first time.

"fuck you're gorgeous" she said before climbing back on top of you and kissing you on your lips.

she kept kissing you, with her left elbow, right by your head, holding her up. her right hand was on your left thigh, just laying there.

after some time of taylor kissing you on your lips and sometimes moved to your neck, she started moving her right hand. her fingers slightly touching your leg while she moved it up and down stopping close to your center, but never getting there.

as she started doing this, she moved her face to your chest too, starting first to kiss your boobs, but then starting to suck at them.

while doing this she moved her right hand back up, to your other boob.

so with ger mouth she was sucking your right nipple, while the other one was teased by her hand.

"fuck tay" you moaned softly, knowing that emily was sleeping right next door.

taylor hearing your voice lifted her head, worried she was doing something wrong. but when she saw your face she immediately knew she was not doing anything wrong.

"i know baby, some more minutes okay?" she whispered and you nodded, incapable of forming a coherent sentence.

"good girl" she said smirking and then she went back to what she was doing.

with all the time taylor was taking you could've sworn another star wars trilogy could have come out.

you were starting to get really impatient and to let taylor know you arched your back, your head falling back and you closed your eyes, biting your lip.

taylor thankfully got the clue and she moved lower.

she started by kissing your thighs and massaging them with her hands. your breaths were heavy and it was now impossible to keep your eyes open.

"tay" you cried, but taylor didn't do anything that you wanted her to. she moved your legs on her shoulders and she started biting your inner thighs, not hard enough to leave marks but enough to make you feel it.

your back arched again, this time more than before and taylor understood that you were close.

she finally moved to your center. she started with a slow lick, making you grasp to the sheets with all the strength you had.

you moaned, and this time you couldn't hold it in.

"shh baby, we don't want emily to wake up, do we?" she asked, her mouth still close to your center. you could feel her breath and this made you want to moan harder, but you knew you couldn't. you just shook your head.

taylor smiled at you and then kept teasing your clit with her tongue. she kept going fore only a couple minutes, before you could feel it coming.

"tay, i-i'm close" you informed her and she got some inches away from your center.

"i know baby, hold on for two more seconds" she said before sliding a finger inside of you. your back arched again. it has been probably around a year since the last time you did it, and you stopped being used to it.

one of your hands stayed grasping on the sheets, while the other one started playing with your boob.

taylor started pumping in and out, slowly. you moaned again, but this time you kept it quiet.

seeing that you were really close at this point, taylor added a finger and started going faster, while she was teasing your clit with her thumb.

"t-tay" you manage to say.

"i know baby, it's okay, come for me" she didn't have to repeat it twice. you immediately released and came all over taylor's fingers.

taylor kept her fingers in you, helping you to ride out your high, and when you finished she removed them.

you now could finally open your eyes again and look down at taylor. you looked down just in time to see her putting her fingers in her mouth and licking them.

she then crawled back on top of you and kissed you, letting you taste yourself. then she laid beside you, with her head on your chest and her arms wrapped around your waist.

"wow, where did you learn to do all that?" you asked after you caught your breath.

"watching"

"you have to tell me what porn you watched cause, baby, you did fantastic" you said kissing the top of her head. she looked up at you and smirked.

"i didn't watch any porn, i watched you" she simply said.

"damn, am i this good too?" you joked, not really expecting an answer.

"no," taylor started and you frowned, offended. even if it was true, she didn't have to say it this explicitly.

taylor seemed to understand what you were thinking about so she quickly added.

"you are better" you smiled at her and kissed her nose, making her scrunch it.

"ohh okay, i thought so" you sarcastically said.

"i think i'm going to take a shower" you said sitting up.

"you need help?" taylor asked sitting up too. you didn't answered at first, you tried to get up but your legs were really wobbly and you could have walked to the bathroom but standing for the whole shower time was not an option.

"yes please" you said and taylor chuckled, walking to your side of the bed and you grabbed into her like a koala. she brought you to the bathroom and made you sit on the bathroom counter.

she left you there while she started running the bath. when the bath was done she helped you in and helped you wash yourself.

you washed your hair only that morning, so taylor put your hair in a bun and used a rubber band that was in her wrist. then she helped you wash your body.

when she was done she helped your out and wrapped you in a robe. she left you again sitting on the closed toilet this time and she went to grab some clean clothes.

after you were dressed and in bed, taylor laud next to you and this time you were the one that laid the head on taylor's chest, wrapping your arms around her waist.

"thank you" you said.

"for what baby?"

"for being the best in everything, i love you"

"i love you more baby"

"impossibile" you mumbled immediately before falling asleep.

"it is possible, and it's the truth" taylor said, expecting an answer telling her how wrong she was. but that answer didn't arrive cause you were already asleep.

she looked down at you and smiled when she saw you were sleeping. she kissed the top of your head before saying:

"good night, baby" she then drifted to sleep too.