(hi loves, omg i miss writing imagines so much so im back. hope you guys are okay and im here for you. love you all gorgeous ppl🫶🏽)

im out,
nothing here to care about.

whats that sound?
whats that song about?
its nothing worth me saying aloud.

So then why do i seem to need to?
Then why do i seem to need to?

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3Rd person pov;
Communication was key, thats what y/n kept reminding herself. This was y/n 2nd relationship, her last one she got cheated on but still blamed herself, she said sorry to the boy for fucks sake. Thats how she was, if she was in an car accident and it wasn't her fault, she would still apologize.

As the black haired girl sat at her window seat with her knees tucked in, no longer interested in her book. She felt guilty look at the window across from her, her boyfriend Matt was at his window, aware the girl was there and forcing herself to not look.
She rubbed her eyes, dragging her hands down her chubby face.  She loved her body the way it was, her face was chubby but her body was her fav. It wasn't skinny like the instagram model their was a bit of tummy on her stomach, but she had a somewhat hourglass body, but she didn't have a problem like that. its just she was drained, she didn't know how to talk to Matt about it. She kept it to herself all the time. She always feels excluded. Her family went on vacations leaving her, claiming they need someone to watch the house.

(everyones body is beautiful, i was just describing my body. honestly imagine your body too because like no matter what the imagine is, i want to make sure everyone is included. Like i saw this one imagine -not sure if its deleted- but some people skipped the imagine commenting saying it wasn't their type because the girl was chubby...like no that doesn't matter, like read it. honestly ppl need to be humbled. i love every body, im not the type to make fun of someones body, its rude and unnecessary.)

She got used to it, but her family? wasn't the best, making fun of her for her body and the choices she made. Starving her and not giving any food other then salads and smoothies and fruit, yk how it goes.
But she couldn't put it in words how she felt.

She didn't think she needed to talk about it.

All she needed was Matt, and as if he was reading her mind. He knocks on her bedroom door, he let himself in since he knew where the spare key is. Y/n was zoned out so he just walked in since he didn't receive a response. He stood there for 20 seconds admiring her, even tho her hair was slicked into a ponytail and she was in a hoodie and shorts, she looked beautiful. Matt believed that there was never a moment in his life where he thought 'this girl is ugly'.  He was in a white shirt and grey sweats. He made his way over to the now half asleep girl, without talking he picks her up and moves her on the bed as her face is laying on his chest.

"pretty?" he says hopefully getting a response to her nickname
"mm" she said humming, satisfied with the response he continued talking
"i need you to tell me whats wrong" he says seriously
after 10 seconds of silence he heard a faint whisper
"book" she said pointing at the notebook on her dresser, all her feelings and secrets were in it. Matt felt guilty whenever he touched it, it was her privacy after all. But when she gave Matt the signal to turn to the book marked page, he wasted no time getting the book before going back and putting her head on his chest and her arm wrapped around his tummy.

As he reads it, his eyes get watery at the end, looking at the sleepy girl, now asleep. He knew now, whatever happens he was going to be the first one to know, not the note book, not her best friend. Just him. He puts the book on the nightstand beside her bed. 2 sentences in the book repeating in his head the whole night. He moves so now he was on his side  rather than having the position of a dead person in a casket her head now facing his chest as his arms wrapped around her body, rubbing her back.

"i love you, i know your sleeping, but from now on i need you to come to me and talk to me. ill do anything for you pretty" he says unaware of the girl awake now. Tears spilt from her eyes realizing that all she needed was Matt. She always thanked her guardian angels and god (sorry if your atheist just pretend she was thanking herself of something) for sending Matt to her.

Matt felt the warm tears leaking through his shirt now aware of the girl awake.
"shh i got you" he said as one hand played with her hair and the other rubbing her back

"i love you so much Matt, im sorry for shutting you out. Please don't hate me." she said crying

his heart broke for the girl, wish he had the pain instead of his girl.

"i could never hate you, i love you pretty, don't forget it" he said kissing her forehead

"i just thought-" she said being cut of by her own sob
"there was its nothing worth me to say aloud" she said looking up at him

"No matter what happens, argument or if we are a country apart, i will always listen. you are worth it, everything you say matters. your feelings matter. don't shut me out please" he says hoping from now on they will be okay.

And they were, they were okay because they had each-other. Thats all they needed.

(so how do we like this imagine???? btw this is an actual song called 'Need 2' by Pinegrove🫶🏽)